HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

its my brother's birthday today. hehehe. lemme find a NICE picture of him. x)

wait. his tongue is underneath his chin -.- ahh whatever.

LOL. anw, my mum ordered a BIG CAKE for him >=( its UNFAIR. i dont get that kind of treatment at home okay. hmpf. whatever. it will be arriving soon.

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SCHOOL was alright today. we did the flaggie thingy for art today. i did on finland. no i dont know anything about it cept that the flag is nice and simple to draw XD ITS BLUE AND WHITE thats why its nice x)) and we have to draw some thingies. i decided to do fruits. i gonna draw a FRUIT BASKET =)

hmm for maths mr lin taught us..line of symetry? and umm. mininum / maximum point of a graph or something. well then. RECESS! OH YAY. haha. i ate hor fun. niceeeee as usual. ahaha. and carine says i eat fast. lol. maybe i was hungry. but victoria says i eat VERY slowly =( ahh nvm. hehe.

oh yah, YIN LAO SHI DIDNT COME TODAY AND I WAS VERYVERY HAPPY cause i didnt do the jian bao. she'll pester me for it. I AM LAZY. especially when youre sitting right in front youve got no choice luh =(

ENGLISH. ms haq didnt come again today. THANK GOD. cause i didnt do all my english homework. whoops. haha. okay i have to do it by this weekend or else i'll be dead. oh yah. mr tan came to relief us today. there's a composition which all of us have to do -.- lalalacrap. oh yaaa. i love talking. hehehe. told sijie a lot of things. hahaha. ^^'"

anw, science was like. uhhh. we labelled the hamburger. and we had to draw umm. ____able lips. thats what mr lim said. x) and i wrote a lot of stuff on that page. and WHAT IS DIGESTION is a very common question. laaahs. and umm. we drew the alimentary canal. yuppos.

and then asm. yay! lol. i thought i was going to fall asleep again. but this one was showing miyasaki and stuff. im not sure if im going this year. maybe not. x) and uhhh. i laughed during the school song. OPPPS. because some ji siao guy sang the burning bush as buring BUSSSHHHHHH. LOL. i was laughing laaa. =X

hmm. then i had lunch. ate...that yong tau fu stall. blahblahblah. and then. ART ROOM! for art club. yup, i just joined art club. hehe. today we did paper machie. whatever the spelling is. hahaha. WE DID 7 LAYERS. hahaha. we were going to do a GLOBE. XD and so we did the people around the world after that. mine was like so colourful. ahaha. & i got to know some sec ones. hehe. AND I USE THE COMPUTER IN THE ART ROOM. shhh..hahahaha.

and then..when we were going back, i tripped but i laughed ^.^'" hehehe. I LOL. as in really. and carine was like -.-"' LOL. and the sec ones starred at me. hehehehohoh. i ate a banana when i came back. AND I FOUND OUT SOMETHING. A INTERESTING FACT. my monthly expenditure is...$90. =/ i've been eating A LOT these few weeks. i spend $3 on food a day. =/ recess & lunch mah. and...that means like. $70 on food per month. and...$20 on transport a mth. crap. I HAVE BEEN SPENDING TOO MUCH. but its not the time to cut down yet. heheh.

okay. this is a really long post. whew. lol, take care, God bless & byebye! XD cake is coming oh~ =D

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tried a rainbow text generator just now. hehe.
see what i did.
-sandra posted and laughed =D
hehehe.
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the feeling of being used

UPDATES
1. i downloaded graphmatica and its rather nice actually =)
2. i did my homework in school
3. i know my grades are de-proving (that spells BIG trouble for me)
4. my design folio is incomplete.
5. i haven't bought a d&t apron
6. i have to do the props for lit (i lugged 3 umbrellas back home today)

7. i read www.funbrain.com the diary is VERY interesting. a must go. i shall link it soon (: i'm at day 223. heheheh. oh yarh. i think i started reading last year. hehehehe. x)

i guess that's enough. okay, the feeling of being used.

firstly, picture this scene in your mind.

you thought some people were going to walk towards you, but they walked and talked to the person BESIDE you instead. and then they treat you like you're invisble and squeeze their way in and take over your standing or sitting place. now think.

next, someone comes up to you smiling. you thought that person wanted to talk to you. but that person just asked you for a favour. like uhh. doing something for them. and then you foolishly say okay. well i say okay all the time lah. and i feel very very used. get what i mean? you cant say no can you? i dont know. then you think, if you say no, that person will dislike or even hate you.

you understand? its not like i am like a toy okay. that you can pass around and throw into the bin or at a corner when you feel like it. i got scolded my many people today. do you know the feeling of being isolated? no? okay i shall fill you in.

one day, when you decided to chat up some people, they diao you and they just nod their head and walk away. then when you try talking to them again, they say go away and so you have to do everything alone. its veryvery difficult being isolated okay. its not fun at all.

how would you feel? tell me. im having a bad feeling about typing this post. because some people might just hate me and complain about me after this. rahhhhs.

hi guys. haha. i never post today nobody tag huh? lol. anw. if you come, tag lah. haha. okay. today was alright. hmm. okay. i've got a announcement.

I...LOST MY VOICE. =(

its so hoarse now. i can't talk. my throat will hurt. hmm. we played volleyball for PE today. but i really can't play. as in. i can hit the ball, but i can't pitch it. =( gahh. and didn't do my homework.

LALALA. i have to hand in the portfolio biodata tomorrow. yadayada. didnt have geog. MR NG DIDNT COME! OH YAY OH YAY XD and..I did the IFD card with qh today. hahah. thank us okay x) who cares if it looks childish. its cute lah XD hahahah. i drew it like my best friends blogskin. heheh. then qh did the words. i drew. wahhaha. anyway. im coughing like mad =(

oh yes. ms haq didnt come today. and we discussed about some controversial issue today. [me, sheryl, sisca & erm yah x)] anw. sijie slept as usual. then the guys?

playing soccer lah what else. lol. i'm waiting for xing shan shan to start. OH YAH. ANYONE WITH chen wei lian's CHU MO. send it to me okay? I LOVE IT LIKE CRAP. HHAHAHA. LOVE IT TOOO!! hehe. oh and..MR LIN IS VERY NICE.

haha. his full name is lin wen wei. like that tall tall guy. hahah. he's so patient can? then i understood the maths qns and blah. i failed my maths test lah. but he didnt scold me. hehe. he's good. yah he's good. but too bad. hahahha (;

and..after school some mr ____ came to scold us. and i told lq to say "'cause it didnt affect us" then he scolded us. >=( crappo. why must report. -_- what blah. then he talk so much & wasted so much time. LOL. anw. carine is uhh. MENTEITH NOW!!! yay!!! oh yayyayaya XD anw. some blah. yes. blah. hohohoho.

guess i shall end here. GBUTCBB! (:

4TH POST.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
HEY. what happened?
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
he touch my neoprints
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
dipped them in rice.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
ate my rice.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
now i dont have any dinner.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
OMGOSH?
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
eeeeeeeeee
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
took all my sister's stickers which she needed for school & pasted them on HIS OWN CUPBOARD
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
feel free to bang ur head against the wall
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
CRAP.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
i wont mind
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
gee
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A BROTHER.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
tts horrible..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
why he do that?
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
YEA!
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
CANT TAKE IT.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
HES BRAINLESS.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
anw
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
how old is he?
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
8.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
oh
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
thats..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
old enough to know whats right and wrong
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
yea!
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
i told you
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
he's TOTALLY BRAINLESS.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
hmm
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
letmesee
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
ur neos..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
nt that bad
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
is rice
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
yea
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
crap.
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
u can cook maggie mee?
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
-suggection
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
one day he will dip them in curry or smth
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
[FUMES]

3rd post for today

took another quiz.
**PREP** you're definitely a Prep!!But don't worry!I am too sometimes!!But not all preps are bad!!~*preps rock!*~ You know howda stand up to people,and aren't afraid to speak your mind,WHEN YOU HAVE TO!!!

here's another.
you are calm and have popular friends because they think your so cool. who knows whats goin on in your head.

and another..
You chose potato chips. If potato chips are your preferred snack food, then you are probably an ambitious and successful person, and a high achiever. You enjoy the rewards of success both at work and at home. Not a selfish sort, you enjoy the successes of your spouse and children, too, and you seek nothing less than the best from them. You also tend to be impatient with less than the best, and you are easily frustrated by life's little blips - traffic jams make you crazy, and you consider waiting in line a huge imposition. Note: if you want to do business with a potato chip lover, or you are in a competitive situation with this personality type, be prepared. Potato chip lovers are always worthy and prepared adversaries, and you may lose if you don't bring your best to the situation.

