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I feel emo now -.-

I feel emo when I see this posting page..hmm in addition to this test-packed week, I'm having an english test tomorrow with Chinese and Amaths.

Walibaba I don't know what to post..sometimes right..i think of what to post during the day but when I come to the actual page I forget everything..someone is busy flirting in MRL..lol. MRL is an interesting place to see stuff happening..

If you just sit there and observe..(;

I MISS MY COMPUTERRRRRRRRRRR!

I don't like using MRL's cause people might peep over your shoulder when you're trying to post and then I'll get really irritated..

Okay I think I'll just forget about trying to find something to blog about..God bless, take care & byeeeeeee. =D

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Countdown to midyears: 20 days. OH-MY-GOSH.

I think oral's included..my goodnessssssss. I haven't finished my english essay -.- by the way my computer hasn't been fixed yet. =(! Hmm a week without blogging..quite a lot happened I guess..

Okay on Good Friday I got 2 cuts on both my feet..lol. I was rushing to church cause I was late =X my left foot carelessly slipped down the kerb of the road when I was trying to cross it..but then I saw a car coming so I quickly pulled back and ta da -- the skin peeled off..okay then in the evening I hurt the right foot -.- yea..lol.

Ate macs with yin and ajw on yesterday morning..saw loads of familiar faces..lol I didn't know so many PHSians would be there..well anyway I had trouble walking cause of both the cuts and I joked that I should have crutches so that the whole class can stay on the first level and not move around all the time..ahah. And I burnt my tongue..it hurt the entire day can..cause I stupidly drank hot milo with a straw -.-

But i'm okay today..the feet and tongue don't hurt anymore =DD oh yah had SS test yesterday..one 13 marks question..I wrote 'encouraging self-reliance' as the most important component..and today's chinese test got postponed to Friday and we're gonna be invigilated by chenlaoshi omgosh..! I don't like tests at the end of the day..plus I have a amaths test on that day as well..I think I'm going to faint..almost did during the 3 periods of amaths today..i felt weak all over; like no oxygen went into my brain or something..

Today's post is boring..having emaths test tomorrow..chem's on thursday..history's next monday..sigh. All the class tests really drain the energy out of me..God please gimme strength to endure all these, thanks =) Okie before I go..visit http://laozhabor.blogspot.com if you're bored and feel like laughing your mouth out (and your teeth too..LOL) So take care, God bless and byeeeee! =)

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Hahaha I'm in the library again and I just had a 笑场 with Victoria (hence the "hahaha" at the start XD) Just read my previous post and realised that its VERY random..LOL. The content in every individual paragraph do not link at all..lol Sandra you're so off-topic.

Okay so anyway..I thought its like 5+ now when its only 4+ -.-''' LOL I didn't intend to stay back today..V asked me loads of time during lessons but I kept saying no and then I came cause I didnt feel like going home alone today..lol, what an irony yea?

Felt really symphatetic for TanBS during Physics today..I'm going to pay attention in his lessons in future..! XD Reallyyyyy. I almost cried when he made his "speech". I DON'T WANT A CHANGE OF TEACHER!! The timetable change is enough please don't make it worse. Omgosh, Sandra you're getting so emo lately. I've been so emo recently I cried when the lead actress weeped in a show..Isn't that so shocking? LOL.

Yay I blogged 2 days in a row..(crapping) and I think I'm going to change the blog song to "超喜欢你” if I can't find "I want something else"..hmm..Okay maybe not..but I really like the rhythm of the song (超喜欢你) but the lyrics are like..I don't want to think about it..its too freaky la..lol so..if I want to forget about that whole matter I shouldn't put it as my blog song right..Okay good decision. (x

Bored lehhhhh. V is going off at 5.30pm only lehhhhhhh. LOL long lehs. I think I'll go sleep after this..and shower when I get home..then do homework..YAY I'M A BIGTIME GOOD GIRL. LOOOOOL. Kay I'll stop all the crapping..God bless, smile alwayssss, (!! :D) take care and byeeeee! ((:

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In mum's office now (cool righttttt. xD) she's letting me use her com and I'm actually using IE7! Woah..okay so I just signed in to wlm (after a billion years) and I found out that my theme in Wordpress is not there..which means my files are goneeeee! BIG SIGH.

