This world is a great sculptor's shop. We are the statues and there is rumour going round the shop that some of us are some day going to come to life. =D - C.S. Lewis

Thursday, March 30, 2006

the feeling of being used

UPDATES
1. i downloaded graphmatica and its rather nice actually =)
2. i did my homework in school
3. i know my grades are de-proving (that spells BIG trouble for me)
4. my design folio is incomplete.
5. i haven't bought a d&t apron
6. i have to do the props for lit (i lugged 3 umbrellas back home today)
7. i read www.funbrain.com the diary is VERY interesting. a must go. i shall link it soon (: i'm at day 223. heheheh. oh yarh. i think i started reading last year. hehehehe. x)

i guess that's enough. okay, the feeling of being used.

firstly, picture this scene in your mind.

you thought some people were going to walk towards you, but they walked and talked to the person BESIDE you instead. and then they treat you like you're invisble and squeeze their way in and take over your standing or sitting place. now think.

next, someone comes up to you smiling. you thought that person wanted to talk to you. but that person just asked you for a favour. like uhh. doing something for them. and then you foolishly say okay. well i say okay all the time lah. and i feel very very used. get what i mean? you cant say no can you? i dont know. then you think, if you say no, that person will dislike or even hate you.

you understand? its not like i am like a toy okay. that you can pass around and throw into the bin or at a corner when you feel like it. i got scolded my many people today. do you know the feeling of being isolated? no? okay i shall fill you in.

one day, when you decided to chat up some people, they diao you and they just nod their head and walk away. then when you try talking to them again, they say go away and so you have to do everything alone. its veryvery difficult being isolated okay. its not fun at all.

how would you feel? tell me. im having a bad feeling about typing this post. because some people might just hate me and complain about me after this. rahhhhs.

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