You are the element of wind. You are a breezy sort of person, very passive. You have a few friends who understand you, but they are the only ones. Like a Rainbow you colourful person, you!! =D

PLEASE TAKE NOT THAT NOT ALL QUIZ RESULTS ARE TRUE.

sometimes i wonder

when i visit blogs,
i tend to read a lot of depressing stories.
but i'm in the same boat too!
why dont i just fall and cry and say i wanna die?
then everyone will comfort me right?
but, NO i can't!
i wonder why i'm so strong.
SO STRONG NO ONE CAN SEE SADNESS IN ME.
i mean, if you see it, well, no one asks anw.
maybe i want people to ask.
maybe not.
maybe i'm so strong.
because God moulded me to this stage.
why can't i fall & cry?
people will say i'm weak.
and because I've got Daddy.
i've so many problems
but i smile & laugh so much
the smiles cover up all the tears.
that flow down, right and deep inside the heart which once almost tore.
and the wall banged on me.
i took shelter.
finding refuge in Him, and Him alone.
i didn't tell anyone.
that i was torn and broken up.
sorry Daddy.
but whenever i think of You, and Your goodness.
i can't help but cry.
tears well up in my eyes.
and roll down my cheeks.
and your everything.
SORRY.
once i fall.
at the bottom of the pit.
You pick me up.
You always do.
i wonder why.
its not funny.
i know there's something missing in me.
I KNOW.
SORRY PAPA.
I know you're fine there.
i want to go there too.
BUT I CAN'T.
listen and hear me with your heart.

personality tests

lol. i'm feeling tralala~ XD reason? no one treated me like a machine today. and i'm not invisble =) haha. no one told me to do this or do that. everyone is good. x) everyone deserves respect. so i shall respect everyone. =D oh yes. i LOVE cleaning the class whiteboard. AND SWEEPING THE CLASSROOM. hahhaha. i'm weird. XP

anw, took another personality test. ahaha. i just came back. lahs. oh yah. and i feel VERY BLESSED. PRAISE GOD =D ahaha. cos i forgot to wear my nametag & school badge to school today. lol. then you know what? as soon as i reached the hall, victoria lent me one of her nametags and crystal lend me her school badge. awww. thanks guys! [hugs!] lol. and when i came back, i think God wanted to tell me something. you know that "knock and you'll find, seek &..." that verse? yea.

God was trying to tell me that. today i searched for a .vbs file which could cure my computer's little problem which i didn't use to care about cos it didnt affect me in whatsoever way. hahah. anw. the minute i searched for it and clicked on the link my computer problem disappeared. yay! haha. THANK GOD. XD and went to staff room after school, but mr lin wants there -.- lols. anw. the a*star thingy was okay.

and we had to do macbeth -.-

Peaceful Discreet Non Aggressive

You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

Your Existing Situation

Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in the things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse

Your Stress Sources

Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.


Your Restrained Characteristics

Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.

Your Desired Objective

Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.

Your Actual Problem

Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

YESYESYES! lol.

the website

Know more about me

What's on my mind?
Here is the analysis:
You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

Your Working Style
You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.
You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

some quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

(This part has been removed due to the gayness of SOME people)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

reflecting upon life

You know something? even if you're always alone (like me) and you dont have a partner for morning assembly almost everyday, but you know God is with you. And even if everyone else has forgotten about you, you know that He doesn't and will never forsake you. that makes you feel way better isn't it? [big grin] and then if there's no partner beside you, He will sit beside you. Don't you feel honoured having the King right beside you? haha. There's more than enough space for Him to take His place. and when others have friends as partners, you have the King as your partner! So wonderful right? (;

lols. that's what i think when i'm just by myself. hehe. anw. i feel like redoing my d&t design folio. hi^5 to qiuhui! haha. and there's a lot of work to do today. anw. mummy washed my shoes! OH YAY =DDD what's the first thing you do when you turn on your computer? haha. of course you'll wait for it to load lah -.- hees. for me, i'll check if anyone has tagged. hahah. it makes you feel good that people do come to your bloig and tag. then when you reply, makes me feel great. haha. then i'll check in friendster.

new testimonials or friend requests or whatever. then i'll check blogskins. to see if anyone commented on my skin overnight or gave me a green flag =D then i'll sign in to MSN. haha. then i'll feed my neopets. i reallyreally have to do a lot of things today. so, bye for now!

TAKE CARE, SMILE & GOD BLESS! :D

why does everyone come to me only when they need help? or when they want to know about homework? why can't you talk to me because you want to talk to me? i got other things to do one okay? in case you don't know, its not fun being a machine. its very tiring. no one appreciates. i've been kind enough to tell you everything already okay. don't go overboard. i'm irritated and digusted at you. are you even a friend? are you fake or what? you dont treat me as a friend already do you? you treat me as a machine right? GREAT. you're so disgusting. i hope God will punish you. what kind of Christian are you. you treat me like rubbish. ahh crap.

yay!

i changed my skin! ahaha. i'm still trying to figure out why my jukebox isn't working like it is supposed to. in the meantime, be patient lor. haha. anw, i'm thinking of letting readers download music or images. how about that? ahaha. now its time to change my tagb colours. ((:

P.S: if you steal my codings, i will make you look like a ultimate freak. =D

Fragile; handle with care

2nd post today. bwahaha. i havent done anything. just as i said. i just changed ck's blogskin. blahs. what else? eat dinner? okay. guess i shall do so. SHOULD I CHANGE MY SKIN?

219th post

took train home with huimei today. i shall be myself. came back to waipo's house and switched on my computer and turned on the tv. watching hi5. charli is pretending to be a star shooting now. sometimes watching innocent children really makes you smile. really simple things make me happy. i don't wish for everyone's attention. i just wish for ONE true friend. ONE.

maybe she is right. maybe i have a really simple mind. i thought everyone was good. in my world, there isn't the word cunning in my dictionary. now kellie is talking to chats. i dont want to do my homework. dont feel like doing anything at all. just typing and tving. there's a maths test tomorrow. kids central grew up with me. (: God too. of course =)

i don't want to pretend. i don't want people to pretend too. especially my friends. i don't even know if those i consider as my good friends consider me as one. maybe i'm just invisble to everyone. People do change. I'm not the same anymore. Didn't you all realise I'm not as happy or carefree like before? Even if i'm happy in class or whatever, people still won't be happy.

what's the point in following what people do? BE YOURSELF! i want peace love & joy on earth. not violence vulgarities and pretentious people. someday you'll realise i'm not an ordinary girl.

KIDS CENTRAL BIG IN THE CITY. hi5 started. byebye.

HEY. I DECIDED TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN. TO THE ONE WHICH I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS. THE LAYOUT SHALL BE A SURPRISE. IF I ALREADY SHOWED THE SKIN FOR SOMEONE, IT IS UNFAIR. SO TO MAKE IT FAIR, I SHALL NOT DISCLOSE ANY DETAILS. WANT A HINT? TITLE - BLUE ROSE. SORRY FOR TYPING THIS POST IS ALL IN CAPS. (IF NOT NO ONE WILL SEE THIS. HAHA) SO JUST TAG TO TELL ME IF YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE IT. YES OR NO? (: WAITING TO HEAR FORM YA'LL! =D

can i say something? I AM NOT A MACHINE. why are people ordering me around. why? why can't you print yourself? you say your ink level is low. ever wondered if the person you are asking doesnt have much ink left too? can you get yourself a printer? so much for helping. you dont even say thank you. crap.

do not treat me like a machine. I AM NOT A MACHINE. you don't switch the on and off button whenever you like it. and then treat me badly or you give me that kind of "i hate you" face. then when you need my help you go "sandra...can you help me to ______ ohh pleaseeee & thank you!!! =DD" its all fake lah. =( and i have a dumb brother. he loves meddling with my hp. see my messages when he cant even read. doesnt listen to instructions. thinks he IS SO GREAT. and a papa who calls you once every 5 mins. its dumb lah. i wish i had no papa. he claims i am his beloved daughter. CRAP. you think im a 3 year old kid? who are you trying to kid? IRRITATING.

i do get angry too okay? i am not always that quiet girl. anw im not quiet. i can be very loud too. its stupid. and then my mother. SHE WILL NAG AND NAG AND NAG. CANT STAND IT. keep asking me to leave the house. crap. then ask her not to keep commenting on evt i do she will say things like "i die le then wont comment le lor" WHAT IS THIS. >=(

and my grandma. i quite like her now =) she's been pretty nice to me these few days. i hope it will continue to be this way =)) and then there's my uncle. walks around the whole house. -.- very irritating larh. -.-

anw i went to j8 with sheryl and jenna today. wore pe shirt. we ate lunch. they bullied me with some black magic. >< i dont like it. SO STRESSFUL. im dumb okay? i didnt know how on earth they did it. then we took neoprints. NICEEE =DD

sorry for not posting today. was busy making skins. sorry. not in good mood now. was but not now.

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HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY HUIMEI! =))
remember i'll be there for you.
SMILE ALWAYS! =D

I DIDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE OF LAST NIGHT. couldnt sleep. on idea why? school reopening? feeling lethargic? i thought a lot while i couldnt sleep. so much i think i have white hair now. i thought for 6 whole hours. then stand up and prepare for school thought about many things. =X i think i'm very fragile. anw. today's fun =) i kinda forgot what happened. haha. ahh i remember.

