MY STORY

Remembering last year, (I know I supposed to write this at the start of this year. Or at the end of last year. But sorry la...I'm very chi dun that kind so yah..) I recalled much memories. Good and bad. everything. bitter sweet sour tasteless. I had them all.

Now this is the story of my school life.

I had pretty nice memories at the beginning of my secondary school life. I remembered the 1st day, Mrs Tan told us to shake hands with our partner in the school hall. My partner was then Sherri. We smiled and giggled quite a bit when we shook hands. She was my 1st friend I knew that was in the same class as me. 1faith. And then we sat with each other on the 1st few days of school. She's a nice person =D Sherri suda. =)

And she changed her chinese name last year I think. Sherri told me she had changed her chinese name many times. She's now xu tian yi shi. I think I won't be able to complete my story if i contnue this way. I remembered every single day of last year so by the time i type everything out I'll be dead. So let me move on. =)

Then when Ms Haq changed everybody's place last year, I got to know peiqi and carine. Peiqi sat next to me and Carine sat with Huimei. and i was in the middle of peiqi and carine. =) Maybe that's how carine and huimei stuck together =)) Peiqi was a cheerful girl. and Carine was really quiet. Then i got to know liquan too. =) She was best friends with peiqi. So there was it. Me, sherri, peiqi and liquan. Anyway, things changed but i shall continue my story first. That will come later. I think Chenxi was in the same group as me at that time. She was talking to Christopher. Christopher sat behind me. then there was derek. behind me. hahaha.

I remembered Chenxi told me she loved maths. I love it too. ^5 =D And then the very next day Ms Haq chose the class community. And then surprise. Ms Haq asked me if i wanted to take up the position of vcm. I felt eyes starring at me. I just nodded my head. Lol. oh and that day there was supposed to be PE. it was written in the timetable. =) But we didn't have PE. Oh no I forgot what was our PE teacher's name. Anyway she was a lady. =) And i wore PE for the whole day. Sijie accompanied me. LOL. but i didnt know her at that time but i sure was glad that i wasnt the only suaku who didnt know that I had to change back into uniform after PE. lol. in pri sch we didnt have to mah. we just wore PE attire for the whole day. hees.

And i remembered she was in moses house too =) Then the next day. I think it was the next day. yup ms lee came to teach us. she was a relief teacher. and she was really nice. Ms Haq went for her Haj you see. And so she taught us. we did the eng wb. and then i got to know people as i waked around the class. hees. really nice knowing them. and i remembered ppl calling me vcm vcm because they didnt know my name. LOLS. cute people x) and dawn said she lost her correction tape. then i wrote it on the board. but no one found it in the end. or did dawn find it? lol. i dont know lah.

anyway, soon after it was CNY. time to do hamper and stuff. then i asked people if they would like to go to northpoint to shop for the hamper stuff for the old folks. yup. and clara went. she was the welfare head =) liquan peiqi petrina too. and yihui. and qiuhui =) yah. i was a little late that time lah. =/ the sijie even later. lol. she brought the money =) and then clara called. then she came to the this fashion outside to bring me and sijie in. oh yah. i remember that yihui called me to ask me what i was wearing >< forgeot ="/" there ="X">< well anyway i went window shopping with sijie that day. and then we signed up for a mcd membership card tgt. lols. the woman there helped us. x)

it was fun lah. lols. and the next day qiuhui went to but some more food. yah. and we brought everything back to school on the following monday. then qiuhui and I wrapped all the food in the hamper and sent it to the needlework room. ms haq come back already huh that time? then the seats were rearranged again.

hmm. i sat with xiaomin. then peiqi was in front of me. hmmm. what else can i remember. anyway it was around that time that i started to be alone. i was by myself every recess. i didnt like it when PW time was there. i didnt know who would accept me in their group. everybody hated me then. don't know why. so i was alone all the time for about half a year. 6 months bah. yup. alone. i can't remembered what happened to me after that already. I was dead already. no longer sandra the happy vcm.