I think I should edit the "Sandra" section cause it feels cheesy to me (although I was the one who wrote it, ack.) So yea..I don't want to think about him..its stupid la..Keep having dreams these days and weird ones at that. I can't believe it myself that I actually saw his face in one of them and then I jolted right up and couldn't get back to sleep after that. Sheesh.

Brainnnnnn, get that image of him out of your memory card (whatever) and delete it. Haa. Yay I love God..thanks for being there..((: Oh ya..if anyone of you have "I want something else" by Third Eye Blind..send it to my email kay thanks. =D

Oh yes its april fool's today..haha..received some really lame messages..and I think I smiled at strangers today? Lol..I even smile at flowers, the sky, the moon and what not okay. So its Monday tomorrow..back to school..hmm.

ANDDDD. I didn't go over to dad's on Friday (yayyyyyyyyyyyy) and shirleen didnt go too (double yayyyyyy) and we celebrated my brother's birthday in advance (with dad) at a secret place..seriously I like the place a lot too..(: Went to the toys museum yesterday (brother's birthday) with dad and jw. Saw quite a lot of interesting (VERY OLD) toys..heee. The guy was pretty cute, too bad he's engaged, LOL!

I want to post picturessssss and the video of the cat..My mum's getting the card reader now..quickie! XD
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I think that's all I going to update..God bless, take care & byeeee. =)

379.

Okayyyy in MRL again..here to help HuiMei with her blog song cause the song can't seem to play..lol..

Its Friday again. I really don't want to go to Dad's..super crappy (remember the stinking + crappy mosquitoes?) Hahah..and I have to go for my Amaths tuition tomorrow..and finish up my History, Chem and Amaths worksheets.

Okay and I took a nap of 4 hours yesterday..woke up just in time for dinner (haha) and not long after 399 left..and he didn't fix my com..rahhhhh. But for now I don't really mind..but then in the evening when I really have nothing to do and can only like call people up I really wish that my computer was still working.

My blog song is like really outdated now..I don't have a particular favourite song now..Can't let life be mundane at this point of time, okay at any point of time..lol. Oh yah midyears are coming! 30th april, woahhhh! Gotta piaaaaaa, God bless me. LOL.

Tomorrow's my brother's birthday..9 years old..I pray he'd be more mature (please please please) and stop behaving like he's a 3 year old kid. Alamak, can't think of anything to write now..oh yah the cat thingy. Lalala..cats have been coming to my place O.O and then..gastric pains in school..like just now before I came here..

Okay bah..I wonder when my next post would be..I SUPER MISS BLOGGING =) I got to go..hmm smile always, take care, God bless & byeeeeeeee. =D

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Its english lesson now and he brought us to the com lab ^^ So yup taking this time to post something..hehee..Did some relinking just now and feeling so blah now cause the computer I was supposed to be using is having a faulty keyboard so I shifted to this other side where no one else is here (lonerrrr!) LOL but its fine with me, I don't fancy people hovering over me while I use computers..

Well so its been a week since I posted and chapel was okay..opps shant elaborate on stuff, got to go! He's catching people blogging, God bless, take care & byeeee! :D

Com crasheddddddd

What a drag la. It happened on fateful Monday morning (during the holidays) , after my brother and I hogged the com for hours playing miniclip (lol he got me playing) the night before. Kind of stupid but since the com's so old, maybe its time the hard disk died. OH WELL. R.I.P! LOL. Anyway I'm in the school library now, attempting to do a quick update..so yea the holidays haven't been good but I did manage to finish my homework! =D

Okay so like after we played daddy called me when I was about to sleep at 12.32 (lol i dont know why i remember the time although its been more than a week o_o) and I was super reluctant to take his call but still did in the end (derh, hahaha) and when he told me ah chor (my great-grandfather) was admitted to the hospital, i was like "Again?" and he said to pray and all and I just "mhm" him.