TODAY IS THE 1ST DAY OF THE 2ND TERM AND I DECLARE THAT I HATE PEOPLE WHO SQUEEZE IN THE MRT.

freak =/ someone literally leaned on me on the mrt. i hated it. that guy. that crazy man. i couldnt even breathe. i was like suffocating lah. =(( anw. saw yihui and reb in the morning. haha. i was leaning against the panel on the train. then so many people boarded the train. even though there wasnt any space left, one plump lady squeezed and pushed her way in.

ARGH. i dont like it. then this man stood in front of me. HE WAS WEARING GREEN. omgosh. then when more people came in, he stood closer. and nearer and nearer. so i put my science books in front of me. to prevent him from leaning on me. i stood in a position such that my shoe would kick his. or I WOULD HAVE DIED. haha. choi. when i finally came out of the train, i was like looking at that man and giving him my most DAO face. then i said "excuse me" then i purposely shoved my bag around. then will hit him. hohoho. no lah. i thought of doing that. but didnt in the end. its a bad thing to do. haha. i wanted to scold him and knock his head and blah. HAHAHA.

anw. got caught for not wearing my uniform properly. -.- i tucked in my shirt lah. i want to buy a bigger blouse. or it will keep coming out. haha =D anw yihui and reb acccompanied me too. hahaha. then sat alone during morning asm. anw i'm used to it. =) then we had a new timetable. ~!#$%^&*()_+!!! CRAP. WE CHANGED OUR TIMETABLE SO MANY TIMES IN THE YEAR. I THINK FIVE OR SIX.. dumbo =.=

i like eng periods. esp a star. hahaha. though sijie doesnt like it. hmm. cos there are fewer people. and less noisy. =D i dont like noise. if the whole class has to make noise, then everyone should make noise. if not we should all just keep quiet. LOL. sorry if anyone's offended =X

got real angry with my brother. SO PLAYFUL LARH. >=(( anw. i dont know if i should change my blogskin. i already made one. or myself. its titled "blue rose" =) tell me if you want me to change okay? cos i think im lazy. haha. & i should get going now. GBU, SMILE & byebye. (:

volcano

its sunday today =) my cousins came over to play. haha. doesnt it ryhme? =DD

anw. they brought the "horrible science" package and played with the tools inside. the volcano. AND THE "LAVA" SHOOTED HIGH! it was realy high okay? like 1 metre off the ground! it was SO FUN. lol. okay here are some videos to prove my claims to you. XD





and i finished my maths! yay! haha. oh yah. my sister caught some fishes. her childcare went to paris ris on an excursion on friday. and 5 fishes died. -.- one was because my sister dipped the net into the water and the fish came out and started jumping on the floor.

and she came screaming to me. the fish was jumping. it was scary. then after a few mintues it stopped moving. didnt dare to touch it eh =( and it died. the other 4 died due to an unknown reason. lol. just found them dead this afternn. haha.

guess what. i ate kfc for breakfast. and i had a tummyache. because of irregular mealtimes =((

btw, i found something new & fresh -

How to make a sandra

Ingredients: 5 parts intelligence 5 parts arrogance 3 parts energy

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little curiosity if desired!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

hahas. go try it out. take care, SMILE & GBU! =)

OPPS

just realised i havent blogged for 2 days. haha. anw. yesterday. SNOW was really fun. met at tampines mrt. on the mrt i accidentally stepped on someone else's leg lah. so embarrasing. haha. kept smsing huimei in the mrt. to keep me free from boredom. lol. and it was so funny.

then the journey was very long. i didnt believe it took 1 and a half hour to go to tampines mrt form sembawang mrt. lol. yi an told me so. i interchanged twice. and lost my way once. haha. i went to the wrong escalator lor. so many escalators lah. haha.

was yi an there when i reached. and a few other spdlighters. hehe. was like waiting for kin yunn but he went already la -.- anw i bought some chicken & cheese thing to keep my stomach from growling. hahaha. then saw some snake performance. at the pasar malam while waiting. it was scary. the man hypotised the snake -.-'''. didn't finish watching the performance, cos yi an pulled me to the bus interchange. lol.

saw many people in the church. a great place to worship =D i think like 400 people went? hahaha. WE SANG AND WE JUMPED. AND WE DIDNT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. WE JUST JUMPED. =DDD EVERYONE JUMPED. yes everyone. hahaha. SO FUN LA. =DDD btw, i something really extraordinary happened. i couldnt stop clapping. couldnt control. my hands just went "clap clap clap" all the while. lols. then my hands were so red but it wasnt pain. GOD WAS THERE! AHAHA.

gonna eat my ban mian now. =D take care, SMILE & PRAISE GOD! (;

Lalala. Its so boring here. I already thought of what to blog in the morning but now i can't rememeber what I wanted to say -_- Rahhs. Anyway, i signed out of MSN. i submit another skin just now. Its title? Into your eyes. Type "sandra" in the search box. www.blogskins.com . remember to comment oh! =D (Casual Elegance was yesterday) But now Blogskins is down. I have homework to do. Advice : don't sleep too much. You'll get headaches in the morning. it doesnt help that i didnt eat breakfast. And i slept at 3am. Read a book. Stargirl.

I'm a bookworm. Yes i am. Haha. Sister is back from her childcare. Brother's in m'sia. Who else's at home? Let's see. Grandmother (Wai po, see her picture below. Hehe.) This is a very boring post. I'm getting asleep while typing this. Let's put in some photos okay? =D

I notice i take a lot of pictures with my siblings! ahaha. this was taken on the 1st day of CNY! lol. sorry for the late posting =X the rest below are also taken of the 1st day of CNY. hahaha.

this is my sister's foot. ehehe.
1st uncle's (maternal's side) family.

3rd uncle and 3rd aunty...

and their children... Grandmother! WAI PO. hahah.

i just had this sudden thought that if i didn't want to have a ny regrets in life, i would have to apologise to people publicly, thus i've decided to do this in my blog so that everyone will see it. and hopefully they will yah. (:

one. i'm sorry to all those i've caused to hate/dislike me or whatever. because of my words/actions or whatever i've done to made you hate/dislike me. i know its a very difficult thing to hate someone because the more you hate someone, the more your heart becomes..yah you get what i mean.

so, this one goes to all who hated/disliked before, hating and still disliking now and those who will hate and dislike me in the future. [hope not..haha] so to prevent that from happening, i shall treat everyone with respect. and be nice to everybody =)

two. i'm sorry to daddy and mummy for causing them so much trouble. because i wasn't the perfect child i wanted to be. sorry for making you all scream and shout and even cane me in my younger days. but i shall try to and i must obey you all because well, you're still my daddy and mummy. haha. yes. =D

three. i'm sorry to people whom i've offended in some way or another, in school, on the streets or whatever lah. haha. urm. so that's all i guess. now i shall have no regrets in life. becuase what's done cannot be undone and i shall not look back. regrets are just a waste of time. agree? ((:

time for some pictures!

disclaimer: all pictures were taken by my phone =)

random

random. hdb flats. x))


the shelter
[clue : sembawang]


looks like CSS contestant khim right? ahaha.


prettaye cool eh? =D


effectious picture! =D


boat sailing? haha. i did this by turning the cam at the
fast speed when taking a picture of smth. hahah.


bear. eheheh.


behind bars? =)
[clue : mrt]


nice bookmark!


apple! XD


isn't this cute? =D


hamtaro! CUTENESS =))

wild wild wet

me! @ wild wild wet. =)


mummy & me!


me & shirleen!


mummy!


shirleen & jw!


jw & mei!


cousins =)

today

nice right? its the sunrise!! woke up
super early today to take this shot luh. =D


trees at the beach this morning.


my sister! XD


hahaha. 4 people.


my shadow. lols.

okay. that's all i have for you today. happy viewing! =D
P.S } http://sandra--.blogspot.com (testing blog)

heyheyhey!

=D hello everyone! i'm back! from coasta sand chalet! yay! hahaha. it was really fun. yah and sorry for not posting ytd. didn't have the time. plus i wasnt at home. yah. hehe. okay.

11.03.06
left for coasta sands at 4.30. hees. we went to paris ris mrt first. then we took a taxi there. hahaha. then my sister slept on the way. we reached the chalet at 5.30pm i think. haha. so our chalet was B-08 =D saw 2nd uncle. he was the only person at the chalet. how lonely. awww. hahaha. so we joined him and watched tv luh. was quite boring lah. hahah. then waited for my cousin to come larh. but he didn't. crap. and so i did my science hw.

then...ate dinner at hao kou wei. we walked a long journey [the long cut] we didnt know there was a shortcut larh. hahaha. but anw. on the way back. i ran!! with my brother. yay! i love running! hahah. and we ran from the foodcourt all the way back to the chalet. so shiok lah. hahah. and we sand along the way. perspiring is good. haha. considering i ran for jogathon the day before. maybe i should run everyday. hehe. then my stamina will be better =D

hohoho. then when we reached back. saw the "neighbours" playing LOUD music. and they were dancing -.- crap. and they didn't stop till 3am. couldn't sleep. but managed to sleep. hahaha. okay. so that say was like. adjusting to the enviroment of the chalet. hohoho. next day.