REPLIES TO TAGS

(: so here i am again, replying to tags. hmm. let's see. i'm not a good girl. =( I didnt finish my hw. or should i say i havent even touched them. =( well, anyway, replies. =)

xuemei - thanks for tagging! i'll try linking you asap. you know i'm lazy. sigh. i musnt be lazy. =/ ahaha. oh yah. post more ah? read all my last time entries lor. quite long one. =X okay, bhb sandra =XX

jenna - o.0 false alarm ah? bad jenna. badbad jenna. lols. thanks for tagging. x))

jiaqi - wheee. thanks jiaqi =)) woah you up so early eh. lols. you too! =D

huimei - hees. yup. *nods head* hehe. XD

2nd post of the day

Cbox just changed its advertisement. Linux Hosting becomes Get a free site. LOLS. btw, here's smth i read in a book. well it applies to me sometimes. =) Here you go:

With my chin bobbing on top of my books, I watched as my feet trudge towards school. That was the only thing i noticed that was happening, besides the fact that I was breathing, and still alive. Rainy. Phooey. Monday. Nuts. School. Yucks. Ocassionally another body trotted past, a voice called, "Hi!" But I ignored everything and everyone outside my own miserable self.

I watched the rubber tips of my shoes shuffle to a stop at the curb. Quickly and stealthily, I glanced at the traffic light. It was green. I fastened my eyes to my shoes once more and proceeded.

"Hopeless!" I said under my breath. "The whole world is hopeless. The human race is a total wreck and we should all hurl ourselves off the planet So why am I still going to school?"

The pavement beneath my rubber soles turned lighter in colour and smoother, then gave way to schoolyard. Several strides later, I mounted concrete stairs and stepped onto wooden floor. After dumping my bag on my chair, I slumped and sank into my seat. I rested my head down on top of the books piled on my desk. I would have preferred lying on the floor. Or better yet, burrowing under the foundation, along with the other worms. I was that low.

I will not speak to another living soul for a year, I decided. A month, I redecided. Except teachers, if they speak to me first, I decided for the third and absolutely final time.

I was aware of the bodies sliding into the seats beside me. I decided to block out any other noise that was bothering me. So i covered my ears and shut my eyes. Strange thoughts filled my mind.

Rejected by _________, I found myself ignored by the rest of my class as well. So what? Who cared? Certainly not she. They were all creeps. No redeeming virtues whatsoever, as far as I could tell.

The end.

HEYLOS.

Because of Jenna, I decided to reply to tags here. If not I get mistaken for flooding my own tagboard. hahah. I was only replying to tags in my tagboard because I was too lazy to post yesterday. =/

So here are the replies. (:

Christopher - Aiyohh..why always like that. SMILE! God doesnt want to see you like that larh. =DD

Jenna - hmpf* I don't flood my own tagboard lah. =P

Sijie - Thanks. I'm fine already. I'll be back in school on Monday. See you! =)

Jojo - Heloos. haha. thanks. (: Are you jolene?

Eugene - I look like auntie meh? =(

Jenna - Lols. YOU FLOODED! OH YES YOU DID. WAHAHAHA. =DD

Will edit and add pcitures here. loads of pictures. Look out. (;

I know my entries are dead boring lah. but my life is boring that's why. LOL. anyway, here are the pictures I promised. A picture paints a thousand words. ((:


the first picture is umm. the reflection of the bhb me. wahahaha. the second picture is my brother lor. ahaha. the third photo was took at the mrt. lame, huh. but i love it. you can see the reflection of all the trees , hdb flats. so nice right..ohh im going crazy. lol. but i reallyreallreally love it lah. the 3rd one huh. guess what? you see those holes at the mrt the toilet that kinda thing. lols. YESYES. the hole which the dirty stuff goes in. LOL! and the last one. my hair. whahaha. bhb-ness. again. okay, more to come! ((:

1st one, yays. that's my brother. duh. lols. yes i know he is cute. x) . but nevermind, the 2nd one's nice. =)) i like it x) hmm. 3rd one! junyang with yiyuan's poster. ahaha. just nice. =) picture quality isnt that good though. ahaha. okay. till here, take care guys! =D