AND THENNNNN. The next morning I found one missed call from my daddy..he called at 10+ in the morning but i didnt think it was important la so yah..then he called again and told me the news. The news that my great-grandfather died. And I "HUH"ed him. Cause it was all too suddden..I didnt know how to react cause i wasnt very close to him (the only memories I had of him were him chiding me) Sigh. He was 96.

When my dad came to pick me up for the funeral he kept repeating how he could live till 100. But yea life is always unexpected isnt it. And I remember one thing that someone's mum (my aunt I think, lol) said.."Its all God's plan, maybe your (my) grandpa will slowly open up his heart and accept Christ because your ah chor was the one that made him not choose not to believe, so maybe its a good thing." And yea I think so..but the sad thing is that ah chor wasn't a Christian (you might have guessed by now)..and that was what I was sad about during the funeral.

The funeral was held in Chai Chee for 5 days continuously. Hundreds of people came and paid their last respects and so on..I stayed with my dad during this period of time so I didnt get to see mummy for a few days (missed her LOADS!). It was very tiring, cause I had to stay there from the morning to like midnight. Very, very exhausting. But thank God Sacha was there to accompany me..but I didnt like staying at my dad's.

Its so dusty (Man, they dont clean up the house, especially man like my dad, sigh) and it was so uncomfortable..i had trouble sleeping..its like sleeping in a cobweb, yucks. And even when my dad turned on the aircon mosquitoes STILL managed to get in and bite ME. =( RAHH and my legs look like crap cause of all the bites and scars they left. Scars cause it was so itchy I had to scratch it..SIGH WHY CANT HE LIVE IN A NORMAL HDB FLAT.

I DONT WANT TO GO THERE ANYMOREEEEEEEE. URGH.

And yes I missed updating my blog..hahaaa..nOL is having a problem, I dont know who deleted my wp-config file. =( I wanted to make a wordpress theme, sigh sigh sigh..

Oh yah enough of all the funeral stuff and all the rants. Shouldnt write too much..lol. Phew okay so yes term 2 has started..rather okay la nothing much except that I still laugh everyday..lol? Monica Cheng and Carl Cheng, go figure if you have nothing better to do, lol. Mr T.T (LOL) hasnt come..sad. No one has been teaching us maths except he gave us homework for practice. Hmmm..term 1 was a rush, i wonder how term 2 would turn out..Im still having that weird feeling..sigh. Skipping a beat.

Sigh have to go to the library to return the overdued-for-1-week books. Opps but beatrice's holding on to one, haha never mind. Here in MRL cause was supposed to be doing the homework that T.T gave but I have not completed it..hahha.

Okay I think I'll go and visit blogs (havent done that in a long, long time) And I promised I'll update the pages of this site when my com is fixed. =) So take care, God bless, smile always and ciaoooooo! XD

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Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

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Hmm..today. Nothing much. Pretty crappy and draggy throughout. And cried over the phone with dearie and told her loads of stuff. Studd I never told anyone before. Stuff I never intended to tell her. But I still did. And she wasn't surprised. Now that's my dearie. =D

I've got to get my thinking ability back. Don't don't ever tell someone "Don't think so much", at least not to me cause it will actually affect every part of my thinking. -_- BUT REALLY! A lot of people used to tell me that and I really stopped thinking. About everything. Yes, literally everything. I didn't think when I did my work. I didn't think about my situation at that time. I didn't think of anyone..blah you get it. And my grades suffered like crap. Although it picked up in Term 3 last year (THANK GODDD! :D) and my thinking ability for most subjects are okay..I still (rah how come Blogger has the bold and italics button but not the underline? dumb.) have trouble doing maths. Especially surds. Crappy crappy surds.

Rah so anyway we talked a lot about studies (not homework) and yea promised ourselves about some things =D And I understand what Mr Tan taught in Amaths today! :D Sum and product of roots, yay! Alpha and beta, double yay! LOL. Super happy la. I love my dearies~!