12.03.06
yesterday was a whole lot of fun fun and more fun!! =DD i woke up at 10.30am. hehe. i was the last to wake up. so..brushed my teeth. then we decided to go to...WILD WILD WET!!!! yayness. when everyone was ready, we proceeded to downtown east. by the short cut. yah. this time we were smarter (; and then the queue was LONG. yah. very long. saw 3rd uncle and his kids there [qixing & qiwei]. anw we joined the queue. then the kids changed. hohoho. luckily i changed in the chalet alr. anw. the tickets were ex. but it was worth it x)

and then...the first thing we did was put on the whatever life jackets. i didn't wear it on lah. it was so obiang. and the thing was WET. haha. i'm so fussy. so the kids wore. and my mum wore. 3rd uncle didn't want to play. haha. he looked after his children. haha. and our belongings. then the first thing i played was the slide.

AWW. SHUCKS. ALL THE INFO IS GONE! TYPED A SUPER LONG POST JUST NOW. THE RECOVER POST DIDN'T WORK. ARGH. SHUCKS. SO NOW YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I DID AT WILD WILD WET. ALL BECUASE OF STUPID BLOGGER. >=( ARGH!!!!!! IM SO ANGRY. BLOGGER IS STUPID!!!!! ahhhhhh. FREAK. im tired of typing everything again =((( so sorry. amybe i shall tmr. im tired. sick of blogger. if you want to know what i did at WWW. though i doubt anyone will. msn or call me luh. BLOGGER IS YUCKY.

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I GOT SUNBURNT.
AND MY SKIN IS PEELING OFF NOW.
PLUS I'M NOW TANNED.
AWW.
=((
i've got exactly 100 pics in my photobucket!
XD
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argh. just now typed a post already loh. then blogger say got error. cannot publish. what the heck. >=( ahhh.

lalalas

SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING YTD. haha. i was doing my science hw larh. see i'm a good girl x))

today was a longgg day for meee. hahas. woke up at 6.10. slacked in bed for a while before brushing my teeth. hehe. then in the mrt. people were like pushing around -.- no space le still push. sigh.

anw. carried the sling bag to school. anw didn't have to bring much things. haha. oh yarh. during morining asm, victoria asked me if i brought my report "card" {its made of paper anw. sch no $? lols}. then i was like.."huh? need to bring meh?" then someone go and cha zui lorh. as if i was talking to here -.- hahahah. then victoria say "oh yay. got somebody accompany me le" hahaha. so i didnt bring. and she didnt bring too.

hmm. absentees were sally and reb. haha. and then urm. sat with qh during asm lorh. hmm and and. we went to the bus after asm. hmm. and the bus went off even before mdm gene tan came. haha. and then we were like shouting to the bus driver to stop. hahaha. luckily he stopped in time. x) and so we started on our jounrney to umm. NEWater! XD

and then when we got there we had to like sit on the ground so many times. hahaha. and it was kinda boring. hehe. and erm. proceeded to..science center next! what waterworks. what crap lah. hahah. i got WET! my whole uniform was wet kay. but my head wasnt. and my socks plus shoes were totally soaked lahh. and the water even got into my ear! sigh.

qh was real unlucky today luh. when i stepped into the water maze the coast was clear. then when i pulled her with me and when she made the first step the waster just splash out all of a sudden. i wasnt prepared kay. my natural instinct told me to just walk through and not bother about whatever water splashing out. hahaha. then what next. a lot of people got wet actually.

and urm. then i went to the washroom to change into my PE attire lorh. what to do? so wet still wear uniform ah? hahah. and just then i realised my pants were wet! must be the water crap thing luh. haha. then its like obvious loh. like people can see the water there..hee..used my bag to cover lah. haha.

and then we had mac. we paid $3 for it and all we got was a hashbrown and a burger. haha. but it was quite nice actually x) drank bandong too! =D oh yah. then i was desprately looking for the washroom loh. urgent kay. haha. then "ren" for so long. cannot go cos too many ppl at SSC. then on the bus sure cannot go right. then it took quite long to reach macritchie. you can imagine how long i "controlled" kay. hahah.

then umm. it was so hot there lahh!!! rah. then still need to sit on the grass. gahh. and then i partnered huimei. my number was 253..hahas. looking for toilet there then look for so long then found it finally. hahaha. im dumb larh. haha. then so stupid lorh. okay. dont want to elaborate. ahem. hehe.

then it was like so hot and then the teacher allowed the boys to run first. sigh. and we waited there loh. was perspiring like mad lor. still need to run -.- and do warm ups. crap lah. so warm le still need to do warm ups =.= while waiting went to get a drink from the vending machine. i wanted to pick ice lemon tea loh. then when i put in the $ le right. then press the button cannot then some girl go and press what grapefruit of smth. stupid lah. so sweet lor. and gasy. hai. nvm luh.

then i ran with huimei! haha. we got high a few times. the suddenly run very fast. and we sang. hahah..people were looking at us loh. 2 crazy people running and singing. hahaha. one siao char bo {me} hair loose then nvr retie. the other one ran so fast like bullet train. hahaah. then in the middle i ewas like so tired and needed huimei to drag me -.- haha. but thank God lah. we finally finished the race. and i got to drink water! yay. really quenched my thirst. hee. i drank like 3/4 of it at one go..hahah..

hands and legs so tired luh. the we got some ice cream. and after everything. took 855 alone to khatib mrt station then came back home. then i saw my tuition teacher here loh. sigh. my mum told her to come at 5.30 then i reached back like ard 6.47 loh. made my teacher wait so long. felt bad larh. =( anw i bathed the 1st thing i came home. so sweaty luh..haha. now so comfortable le =D and then i havent eat dinner then come and blog le..hahaha. will continue doing hw later.

take care, smile, God bless and byee! =D

blahs {moodless}

miss lala is just a little disppointed with her test results. [for your information, she banged the tablejust now because she was so stessed duing lunchtime] she failed her overall maths. and she failed her geography, as well as her science. hmm. don'tknow if that is cool. well it sureisn't. thelibrary keyboardis dumb lah. nospaces. try to read without the spaces. should i say haha.don'tknow.today is the very DUE dat.e the last day in handinmy d&t workbook.andcoolios.i havent done the workbook. I DIDN'T FINISH EVERYTHING!

one habit i should kick : imust refrain from the computer!!

i tend toforget abouthomework once im online.sigh. i scored a 45 for my overallmaths. AHHH. i must study!!!! STUDY!!! STUDY MORE!!!! AND SLEEP EARLIER!!! and guess what. a 5 over 15 for my FIRST goeography test. and science? well.let'sjust said i did badly. 11 1/2 [and a half] OVER25. RAHHHHSS..!!

I MUST WORKHARDER. GET MOTIVATED AND START THE ENGINE RUNNING! IMUSNT FAIL!! MISSLALA DOESNTFAIL! GOD IS WITHME. YES HE IS WITHME.ISHALL BE A GOOD GIRL.ISHALLDOMY HW. I SHALL TRY TO LOVE ALL my homework. yes i shall.misslala, JIA YOU! =)

something made me really happy today x)) don't read the words below. just some ranting. yah. =)

______ is like so selfish can. why you all like ___ loh. she became Christian le still like that. what is she doing loh. still say she felt God's prescence before. all crap lah. maybe she go church just because a ot of people going loh. what a copycat. i can i use the word despise? =X er xin lah she. still _____ one. and then..eee lah. she think a lot of ppl like her loh. but in fact no one likes her okay? and then ______ is like so unreasonable luh. freako. whatever lah. pigu zhunao dadoongoo!!

P.S: i dislike copycats x(

things to do

1. literature homework - (in notebook) TOO MANY TO TYPE OUT.
2. geography homework - workbook + mindmap
3. maths hw - Skill Practice 3D questions 5, 10 & 11
4. art hw - light
5. d&t homework - folio + workbook
6. chinese homework - 剪报
7. buy d&t apron - or should i get it from someone who doesn't need it?
8. buy art materials
9. buy new buffer? - my buffer was broken was my brother =(
10. borrow books from the library - i keep reading the same book for morning assembly. how bring. i bet i read that "friends & sisters" book for more than 10 times =/ i can even remember the author's name: SANDY ASHER.
11. wash my school shoe
12. send handphones for repair
13. pack the house - its so messy luh.
14. buy foolscap - 3 pathetic pieces left
15. do more blogskins - for people
16. save PW in diskette. but the file is too big!! what should I do? _____ will blame me luh.

things i'm not sure of:

1. I didn't take the 1st science test. i was absent and mr ___ didn't ask me to take the test. Huimei didn't take it too. so..?
2. Was there an english homework titled "What i want to be when i grow up"? Victoria told me there was. but..??