GIDDY

sick. sick. sick.
sigh.
why am i sick.
giddy like dont know what. =(

which means i didn't take the science test today.
hohoho.
which means i have to take it tomorrow i guess...
and i missed drama x(
can anyone tell me what all of you learnt today?

anyway, victoria came over to bring my homework.
nice of her. x)
and she told me something funny happened during d&t. lols

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replies to tags:

christopher - you want my name is it. haha. and i didn't forget to go. lols. anyway i'm going to change library day to tues. wahahaha.

huimei - sigh. what to do. higher authority must listen mah. but i really don't understand why he...sigh. nvm lah.

jenna - wahhh. why. later lah. very tired now. feel like sleeping. =X

huan - ? that was the first time i went to your blog. got other passerbys? o.0

jenna - happytreefriends. gross but cute lah. hees. okok. i go a while later. rest first (; [edit] i tagged =) [/edited]

chenxi - thank you. *bows* ((((:

huan - i see...lols. hmm. then i hope that you'll find her somewhere bah. >< lols.

huiqing - okay. i just flooded. lols.

zhiheng - lols. welcome!! =)))

hi.
thanks a lot for those who tagged. i shall reply to tags here. =)

sacha -- lols. your friend brought joshua ang?? you mean..bought? uh no. cannot be right. hahah. tell me tomorrow okay? =)

clement ong -- hi jian chang. hees. (:

sheryl -- lol. clement of GOMAD doesn't know that i blog la. lol. >< gosh you had gastric for the whole day?? sigh. standing under the hot sun as a "punishment". but the thing is we didn't talk! mr ___ should punish those who talk only lorh. its unfair. and he's like. a christian leh. how can like that =(

qiuhui -- ello. yah i understand lah. nvm =))

angeline -- thanks angeline. i think its mood swing la. tong hua? okay i go find the url for tong hua. btw, wan mei de yi tian right. the last few seconds have a bit of tong hua. haha. yep. okay. thanks =))

jenna -- girl, didn't i just tag? >< lols. okok. i go tag again if that's what you want. =)
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we had maths test today. i did not know how to do 2 questions. 4a and 4b. but alicia said she knew. good for her! hoping that our whole class will be able to pass this test =)

the other time time many had pretty low marks, including me...i scored a measly 8 =/ for that standard form test. but anyway, there are two tests tomorrow. science and d&t/home econs. i guess many didn't know that there's a d&t test tomorrow. but well if you read my blog, you will know la. lol. so gogogo and study now. haha.

sang above all for the "test" during music lesson today. lols. qiuhui said i a bit off key for the crucified part. lols. but anyway, off key then off key lorh. lol. anyway it doesnt matter. God likes my voice leh. haha.

didn't bring geog today so i didn't hand in the workbook today. um. will hand in tomorrow lorh. oh yarh. i just remembered the d&t folio thingy. the research and stuff. sigh. so many things to do, so little time. and we got our science file today. if i'm not wrong its supposed to be for science i think. lol. and its orange. like the literature file last year. hees.

had library duty today after school. did with victoria and josephine (yay she's back!) haha. i think she quitted leo club or something. haha. and we didn't really do anything much today. hees. i wrapped books though (x and watched cyndi's jiemaowanwan mv. lol.

ohmygosh. smth on top just crashed. the neighbour dropped an antique? =/ okay. nvm about that. anyway, i find to go look for information for acids bases blah. science. lol. okay. byee =)

I'm confused.

i reallyreally don't know.
this world is freaky.
no one ever remembers your good points
they don't care.

if you made a mistake;
whether big or small;
people will just remember the mistake;
and forget about your past contributions.

this world is getting irritating.
everyone only thinks of their ownself.
they don't care about the rest.
well if you are like popular.
of course everyone will crowd around you,
but everyone will forget about you soon after.

you are very lucky to be accepted so quickly.
they know your problems.
they don't know mine.

they will leave you alone there.
they won't care.
because they have got their own group of friends
whom they know they can count on anytime.
what about the outcast-ed?
doesnt anyone even think about them?

this world is like that.
its like. hao xin mei hao bao.
everyone is like. fake.
not their real selves.
i might be fake too.
i smile fake smiles.
because i don't want anyone to know i'm unhappy.