Oh yaaaaa, I didn't realise that 'Sandrainbow' has a drain in it until dearie told me! LOOOOOL. Funny crap. Never mind, at least drains have an end, like if you drop into one it isn't fatal unlike a long hollow tube. Now that's the worst..hahaa..Im glad the holidays are coming. Really glad cause I really need a break and a brush. To brush up my marks =D

Okieee I'm being lame. I LOVE..YOU!

I think I'll end here (all good things come to an end, LOL) so take care, smile always, God bless & BYEEEE! =)

I need AMATHS tuition

No joke. I desprately need it. Can you believe most people passed their amaths CT and I failed..badly? Thank God it was the class test marks that got entered into the report slip..but I failed both. Goodnesssss.

SIGHSIGHSIGH. Sometimes going home alone is good..if you don't see anyone you know along the way..hahah. I feel pretty pathetic now. I think doing SS notes can be fun. =D I think I should change my entries font to Verdana. Looks better? Loool..BISHBOM.

Crushing is fun but its tiring. Especially for someone like me. I'm a sicko. My definition of sicko is weird. Lol I'm ultraweird. I talk to myself. I sing to myself. I'm shy? Oh wow sandra is shy. LOL. Yea I guess I am when I'm by myself..I laugh too much. I laugh too loud. I laugh for nothing. I laugh at myself. Yea most of the times if I look at you and laugh I'm actually laughing at myself..cause..I feel retarded. Laughing is good. It "activates" the "feel-good" sense in you.

I'm mad. I laugh a lot when I'm nervous..or shy? To cover up? Lool..yea I know it myself. I'm not a siao char bo..haha..I smile to myself when I see pretty things even when I'm alone. Like flowers on a patch of grass..like when I see people having fun..like when I see people being happy..hmm I'm also very random. Yes I'm weird. I'm unique. I'm the one and only me.

I want to improve my amaths. Need to badly.

God blessss. =)

Finallyyyy.

Okay so atspace's problem has been solved and I'm finally able to post! :D

I'm actually doing library duty now..in charge of Computer Loaning so I get to use the computer! Hahah..anyway thanks to all the dearies and papa during this crappy time..yup I gave up on him. And he probably wont even read this, he probably doesnt even know I've a blog..Well..(:

Hmm..really. Sometimes things occur when you least expect is to happen. Thats how life is, isnt it.

A lot to update actually but nothing comes to my mind now -.- Sigh..I want to finish all my homework and hand in everytime by this week case I want my march holidays to really be holidays.

I failed my Amaths CT..then was super gloomy in biology. And before bio jiayin asked about it and told me to cheer up..haha thanks girl..and ajw too for like patting my shoulder dont know how many times and telling me its okay. LOL.

Oh yah but something in Bio made me laugh..Mrs Choy said something and then suddenly she went like 5 4 3 2 1..Happy NEW YEAR! OMGOSH THAT WAS LAMEEEE. And then she said something else about sweet and sour and then I was like..sweet & sour pork? LOL and then Victoria laughed like crazy..&& one other thing..the vomitting thingy. LOL that was funny cause she vommitted 7 times this morning and Mrs Choy said something about vomitting..hahaah.

Welllll. I gotta JIAYOU. I failed 4 CTs..I need a Amaths tutor. Desprately..Okay bored bored bored. Byeee (oh yah Mdm Maureen gave me chocolates! :D)

GOD BLESS & TAKE CARE!

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This is supposed to be in the previous post but after publishing it together the main page had a 500 Internal Error..-.- so I decided to seperate the post into two parts. I hope this works. & I can't believe I've spent 1 hour (?) trying to fix this.

P.S: ALI BABA & RD. XD

And Victoria says I look like this "cute" squirrel in Over the Hedge. Like looool..this is only the nicer version of it..the un-glam one is..



Lol..I didn't know I look like this..-.-

Picture credits: Here & here. (:

I think..

http://photos.friendster.com/photos/31/10/28120113/548370028l.jpg

YH looks like WuZun in this picture! And if WuZun is a female, he'd probably look like her..haha.