AHH!! I'M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL AGAIN!!! don't teachers realise they give us so much homework and they pile up slowly and altogether they are like one huge junk stacking one on top of another and then it amounts to a so great huge amount of stress for everyone (maybe for me only) and then..ARGH!!!!! IF HOMEWORK WAS A TEMPATATION I WILL DO A GOOD JOB AT RUNNING AWAY FROM IT. school is stupid ='(

x)

yay. look at the time now. 12.06am. alright. i just did a few "buttons" so you can say. yah. spent quite a few hours. and i edited. again and again. quite tiring lah. but i persevered. =D

so here are the results. =)






this is the one i like best. and i tell you lah. you can say i crop the 2nd one right. but no. i was dumb lah. i adjust and shift. and make a new picture. and i finally did it. dumb right. i could have just cropped the 2nd picture. -.-"' stupid me.

lyrics again x)

<小孩不笨2> 主题曲
<一生绝望>
曲/杨波 词/梁智强

Verse
我们肆无忌惮 我们成群结党
我们目无尊长 对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长 只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是 我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们 就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会 替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

副歌
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

((: can everyone see the above lyrics?

LYRICS =D

歌曲：爱, 无力

歌手：潘嘉丽 专辑: love me, kelly

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞成了习惯 习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚

我只想 对着夜空
轻轻的呼吸 寻找我最爱的人到底
在哪里在慌乱中 翻箱倒柜寻找记忆

有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴落在手心

歌曲：魔力

歌手: 潘嘉丽 专辑：love me, kelly

kelly you ready to rock this?
(i know you wanna dance c'mon
you know you wanna dance c'mon) x3
lets rock
你的眼神里存在让人想靠近的坏
思绪安定不下来有点无奈
你用舞步挑逗我
我的视线离不开
灯光亮起散场后你会和谁离开

这是怎样的游戏
让我还不觉又想靠近
我竟如此无能为力
最爱的人竟就是你
可不可以再靠近
拉近我们之间的距离
(let's rock)

爱就该随心所欲能不能定下约定
我只想要和你在一起
(let's rock)
你独特的魔力使我情不自禁爱上你
可不可以再靠近
(that's right)
拉近我们之间的距离
我只想要和你在一起

i dreamt of you. twice. last year. and this year. the very same dream. can you believe it?

计时炸弹

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type.d writ.ten. copying is allowed. but do credit me please x)
}

i love this song. its like. i can relate to the song lah. =) its in my jukebox le x)

天 已经快天黑啦
我还不要回家
一个人呆呆的想着你啊

傻 这世界我最傻
每天等你电话
我为何要为你放心不下

爱情的计时炸弹快要爆炸
我的委屈你晓得吗
当你抚摸我的头发
我又为你心跳十下

爱情的计时炸弹快要爆炸
我的情绪你晓得吗
难道要我眼泪掉下
才晓得我的心碎吗 （爱我吧）

爱我吧 好吗
我在等你的回答
爱你呀 放弃吧
就当作哭泣是一种惩罚。。。

the song is like so nice. x) im not gonna talk about today. i gonna talk about the song. today really. nvm. okay. dont as me why relate to me lah. haha. i like the song lor. hmm. and dont ask me who i like lah. lols. hush. im not telling. nobody knows. hahaha. unless you're my reallyreally close friend i might leak some secret. wahahah. but i dont think i have any right. so no use telling. wahaha. lol. alicia. i only typed 2 words wrongly leh. hahaha.

numerous thoughts keep racing through my mind. it would be disastrous if i blogged about them. but im still here. let's start from the start of the day.

I was late. i woke up at 7. i had to run. i ran with lilin. er yah. then had geog test. then was perspiring like mad. then some people realised i bought a new pair of school shoes. lol. if i dont buy then how? lols. and some didnt.

I didn't wanna go school actually. throat pain. i would have found any excuse that i could use to stop me from going to school. school is like. crap. the people. err. SOME people. yes some people. CRAPPY CRAP. i dont uds why when i wake up grouchy in the morning then at the end of the day, i was get so happy. God's purpose. hmm. but if i was grouchy the whole day. no one would like me.

they would hate me lah. but why can some people be grouchy the whole day. then SO MANY people care about them. what is the problem. just because they uhh. are "popular" or what. i can't do anything. anw. stupid thoughts. right? geog test was okay.

dont know how i'd fare. the scrabble competition was nice. i saw some sec ones. they were really nice lah. er. the girl was paulyn tan. i think. the boy was dominic ang. nice ppl. they won x) huiqing asked me why i looked sad. so did many ppl on different days. i dont look sad. maybe i do. maybe . i dont know. how come im sad?

sometimes people care. sometimes they dont. anw today. i was being hitted by a ball. on my back. so pain lah. i think the person was..ah nvm. why they want to play soccer in class. i wonder why i didnt cry. too shy or too strong. maybe both. maybe im afraid of some ppl who will say things. they will say i cry too much. then how come she cry so much you all care about her leh? and my leg hurts. like fractured like that. SO PAIN.

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL. homework is stressful.

Now that You are near
I stand before You, Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

Hold me in your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You
And now that You?re near

Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I?m not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence
God is where I wanna stay

So blessed
More than I could ever hoped or dreamed of
You have poured Your favour on me
One day in the house of God is
Better than a thousand days in the world

So blessed I can't contain it
So much I got to give it away
Your love has taught me to live now
You are more than enough for me

Lord, You are more than enough for me (x2)

My redeemer lives
I know He rescued my soul
His blood has covered my sin
I believe I believe

My shame He's taken away
My pain is healed in His name

I believe I believe
I'll raise a banner
'Cause my Lord has conquered the grave

My Redeemer Lives (x4)

You lift my burdens
I'll rise with you
I'm dancing on this mountaintop
To see your kingdom come

I've got Heaven on the inside of me
I've got Heaven on the inside of me
Peace and joy
God has set me free
Heaven is a reality
Abundant life flows out of me
I've got a smile on my face
A glide in my stride
I'm tasting his grace
And I'm walking by faith
I've got heaven on the inside of me
I've got heaven flowing out of me
I'm bring heaven into this world

Joy, Joy, Joy
I've got such joy in my heart
I've got peace, peace, peace
I've got such peace in my heart
I remember the day it all began
It was the day that
I was born again
An explosion took place
On the inside of me
It was the spirit of God
Setting me free~

=D

AN EXTENDED APOLOGY.

hmm. i don't know how to start this but hmm. okay. alicia, i read your blog already. uhh. okay. first things first lah. sorraye. =( but i checked my chat log. i didn't call you a freak. i really didn't. and about the skins thing. uhh. i didn't say they were not nice. i said they were nice.

uh. [01:19:45 PM] m i s s . l : i like the rainbow one
that's what i said. i didn't say your skins were ugly. i checked the whole chat log and i found no ugly. nvm. i shall put the whole chat log here lah.

19 feb.
[01:20:51 PM] m i s s . l : i spent the whole of last night doing it
[01:20:52 PM] m i s s . l : ((:
[01:20:58 PM] m i s s . l : go blogskins to comment for me
[01:20:58 PM] m i s s . l : hehe.
[01:21:38 PM] m i s s . l : im gonna submit it
[01:21:39 PM] m i s s . l : yay!
[01:21:43 PM] ___*// ?????: ok
[01:22:26 PM] m i s s . l : =D

hmm. you said ok. next one.

19 feb
[02:39:43 PM] m i s s . l : go comment for me please
[02:39:44 PM] m i s s . l : =)
[02:40:07 PM] ___*// ?????: ok

you said okay again. and i waited. and i asked again at 7.

19 feb
[07:41:25 PM] m i s s . l : you didnt comment leh
[07:41:26 PM] m i s s . l : =(
[07:50:01 PM] ___*// ?????: wait.
[07:50:01 PM] ___*// ?????: i'm watching tv
[07:50:07 PM] m i s s . l : wahh
[07:50:12 PM] m i s s . l : you watch so long de...

and i waited again. but you didn't comment. so on 25th of feb. which was the day u wrote your blog entry..i said..

25 feb
[02:07:51 PM] m i s s . l : hello
[02:07:57 PM] m i s s . l : do you have a blogskins acct?
[02:09:27 PM] ___*// ?????: NO.
[02:09:27 PM] ___*// ?????: i mean
[02:09:27 PM] ___*// ?????: yes.
[02:09:27 PM] ___*// ?????: wait la.
[02:09:27 PM] ___*// ?????: wait.
[02:09:29 PM] ___*// ?????: i'm really busy.
[02:09:30 PM] ___*// ?????: wait ar.
[02:09:35 PM] m i s s . l : uh okay

hmm. so i waited again. for you to comment in blogskins. but you didn't comment again. and i didn't call anyone a freak. maybe you don't understand the meaning of commenting on a blogskin? uh. when you are at a blogskin right. then there's a space for you to type your comment there. and i waited and waited. but your comment didn't show up. maybe its blogskins server probo. maybe you DID comment. i didn't mean comment on your blog. ah well. i don't know.

but sorry once again. =( i know my skins arent that nice either. as quoted from umm. your tagger. kuehh. but im not that kind of tiao man ren xing kinda girl who will like force you to comment or call you a freak. if you didnt have time to comment, you tell me lor. no need to ask me to wait kay? anyway you were okay in school. so i guess. uh. you are fine? and you arent angry with me anymore? maybe you even hate me..? uh. sorry lah.