but what's the use.
even if people know you're unhappy
they just look at you with pitiful eyes
and don't do anything about people
being left at the side of the road.

they think people who look happy and really happy.
but, no!
some people have to fake it all out.
they smile and luagh, just like normal people do.
but they are acually
just pretending to be happy that's all.
like me.

i really thank all of you who tried cheering me up.
but some people are just so fake.
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there's a maths test tmr; expansion. i studied already. but i didn't back my maths notebook =( i left them in the cupboard, and it was already locked when i finish packing my class. I'm always (almost) the last one to leave the class all the time. then someone will say like umm. why you never take earlier. ** even if i'm not talking to her she's like. cha zui that kind of thing. she think she so clever meh. anyway I lent sheryl's maths tb to study. thank you sheryl (:

went to library to do finishing touches for the science proj. it looked nice and neat when victoria and I finally did the pasting and all. x) sense of accomplishment =) then went down for lunch. at ard 2 plus. i didn't eat breakfast. recess was taken away by mr ___. sigh. always like that. its unfair for people who don't eat breakfast. Hais. but by God's grace and strength, I survived another day. I wonder when this will stop. anyway, back to topic...umm...then we saw weiling, qiuhui and xitong. and then qiuhui said a friendly hello. =))

(i'm not gonna care anymore about what you say about this, i will never, never be afraid of your hurting comments ever again. i think the 1faith peepo last year told them smth about me to the 1endurance peepos. =(( i thought it was a new beginning. now i feel like dying. =/)

but I am not feeling happy.

x)

i decided to write a long post today =)
its been long since i wrote what happened during the day.
hees.
i didnt feel like going to school this morning.
i think i dread school.

well anyway i still dragged myself to school lor.
mummy and mei wasn't awake when i woke up.
ate cheese with bread today for breakfast.
typical.
anyway recess is breakfast for a lot of people.
hahaha.

yah. and i wasn't in a very good mood so
i think i pulled a long face and didn't talk to anyone in the morning.
well anyway, sat with huiqing for morning assembly.
did some science homework.
and mrs tan gave us a shock today.
she asked all the boys to leave the hall
including male teachers.
but mr lim didn't.
and another male teacher wearing specs didn't either.
i think he is mr teo.
he wore yellow colour shirt.
banana?
lols.

and mrs tan talked about girls stuff.
well not really.
actually i think if the boys were there
its okay lor.
but anyway, its about taking pride in your own body or smth.
yea. and not behave like ah lians or ah hueys.
and NOT to be happy when someone calls you a chiobu.
because it means you're cheap. =X
and its meant for prostitutes =XX
and she said smth about kuku or whatever.
hahas. i forgot. STM. hees.

and the boys anyhow guess thought its about ____.
siao de neh.
lols.
and so we started our lessons.
and we didn't have lit.
but mrs chia didn't fall down the stairs okay.
ahahah.
and we didn't have science too.
okay lor. someone very clever lor.
curse people also so zhun one.
lols.

got very high during maths today.
lols. becuase i understood!
i even taught xitong and joannas!
LOLS i zi high larh.
and i finished my maths hw in class today x)

anyway, umm.
i think i'm invisible.
people don't bother.
okay nvm.

i reached back at 3pm.
nobody took same train as me.
i guess i'm just a loner lah.
but God is with me =D

ahhh.
i'm doing the dnt thingy now.
trying to get all the arrows and stuff straight
for the concept map.
which was supposed to be due today =XX
and do on com its like.
so tiring.
hahah.

okay. will bathe after homework.
and shucks. i can't seem to draw the dnt wb thing right.
yes i know you all hand in already but i haven't.
sigh.