And..I think MZ looks like FeiYuQing when he smiles =x Lol never mind he doesn't read my blog so hahahaaa.

HM didn't reply in MSN..=( but anyway her status is Away so oh well..

Hmm oh yah I handed the SS IT Day worksheet today at 2.45PM =X and the rest of the 3H worksheets have been collected so I'm like so late..

QH came over today.. :D watched tv talked & ate..lol. Anyway girl if youre reading this..let go of the past and press on for the future okay? LOVE YOU! =D

PE was scary today..the shortpark? Whatever that metal ball was called, it was heavy and we actually had to like throw it over our heads? Then when it was my turn I threw it by my left side..LOL but nobody said anything la so..never mind? XD

If we have to "play" with it again next week, I can die..I'm super afraid of the thought that it will drop on my head and then my skull will crack and my brain would show and blodd would come gushing out and I'd faint and blah blah..but I must have faith in God that He'd protect me from harm ^^ yesterday I read Hebrews 11 for QT and this morning Pastor Veronica talked about this same thing..so God must be trying to tell me something..hmmm..

I LOVE WUZUN! :D

I LOVE GOD! :DD LOL

Okay thanks for reading this..GOD BLESS TAKE CARE & BYE! XD

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Added one new wallpaper. =)

WU ZUNNNNN!

GOODNESSSSSS. Quan is so nice to RuiXi..AWWWW!

www.crunchyroll.com
Click on Drama, scroll down and click next until you reach page 16 then find Hanazakari no Kimitachi e..enjoy! :D

Iloveguyswithbigeyes..hohoho. I'm obsessing by myself ._.

Poof!

BPC.net is finally gone..lol when Liz told me that it would be gone in January I quickly switched sites and told everybody that it was going to expire in 1 or 2 weeks time. But I suppose it held out longer than expected..oh well so this means that I have to upload all visitor content unto this site today (if not, soon (:)

Okay I better get to work now.I'm going to polish up all my pages..yay! By the way I slept 13 hours before I woke up this afternoon. Random information, such a pig yea? Lol okie, bye guys! Take care, smile always & God bless! :D

The best of the best

Jazz's eyes were watering, but she could see the pieces of her life coming together, the way the pieces of her art did when she painted. With her art, she had always sensed that her creation had existed somewhere already and she was simply unraveling it, figuring out where the pieces fit onto the canvas.

That's how it felt now. It was as if Somone, a great Creator, had known all along this is where she'd be, at the start of her journey. She was stepping out, believing in an unseen God she did not know, but with the promise that she wouldn't be alone on the journey anymore.

Isn't this so poignant? The last two paragraphs of the book I just finished reading.

God is an artist too. =)

God bless! =D

Opps

I just reached home not long ago and..

I have to:

Take a shower
Study for Physics CT (TOMORROW!)
Study for Amaths test (TOMORROW!)
Do 应用文（=x haven't done it yet)
Do SS (=X =X JanLim is back!)
Do Physics worksheet (rah refraction of light is crap)

I want to:

Watch 花样少年少女 on ChU at 7 later
Watch 凡间新仙人 on Ch8 at 9 later

Few things on my mind:

The "Journey" booklet hasn't arrive yet..
I forgot to hand in my 剪报! (I did bring it today)

Some current wants =x :

New handphone!
Webcam w/ microphone OR <-- this is the better choice. XD Webcam w/o microphone

Okay! So Sandra, organize. =)

The time now is 3.24PM.
I'll give myself time till 3.45 online then I'll bathe till around 4.
Study amaths till 5.
-BREAK-
Continue/ call someone to chat
Continue till 7,
TV!
7-8: Time for Physics
9: TV! :D
10: Recap amaths for half an hour..
10.30: QT,
11: SLEEP! YAYY! =DDDDD

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Okay like finally I can update this blog! :D The past 2 days of visitations really wore me out..so I decided to stay home today andddd study and watch "我要做Model" (which is showing now).