NEW UPDATES!

SPEEDLIGHT ROCKS! =D
WE SHALL ALL JUMP NEXT WEEK.
EVERYONE SHALL JUMP XD
i shall join publicity x)

boring monday...
(reads from organiser)
there was a maths test today.
i hope i did well lah.
didn't really understand a few qns =/
for the past 3 tests, i scored a total of (8+11+6=25!!)
sobsobsob. over (20 x 3 = 60) how pathetic is that. 25 over 60.
good. i'm getting btter at this.

ms chung lent me a pen during the test. hahas. she saw me using a pencil to write. then she bent sown and asked me if my pens had ran out of ink so i said yes lor. haha. isn't she kind? xD

hmm. next thing. i need a d&t apron!! i lost mine. i either borrow from joyce or buy a new one. plsplspls remind this sandra to buy a new d&t apron. her memory's really bad. hush. don;t tell anyone. x) okay. and she has to do her d&t folio. alicia tee finished it. with the help of chenxi who helped her to draw 3 pages worth of isometric projection in 15 mins =O boohoohoo. i don't know how to draw!! but nvm. i shall try =)

2nd announcement. i have to by art materials all over again! ='( i said it before. mine was STOLEN. or maybe dumped in the garbage truck. =( and i have to redo my banner that is. how sad. next. i have to do the jian bao thingy. blahs. i don't even have the faintiest idea of where i left my chinese newspapers. shucks. =( and i didn't even buy the practical book for it. or the zuo wen bu. and i didn't do the literature thingy.

MY OPINION OF LADY MACBETH. what crap. i handed in my journal without my lady macbeth. freako. and there's a science test of friday. because some parents. complain. crappy crap. anw, went to aries after school today and bought my buffer xD its that kind of foldable one. =D actually i saw one really cheap one. $1. but there isn't the steps or whatever you call that. so i didn'y buy that one. sorry japh. lol. we go out then buy other things lah. don't have to buy buffer le (:

and er. what else. oh yah. mine was $1.20. cheap eh. haha. okay. signing in to MSN now. ((: cya online! oh yarh. before i forget =X replies to tags. =)

Ivan (tubbyboi) lols. fine. thanks! =D

Christopher er. you thought i so guai one meh. lol. haha. why must listen to you. see first lah. if i can't wear contacts then wear specs lor. mrs ___ said that like so long ago can? she said that last week and you still talking about it >=( haha. ya lah. whatever. pretty then pretty lor. none of my business. x)

Jenna lols. uh. okay? take care aright? =)

Huimei lols. thanks! why are you in the lab? art? (blur) haha.

this post is dedicated to...

HUI MEI!!

lols. because she just tagged me. so im gonna reply here x) hees.

HuiMei: files?! eek... and ur sony erisson is wad hp? =D welcome to the sony erisson family... lol..
SANDRA: yah lor. so digusting and yucky right. eww. dead flies. bleargh. haha. thanks. but in the end my mum gave me her T630 lah. then she go buy that 3G one lor. hmpf. i want to exchange hp with mummy!!! wahas.

HuiMei: ah... wrong wrong... is sony ericsson...

SANDRA: lols. nvm lah. i can understand (;

HuiMei: and u can sleep during asm... so good... i cant sleep... =(

SANDRA: haha. next time sit with me lah. then don't need sit in the front XP WAHAHA.

LOL. so if you're the only person who tags me, that post will be dedicated to you. nice right. wahaha.

hello! i have so much to blog about today! now the house is like so chaotic. rahhhhs. anyway, let's talk about happy things. i didnt blog ytd, did i? =X haha. okay. hmm. this is my 169th post XD and umm. hmm. i scored a 24 for my d&t test! =D its over 30 btw. x) and my mummy has got a 3G hp now!! yay! and i'm getting my new SONY ERRICSON hp tmr. XD now isnt that good news? =) i get everything i want. im so blessed. =D

mp3 player
printer
digital camera
new handphone
new clothes
new shoes

to God be the Glory x) still have a few more wishes.
bigger uniform? XP
scanner!
contact lenses.
rebond hairrr
new bag x) too greedy? wahas.
and buffer x))
couldnt find in guardian leh. shall try watsons tmr xD

hmm. waitwait. before i forget what i wanna say. uh i will transfer songs to my mum's hp! yay! =D and today's school. it was. aiyah i dont like hw lah. who likes it anw. xD hahaha. and umm. the assembly was soo boring. i slept for 5 mins. the ballet one (last week) was so much btter. i didnt sleep =) i cant even rmb what was today's assembly about. oh the food from the heart and SAC. sick lah. flag day again. so tiring. i hate flag days. im not gonna go. ever agn. wahas. and the ppt slideshow. that one i watched b4 le...someone sent that email to me. but its real nice. so yep. and mr white asked the sec 2 express classes to confirm those who are going to UK for literature..? i guess the guys will probably go. world cup. germany. wahhas. im NOT interested x) but its SUPER EX. $3200. my mother doesnt even earn that much for her monthly salary. yep im poor x)

hmm. went to bishan after school. yup. err. i waited for mummy in kfc lor. i actually waited for 1 hour..mummy was late! >=( i was so bored i kept walking ard. lol. then i finally found a place at kfc so i sat there. then some ppl sitting beside me were Christians too. a cg i think. there were 4 ppl. hmm. then i realised my water bottle got 2 files! dead already! =O i was super shocked then i rushed to the toilet to pour all the water out. then i washed the insides for 3 times before i was sastified. perfectionist mah. lols. it was super disgusting okay? i wonder if i "drank" any flies ~sallows saliva and gulps. eeew. then i threw the whole bottle away x)

and erm. bought 8 days. then i ate pork porridge at the foodcourt with mummy. was reading 8 days. x) wahh. the rafflesian celebrities (reminds me of eng class today. lol.) the what's her name. she's a true rafflesian! from pri sch all the way to JC! woah! so smart right. corrine may! yup its her. =D

and then i was like holding my mum's hp then i was playing the game when the train came. so i was like. uh oh. the hp sound very loud okay. so i faster close the shell lor. uh yea. haha. its a flip phone. =) samsung de. and then i bought cupcakes from breadtalk! hot and fresh from the oven x) my grandma said it was yummy! YUMYUM! XD haha. she ate the coffee one. i ate the choc chip muffins. 4 for $4. super duper nice. =D

hmm. God bless. SMILE. and take care! =)

ah! hw. ahh! that's what im gonna draw for lady mac for lit.
stupid hw.
lit. chi. geog. d&t.
and i needa do art.
the piggy steadfastness banner,
freako.

my whole art bag lost *sobsob*
pigu. the cleaner go take my art bag for what.
throw inside dustbin
*CRYS* my markers colour pencils evt inside leh.
including the steafastness banner
*WAILS*
i did it so nicely.
now its gone.
and i have to redo.
what crap.
*WAILS!!!*

HAPPY LIKE CRAP NOW!

YAY.
MY BROTHER ISN'T STAYING WITH THAT PIG ALREADY. HE'S COMING OVER! YAHOO!!!

BUT MY MAID SAID NO.
SHE DIDN'T WANT TO COME.
ARGH.
HOW SAD.
SOBOSBOSOB.

hi!

hmm. tuesday. okay.
the relief teacher came to take us for geog today.
AGAIN .wahaha.
mr ___.
his handwriting is child-like...小孩子 to be exact =P
had to copy mindamaps lor. uses of water.
and then he said he copied from guidebook de.
lols. and it turned out that the textbook had the same info!
LOL.
next geog lesson i bring guidebook can liao. =pP
hees. hmm. and there's geog hw. =O
so many pages leh!
wahh~

then it was PE lor.
went to stadium again.
to run 2.4km.
hehes, actually strted running with sijie.
then chg to huimei =D

hmm, we took 16.35!
YAY!! =DDDD
I DIDN'T FAIL!
WOOHOO!
YAYEEEE!!
HAHAH.
miss lala went crazy. hees.

okay and so umm. had stomachache after that till eng lessons.
the okay le. yup. eng lessons. sheryl wanted to sleep!! wahahah.
and then ms haq said my work was a huge disappointment D=

i forgot to do mah. then i wrote only 3 words : It is because. DD=
so i redo today lor. =D
hmm. have to link 2 peepo today.
lijia and lihui.
LOL. both "li"
i also li leh!
I'M LI HONG =DD

had literature test today.
hmm. 3 questions only.
i used 1 page. xD
hoping that i will pass..with flying colours! =D

hmm. and then here for library duty. but i'm slacking. =PP
hees. umm. oh yah.
i did one more blogskin!
yay! erm. okay. im going to do another one later.
when i go back home.
=D err. yea. keep a lookout of it!
its gonna be cute! =DD


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okay. take care, God bless and byee!
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school was okay larh. hmm. monday mah. then i accompany qh walk walk walk. then we went home. og yah today got a star. not fun de. i like drama better x)

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yay. i changed my friendster profile colours =P.
dinner was maggi mee for me.
and i snacked.
=D wangwang. biscuits. donut.

i love eating =DD
i did my ideas generation le! yay!!!
there's church tmr.
hmm. goodnight and God bless!
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why am i updating ah. okay. reply to tags lah..

jen. okay i tagged.

sacha. sigh. don't worry lah. everything will come to past one day. must be happy hor. =)

jiaqi. thanks. =)

chenxi. i hurt my friends? sorry. know that there will still be ppl talking behind me ah. nvm lah. they like to talk let them talk lor. what have i done. but i never act lah.

jenna. haiyo. see people de tag got blocked liao. lol. ok lah. everthing rocks la.