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oh yes i forgot smth impt!
haha. not really impt lah.
we were having fun in class
when 2 'english' teachers came.
one of them the hair looks like prof. that kind you know?
like albert einstein one.
wahahaha.
and then the class splited into two.
even numbers stayed.
odd numbers went to seminar room.
hahah...and so the female teacher taught us.
she wore black.
yah all black.
she's pretty. yes.
hahah.
but i think plump bah.
lols. anyway, she taught us umm. phonics?
mmm-ahhh
mmm-ohhh
mmm-eeee
HAHAHAHA
and then we had 2 rounds of umm. the reading of weird symbols.
lols. and i got 11/15 for round two! but teacher didn't see my hand.
=( never gimme sweet. carine got 9 too! but anyway, nvm larh.
ahh. i forgot her name lah.
and the book is green colour one.
A *Star enrichment. hahaha.
okay. that's all for editing lah. byee~!
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okay this post long enough or not? lol.
now i shall concentrate on my dnt thingy!
byee! =D

thank you

hello people.

thanks a lot for cheering me up...((: i will reply to tags later (;

anyway, was sick this afternoon while in papa's vehicle...felt nausueos (correct spelling or not arh?) lols. but God healed me. yay! hahaha. mhmm. then if anyone saw me online in the afternoon i was actually in grandmummy's house. lol. there got internet ((;

and i'm at my cousin's house now. to bai nian. and watching chingay at the same time. hahaha. hmm. and her keyboard is like so difficult to use..its small x((. lol. i still prefer mine. x))

hees. okay lah. till here, take care, God bless and byee! ((:

sudden sadness.
you know what?
this morning i so stupid until i want to pick up my pen that time
knock my head at carine's chair.
you know the metal part.
its like so pain.

then now the dumb computer scanning for virus.
scan until now still haven't scan finish.
i dont like going to school.
being online is good.
everyone is happy online.

because no one will say anything.
you won't gimme that face.
you won't show me that kind of face.
if people are fake online,
i rather it be that way.
let it remain like that.

the neighbours are playing mahjong.
so noisy.
can't sleep.
i'm not waiting for anyone.
i am not.
i don't know.
i don't know me.
i don't know myself anymore.

i'm homesick.
its been long since i wrote such a long post.
my fingers are aching from typing.
i managed to coax alicia to sleep.
she finally slept.
but i haven't.
sigh.

i did none of my homework.
none.
i didn't bother to check my bag.
i was online the moment i came back.
i felt like staying in school and doing nothing.
but i couldn't.
and since i didn't want to do anything,
i might as well go off.
and leave this cruel world.

this world is way too cruel.
love and hate
anger and kindness
gratefulness and boastfulness.
too much.
there's just too much of things in this world.

i won't regret if i leave.
i'll join Papa in Heaven.
then i'll sleep.
and I''ll sing.
I'll do what He wants.
what He wants.

((:

im here because someone told me to update! LOL. but today I bu shuang a lot of people. So sorry to all those i bu shang to. partly because of some stupid reason. Lol. BUT ANYWAY, got science and maths test next wk..AHHHH. now my mum is like nagging for me to do hw. sigh.

what's wrong with blogging larh. "you must have tim limit one you know" blah blah blah. okay nvm. i eating dinner now. STILL eating dinner now. cos i was busy with chatting. and i promised huimei that i would tag her blog. so here i go now! byee, take care, God bless and SMILE!

((:

让我鼓起所有的勇气向你说声新年快乐~!...
yays! the song is soo nice. i got 73 for the CNY card for art ytd. wahaha. i today then say. ytd lazee to blog. haha.

I HAVEN'T DO DNT WORKBOOK. AND A LOT OF PEEPO ALSO HAVEN'T DO...have to to the design folio..the reseach thingy...sigh. and the wb...ex 3, 4 and 5. hais. okay i go do now. boo! haha. byee! God bless.

SMILE! ((:

I WATCHED I NOT STUPID TOO WITH MY FAMILY TODAY.
IT ROCKS.
AND I CRIED.
I LOVE IT LARH.
FAMILY STANDS FOR...
FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU...
ISN'T THAT SO SWEET?
THE MOVIE WAS SO VERY TOUCHING...
to think alicia said she didnt want to watch cause of that caning part. she said it was scary...so dots right.
WENT TO SWENSENS AFTER THAT.
MET CG. SAT WITH THEM.
THEN ATE WITH FAMILY. HAHA.
ATE SPAGHETTI, FRIES AND ICE CREAM. x)
AND I UPLOADED A LOT OF NEW SONGS XD
ENJOY.
AND TAG.
(:

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wah seh.
so many peepo watched i not stupid too!.
almost every blog i went mentioned it...