Lalala so a whole lot of things happened in the 2 days..went to church on Sunday and slept during half of the sermon =x But I understood what Pastor Colin was preaching about..((: OH YAH the heels I wore on the first day totally killed my feet. You should see my feet. LOL (okay like who does..haha) Should have bought a bigger size..and the most dreaded thing was that I stood in the train the whole time during my trip to Kembangan..(dad told me to be there after church) and I had to put plasters but they were of little use I still had blisters and all..lol.

Okay I think I'll update more..wanna watch the show, God bless! (:

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OMGOSH! Yea I finished the movie and then I watched “花样少年少女”!
Goodness, when I saw 只对你有感觉's MV, I thought Wu Zhun was real gay but then he was so super dashing & cool in the show and he's like..my goodness!
HIS BLOG
LOL..okay yah I'm slow la..Fahrenheit (wow I actually know how to spell their group name, LOL) is nice! Hahahaa..

Hmm okay I went to the "Singaore Ang Bao River" event yesterday and played that dangerous round thing alone. Can you believe it? Lol papa and jianwei didn't come with me cause we only had 3 tokens left..and I finally decided to take the risk and do it..and I was the first to go up and I found a place and watched people filling up the other places slowly..the music was blasting loudly..not my type of music but I still tapped along a little..haha and then the fun began..I opened my eyes the first round it went then when it slowly lifted up I closed my eyes and slept happily..lol. Well I can't find the photo of it..sigh..anyway, the gravity was really strong..it was difficult in move when you're halfway hanging up in the air..Lol. But anyway it was an experience I'd remember..always. (:
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P.S: BROWN & BLUE IS COOL :D

HI!

Helloooo..hmm I want to thank Jia Yin over here for the encouraging stuff you said (you know what (:) and thanks for saying that's not rubbish. Haha..I LOVE MY DEARIES! :DDDDDDD Yep I know they love me too..lol.

Anyway had reunion dinner at grandma's and was thrilled to see some of my cousins for the first time in this year. Yea I know its February..haha. I taught them the camp stuff..(of course..I had to tell them everything from the start of this year..you know, catching up (:) haha no I didn't tell them everything but I taught them the cheers and everything..lol thats so Sandra. (x

I LOVE EVERYONE..yea everyone I know. (:

P.S: If you find it hard to love someone you loved once, just remember why you first loved the person. (:

HAPPY CNY IN ADVANCE! :D COLLECT LOADS OF ANGBAOS AND DON'T FORGET TO STUDY FOR PHYSICS..HAHAHA (I'm spoiling the mood. LOL!)

Okay till here, God bless, take care & bye! :D

Note to myself: Study physics, amaths, do jianbao and that dumb yingyongwen. =)

Hm

I think a lot. Its weird that everytime I think, my brain would like a typewriter, typing my thoughts out word by word..but I'm not even in front of the computer, not to mention blogging but why.

A typewriter has no brain..so does it mean I'm going brainless too? My maths results are like argh (okay I did pass) BUT IF ITS GONNA BE LIKE THIS IS SEC3, WHAT (opps sorry didnt know I used caps & im lazy to change it so there =x) more in JC or in poly? Crap, Sandra is feeling stressed now. or at least she thinks so.

Sometimes I'm not so sure of myself..like the decisions I make and the things I say don't please everybody..and I have like this big-time mood swings going on in me and make the people around me afraid.. (according to her) and its like..SIGH.

I don't want my brain to become a typewriter! A TYPEWRITER (shucks caps again, sorry) doesn't know how to do maths..maths maths maths. School is starting to drain me out a little..(okay I'm not so sure again).

Is think a lack of self-assurance or self-confidence or both? Sometimes I feel like I don't know how I'm feeling (like now)..its bad. Not knowing yourself is not a good thing..sigh sigh sigh.If I'm going to post this why would people say. Oversensivity is not good..do I give people the impression that I wouldnt blog this way..or think this way..or behave like that? I don't know either..okay I think I have to start discovering myself. Rahh.

Well maybe I know myself. Maybe I'm too tired and thus I'm rubbishing a rubbish post on my blog. I'm really talking rubbish..okay rubbish this.

God bless.