DRAMA. i was in sijie's group. then have to act paikia liddat. then some people say i cannot. i don't know lah. why i cannot? everyone got their paikia side mah. its only today. aiyah. wo si le lah. my laughter. gone liao lor. what happened to me.

i don't know. i'm getting afraid of doing things nowadays. im afraid i will say the wrong things. or do the wrong things. then people will talk about what i do. why must you care. whatever i do you all like to talk about it. what is the problem. i am not being petty in here. i really don;t know what to say. im afraid i will say something wrong. then in drama we have to presnt smth mah. then last week drama i never go. then i dont know have anything. then i was in nobody's grp. so i went to sijie's grp lor.

there's hw. d&t hw. umm. lit hw. maths hw. the ws. im so tired of everything in life. i can't be how i used to be. why? i don't know either. i'm dumb lah.

sorry.

i don't know why you have to pretend to be someone else you are not. if you dowan fold skirt. dowan fold socks. den dont fold lor. but everyone is doing it. then be yourself lor. then be myself then people will talk. because i don't do what they do. i don't care anymore.

i dont mind letting you all know what im going through. this is part of my conversation with someone.


m i s s . l a l a ｻﾄﾞﾗ says:
but sometimes hor. when im there. sometimes maybe people dont know they treat me as invisible but i feel they are lah. i sit alone. i stay alone. and only God is with me. what a struggle He is putting me thru. such a strong struggle. u noe b4 my parents were liddat. i told God i want to love them with all my heart i wonder if God is doing this just to let me love my parents. must God do this? why such a huge change in lifestyle and enviroment. and making me have to adapt. just to make me love my parents...
m i s s . l a l a ｻﾄﾞﾗ says:
i feel i sacrifice a lot a lot for my friends lor. then sumtyms they dont care. i mean they say thank you with no sincerity.
m i s s . l a l a ｻﾄﾞﾗ says:
maybe there is, but you know sincere ppl right. you can feel they sincerity and you feel warmth.
m i s s . l a l a ｻﾄﾞﾗ says:
but i feel so cold.
m i s s . l a l a ｻﾄﾞﾗ says:
you understand?

you all have closer friends. its not that i don't try to make friends. i really don't know. i don't even dare to speak. because you think that i say stupid things.

replies and valentine's day

replies first. =)

jenna - you're welcomed. ^^

alicia - lol. my memory good mah. they are stored as images in my brain x) that's why i remember so well. hehe. hees. my first day i only remember sherri sit beside me then jiayi and clara sit behind me. =) lols. yah thanks for reminding me. =) as (huimei) for mrs soh, i only remember her looks, i knew she taught gym, and she taught us PE..hees.

wan lin - i sahll call you averlyn lah. its nicer ^^ thanks a lot. But you do really good skins. =D Nevermind if they leave you out lah. In 2faith 06 you wont be! cause there's me! LOL. as if i'm that popular. wahaha.

eugene - title: friends and sisters by sandy asher (:

japh - sure. =)) thanks for tagging! =)

chenxi - yep maths is nice but i'm deproving leh. =(

huimei - replied in alicia's reply liao. ehehe. =)

chris - haha. you too lah.

VALENTINE'S DAY!

thanks for all the presents and/or cards. or maybe just a handshake or a "happy valentine's day!" ^^ lol.

victoria jiaqi joannas dawn qiuhui josie carine sheryl beatriz alicia tee jenna peiqi clara regina. woah 14 people! nice number! and its the 14th of feb today. NICENICENICE XD

Anyway made cards for many people, for nice people. x) if you never receive, maybe its because you didn't make for me lor. LOL. just joking. =)

wanlin said she would gimme mine on white valentine's day. =) anyway, mr ng didn't come today. so we didn't have geog lessons. =D and we went to the library to do some research during science. (almost slept. luckily we stepped out for fresh air. hees) for the universal thingy. what ah? err. natural pH indicators lor. roses' petals. nice! =D hmm. is there maths test tomorrow huh? *blur*

MY STORY

Remembering last year, (I know I supposed to write this at the start of this year. Or at the end of last year. But sorry la...I'm very chi dun that kind so yah..) I recalled much memories. Good and bad. everything. bitter sweet sour tasteless. I had them all.

Now this is the story of my school life.

I had pretty nice memories at the beginning of my secondary school life. I remembered the 1st day, Mrs Tan told us to shake hands with our partner in the school hall. My partner was then Sherri. We smiled and giggled quite a bit when we shook hands. She was my 1st friend I knew that was in the same class as me. 1faith. And then we sat with each other on the 1st few days of school. She's a nice person =D Sherri suda. =)

And she changed her chinese name last year I think. Sherri told me she had changed her chinese name many times. She's now xu tian yi shi. I think I won't be able to complete my story if i contnue this way. I remembered every single day of last year so by the time i type everything out I'll be dead. So let me move on. =)

Then when Ms Haq changed everybody's place last year, I got to know peiqi and carine. Peiqi sat next to me and Carine sat with Huimei. and i was in the middle of peiqi and carine. =) Maybe that's how carine and huimei stuck together =)) Peiqi was a cheerful girl. and Carine was really quiet. Then i got to know liquan too. =) She was best friends with peiqi. So there was it. Me, sherri, peiqi and liquan. Anyway, things changed but i shall continue my story first. That will come later. I think Chenxi was in the same group as me at that time. She was talking to Christopher. Christopher sat behind me. then there was derek. behind me. hahaha.

I remembered Chenxi told me she loved maths. I love it too. ^5 =D And then the very next day Ms Haq chose the class community. And then surprise. Ms Haq asked me if i wanted to take up the position of vcm. I felt eyes starring at me. I just nodded my head. Lol. oh and that day there was supposed to be PE. it was written in the timetable. =) But we didn't have PE. Oh no I forgot what was our PE teacher's name. Anyway she was a lady. =) And i wore PE for the whole day. Sijie accompanied me. LOL. but i didnt know her at that time but i sure was glad that i wasnt the only suaku who didnt know that I had to change back into uniform after PE. lol. in pri sch we didnt have to mah. we just wore PE attire for the whole day. hees.

And i remembered she was in moses house too =) Then the next day. I think it was the next day. yup ms lee came to teach us. she was a relief teacher. and she was really nice. Ms Haq went for her Haj you see. And so she taught us. we did the eng wb. and then i got to know people as i waked around the class. hees. really nice knowing them. and i remembered ppl calling me vcm vcm because they didnt know my name. LOLS. cute people x) and dawn said she lost her correction tape. then i wrote it on the board. but no one found it in the end. or did dawn find it? lol. i dont know lah.

anyway, soon after it was CNY. time to do hamper and stuff. then i asked people if they would like to go to northpoint to shop for the hamper stuff for the old folks. yup. and clara went. she was the welfare head =) liquan peiqi petrina too. and yihui. and qiuhui =) yah. i was a little late that time lah. =/ the sijie even later. lol. she brought the money =) and then clara called. then she came to the this fashion outside to bring me and sijie in. oh yah. i remember that yihui called me to ask me what i was wearing >< forgeot ="/" there ="X">< well anyway i went window shopping with sijie that day. and then we signed up for a mcd membership card tgt. lols. the woman there helped us. x)

it was fun lah. lols. and the next day qiuhui went to but some more food. yah. and we brought everything back to school on the following monday. then qiuhui and I wrapped all the food in the hamper and sent it to the needlework room. ms haq come back already huh that time? then the seats were rearranged again.

hmm. i sat with xiaomin. then peiqi was in front of me. hmmm. what else can i remember. anyway it was around that time that i started to be alone. i was by myself every recess. i didnt like it when PW time was there. i didnt know who would accept me in their group. everybody hated me then. don't know why. so i was alone all the time for about half a year. 6 months bah. yup. alone. i can't remembered what happened to me after that already. I was dead already. no longer sandra the happy vcm.

REPLIES TO TAGS

(: so here i am again, replying to tags. hmm. let's see. i'm not a good girl. =( I didnt finish my hw. or should i say i havent even touched them. =( well, anyway, replies. =)

xuemei - thanks for tagging! i'll try linking you asap. you know i'm lazy. sigh. i musnt be lazy. =/ ahaha. oh yah. post more ah? read all my last time entries lor. quite long one. =X okay, bhb sandra =XX

jenna - o.0 false alarm ah? bad jenna. badbad jenna. lols. thanks for tagging. x))

jiaqi - wheee. thanks jiaqi =)) woah you up so early eh. lols. you too! =D

huimei - hees. yup. *nods head* hehe. XD

2nd post of the day

Cbox just changed its advertisement. Linux Hosting becomes Get a free site. LOLS. btw, here's smth i read in a book. well it applies to me sometimes. =) Here you go:

With my chin bobbing on top of my books, I watched as my feet trudge towards school. That was the only thing i noticed that was happening, besides the fact that I was breathing, and still alive. Rainy. Phooey. Monday. Nuts. School. Yucks. Ocassionally another body trotted past, a voice called, "Hi!" But I ignored everything and everyone outside my own miserable self.