>>excerpt from a blog i saw:
I NOT STUPID TOO nice leh.
nice nice. nicer than the first one.
they used words like 'so lame' , 'cool man', 'whatever'.wah.
nice lehs. any takers? i wan watch again. even my dad cried.
that shows that he's a human.usually my dad dont cry one.
wah miracle.it's touching and meaningful.and loads of funny parts lor.
it's like funny + touching.NICE MAN. RATING : FIVE STARS!
i like jerry inside the movie.he so cute. haha.worm and egg.
watch the movie. you'll get what i am talking after watching.
go and watch. quick.

MY SENTIMENTS EXACTLY. ALL PACKED IN THE ABOVE PARA x)<< [/edit] smth that i found out while chatting with jiaqi... lol i didnt know i was connected to so many peepo. joshua ang is my frn's classmate
shawn lee is my frn's schoolmate
adriano is my cousin's classmate
jun yang is my uncle's colleague's son
WAHAS.
and sun yan zi is my far distance relative. lols.
my grandpa's sister's granddaughter i think.
that makes us farrrr cousins. lol.
very very very FAR. HAHAS. =D
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HAPPY CNY!

hello!
don't bother about the post below. x)
its rubbish. (:
chu yi say so bu ji li de hua. hahas.

anyway, today is chu er and i havent doneany hw. pro or not. haha.
im in my cousin's house now. he took my modem.
~!@#$%^&()
shouldnt say who. i was VERY angry ytd lor.
okay, shouldnt let theat spoil my mood today XD
hahas. oo. it became a link..!

anyway, its so boring here. the rest of the peepo outside amking so much noise.
gahh. byee peepo.
God bless, take caree and SMILE! ((:

why am I jealous?
when i shouldn't?

people get many many tags per day. cause they are popular?
see? i have no right to be jealous.
'cause I am NOT and will NOT be popular.
so why am I jealous?

I don't know myself either.
*shakes head* sigh.
but i really want ALOTALOT of tags.
because so many peepo get them, and i DON'T.
boohoo. why. maybe I don't need them.
No, I DON'T EVEN NEED THEM FOR ANY PURPOSE.
so I shouldnt be angry.
over such a little thing.
if not peepo will start talking.
and then they say i petty =(

SO I WILL BE GRACIOUS AND NOT BE ANGRY AT THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T TAG. (:

HAPPY CNY EVE!

I'm at my grandma's house now. For reunion dinner...think they are still preparing the food. hahas. I love my blog larhs. *bhb* hees. so many songs. and so cute! HAHAS.

sian lah. so much hw. esp dnt. sigh. BOO. why must teachers give us hw during CNY. so sian lor. lalalas. dont care alh. and there's the jogathon thingy. GAHHH. so sick of it.

whatever lahs. anyway, drinking cereal now X) and im wearing all pink today. lol. pink shirt; pink shorts; pink rubber band. HAHAS.

was angry with papa just now lor. cos he so naggy. but now everything's okay le. (:

TAG ME! =D

God bless and byes.

>smile<
(:

EQUATION

Sandra Ong = MISS LALA
MISS LALA = Sandra Ong

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I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN! YAY! isn't it cute? the rabbit you see up there is CUDDLES! from happytreefriends. heh. i edited A LOT of the codes. it was meant for diaryland actually. yup. so whatever it is, enjoy my new layout! =P

btw, i just did a cute and compact button...you may want to link me with that. wahahas. (as if my blog is so popular)



anyway, here's the code for the button:
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i took a picture of my oh-so-cute neighbour!! hahas.

SO CUTE RIGHTS.

and she looks a bit like my sis...

lols. and wait. my sister can do this...


HAHA. cute cute cute. XD
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layout

http://www.geocities.com/sand_rainbow/index

NICENICENICE!!

hahas. i edited the code but the layout is still the same. and no, it wasnt done my me. haha. I'm not THAT talented yet. hehe. =)

I'm wondering if I have any true friends.