I watched the rubber tips of my shoes shuffle to a stop at the curb. Quickly and stealthily, I glanced at the traffic light. It was green. I fastened my eyes to my shoes once more and proceeded.

"Hopeless!" I said under my breath. "The whole world is hopeless. The human race is a total wreck and we should all hurl ourselves off the planet So why am I still going to school?"

The pavement beneath my rubber soles turned lighter in colour and smoother, then gave way to schoolyard. Several strides later, I mounted concrete stairs and stepped onto wooden floor. After dumping my bag on my chair, I slumped and sank into my seat. I rested my head down on top of the books piled on my desk. I would have preferred lying on the floor. Or better yet, burrowing under the foundation, along with the other worms. I was that low.

I will not speak to another living soul for a year, I decided. A month, I redecided. Except teachers, if they speak to me first, I decided for the third and absolutely final time.

I was aware of the bodies sliding into the seats beside me. I decided to block out any other noise that was bothering me. So i covered my ears and shut my eyes. Strange thoughts filled my mind.

Rejected by _________, I found myself ignored by the rest of my class as well. So what? Who cared? Certainly not she. They were all creeps. No redeeming virtues whatsoever, as far as I could tell.

The end.

HEYLOS.

Because of Jenna, I decided to reply to tags here. If not I get mistaken for flooding my own tagboard. hahah. I was only replying to tags in my tagboard because I was too lazy to post yesterday. =/

So here are the replies. (:

Christopher - Aiyohh..why always like that. SMILE! God doesnt want to see you like that larh. =DD

Jenna - hmpf* I don't flood my own tagboard lah. =P

Sijie - Thanks. I'm fine already. I'll be back in school on Monday. See you! =)

Jojo - Heloos. haha. thanks. (: Are you jolene?

Eugene - I look like auntie meh? =(

Jenna - Lols. YOU FLOODED! OH YES YOU DID. WAHAHAHA. =DD

Will edit and add pcitures here. loads of pictures. Look out. (;

I know my entries are dead boring lah. but my life is boring that's why. LOL. anyway, here are the pictures I promised. A picture paints a thousand words. ((:


the first picture is umm. the reflection of the bhb me. wahahaha. the second picture is my brother lor. ahaha. the third photo was took at the mrt. lame, huh. but i love it. you can see the reflection of all the trees , hdb flats. so nice right..ohh im going crazy. lol. but i reallyreallreally love it lah. the 3rd one huh. guess what? you see those holes at the mrt the toilet that kinda thing. lols. YESYES. the hole which the dirty stuff goes in. LOL! and the last one. my hair. whahaha. bhb-ness. again. okay, more to come! ((:

1st one, yays. that's my brother. duh. lols. yes i know he is cute. x) . but nevermind, the 2nd one's nice. =)) i like it x) hmm. 3rd one! junyang with yiyuan's poster. ahaha. just nice. =) picture quality isnt that good though. ahaha. okay. till here, take care guys! =D

GIDDY

sick. sick. sick.
sigh.
why am i sick.
giddy like dont know what. =(

which means i didn't take the science test today.
hohoho.
which means i have to take it tomorrow i guess...
and i missed drama x(
can anyone tell me what all of you learnt today?

anyway, victoria came over to bring my homework.
nice of her. x)
and she told me something funny happened during d&t. lols

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replies to tags:

christopher - you want my name is it. haha. and i didn't forget to go. lols. anyway i'm going to change library day to tues. wahahaha.

huimei - sigh. what to do. higher authority must listen mah. but i really don't understand why he...sigh. nvm lah.

jenna - wahhh. why. later lah. very tired now. feel like sleeping. =X

huan - ? that was the first time i went to your blog. got other passerbys? o.0

jenna - happytreefriends. gross but cute lah. hees. okok. i go a while later. rest first (; [edit] i tagged =) [/edited]

chenxi - thank you. *bows* ((((:

huan - i see...lols. hmm. then i hope that you'll find her somewhere bah. >< lols.

huiqing - okay. i just flooded. lols.

zhiheng - lols. welcome!! =)))

hi.
thanks a lot for those who tagged. i shall reply to tags here. =)

sacha -- lols. your friend brought joshua ang?? you mean..bought? uh no. cannot be right. hahah. tell me tomorrow okay? =)

clement ong -- hi jian chang. hees. (:

sheryl -- lol. clement of GOMAD doesn't know that i blog la. lol. >< gosh you had gastric for the whole day?? sigh. standing under the hot sun as a "punishment". but the thing is we didn't talk! mr ___ should punish those who talk only lorh. its unfair. and he's like. a christian leh. how can like that =(

qiuhui -- ello. yah i understand lah. nvm =))

angeline -- thanks angeline. i think its mood swing la. tong hua? okay i go find the url for tong hua. btw, wan mei de yi tian right. the last few seconds have a bit of tong hua. haha. yep. okay. thanks =))

jenna -- girl, didn't i just tag? >< lols. okok. i go tag again if that's what you want. =)
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we had maths test today. i did not know how to do 2 questions. 4a and 4b. but alicia said she knew. good for her! hoping that our whole class will be able to pass this test =)

the other time time many had pretty low marks, including me...i scored a measly 8 =/ for that standard form test. but anyway, there are two tests tomorrow. science and d&t/home econs. i guess many didn't know that there's a d&t test tomorrow. but well if you read my blog, you will know la. lol. so gogogo and study now. haha.

sang above all for the "test" during music lesson today. lols. qiuhui said i a bit off key for the crucified part. lols. but anyway, off key then off key lorh. lol. anyway it doesnt matter. God likes my voice leh. haha.

didn't bring geog today so i didn't hand in the workbook today. um. will hand in tomorrow lorh. oh yarh. i just remembered the d&t folio thingy. the research and stuff. sigh. so many things to do, so little time. and we got our science file today. if i'm not wrong its supposed to be for science i think. lol. and its orange. like the literature file last year. hees.

had library duty today after school. did with victoria and josephine (yay she's back!) haha. i think she quitted leo club or something. haha. and we didn't really do anything much today. hees. i wrapped books though (x and watched cyndi's jiemaowanwan mv. lol.

ohmygosh. smth on top just crashed. the neighbour dropped an antique? =/ okay. nvm about that. anyway, i find to go look for information for acids bases blah. science. lol. okay. byee =)

I'm confused.

i reallyreally don't know.
this world is freaky.
no one ever remembers your good points
they don't care.

if you made a mistake;
whether big or small;
people will just remember the mistake;
and forget about your past contributions.

this world is getting irritating.
everyone only thinks of their ownself.
they don't care about the rest.
well if you are like popular.
of course everyone will crowd around you,
but everyone will forget about you soon after.

you are very lucky to be accepted so quickly.
they know your problems.
they don't know mine.

they will leave you alone there.
they won't care.
because they have got their own group of friends
whom they know they can count on anytime.
what about the outcast-ed?
doesnt anyone even think about them?

this world is like that.
its like. hao xin mei hao bao.
everyone is like. fake.
not their real selves.
i might be fake too.
i smile fake smiles.
because i don't want anyone to know i'm unhappy.

but what's the use.
even if people know you're unhappy
they just look at you with pitiful eyes
and don't do anything about people
being left at the side of the road.

they think people who look happy and really happy.
but, no!
some people have to fake it all out.
they smile and luagh, just like normal people do.
but they are acually
just pretending to be happy that's all.
like me.

i really thank all of you who tried cheering me up.
but some people are just so fake.
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there's a maths test tmr; expansion. i studied already. but i didn't back my maths notebook =( i left them in the cupboard, and it was already locked when i finish packing my class. I'm always (almost) the last one to leave the class all the time. then someone will say like umm. why you never take earlier. ** even if i'm not talking to her she's like. cha zui that kind of thing. she think she so clever meh. anyway I lent sheryl's maths tb to study. thank you sheryl (:

went to library to do finishing touches for the science proj. it looked nice and neat when victoria and I finally did the pasting and all. x) sense of accomplishment =) then went down for lunch. at ard 2 plus. i didn't eat breakfast. recess was taken away by mr ___. sigh. always like that. its unfair for people who don't eat breakfast. Hais. but by God's grace and strength, I survived another day. I wonder when this will stop. anyway, back to topic...umm...then we saw weiling, qiuhui and xitong. and then qiuhui said a friendly hello. =))

(i'm not gonna care anymore about what you say about this, i will never, never be afraid of your hurting comments ever again. i think the 1faith peepo last year told them smth about me to the 1endurance peepos. =(( i thought it was a new beginning. now i feel like dying. =/)

but I am not feeling happy.