trying to understand

why cant i fit in like the rest of you do?
because i am different?

lols. actually the above is from the last blogskin i chose. but it describes my feelings lah. But then somehow i can't fit in. its like. when people talk in their own groups, i don't know what they are talking about and when i sit with people it just makes me feel so left out...then when i talk its like...need to think very long of what to say. what to do. when to do. it just makes yourself so insecure about yourself and.. and...when i finally talk. people dont reply.. maybe because i said the wrong thing at the wrong time or i asked something stupid...but i rather you say something if not it makes me feel so stupid..sigh. school tomorrow. routine.

SIGH SIGH SIGH.

when did I not make an effort...

I LOVE CORNFLOUR...
Mr Lim took us to the Science Lab today (YAY!) and we experimented with cornflour!
I guess I didn't have enough of fun with cornflour so I searched up and down in the kitchen for CORNFLOUR!

And I found it! (>.<) I mixed it with pink food colouring! LOLS. No blue mah. Here...

See its pink! Looks like liquid, feels like solid! Cool right?


Look down. Even cooler...(Wear your jacket)

Isn't it nice? Its PLASMA! (A state between solid and liquid!)
It is able to fold like a liquid but turns into solid when left alone. Just add a little water and it will become liquid again! Keep playing! You'll get mad! HAHAS.

Enjoy. (:

DEAD

im stupid.

im idiotic.

i hate myself.

make the place so dirty

want me to clean up

you want me dead right?

i told you im dead.

im dead.

happy?

thinking of changing my skin

herm. i cant decide. which skin?
tag to tell me yah? :)

this one...
http://www.geocities.com/ickylybeautiful//cuddlesfork.html
or this..
http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=79635&action=Preview
this?
http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=67917&action=Preview

PANDA EYES CRAP.

okay.
I HAVE PANDA EYES.
HUGE AND DARK.
and i envy people who don't.

for example, SIJIE.
she doesn't have it.
ARGH.
i sleep too late.

okay, i have to buy EYE CREAM.
EYE CREAM.
say it with me, EYE CREAM.
lols. I don't like my panda eyes.

the eyebags are yucky.
looks like a zombie if i take off my specs.
lol. vivianne also have.
May I know if it can be inherited?
If yes I think it's my MUM.

hahas.

and MISS CHUNG told us a parent went to see her ytd and she seriously didn't know who her daughter is. okay, her daughter is ME. haha. MISS CHUNG never see me without specs so dont know its me. HAHAHA. okay what crap. I didn't tell her lah. not neccesary mah (:

okay. hmm. I WANT TO SLEEP AND MAKE MY EYEBAGS smaller.

THANK YOU. =)

HAHAHA

This was what I intended to tell the class if Ms Haq "invites" me up the "stage" to tell everyone about a word. I would choose "funny". Then I would tell everyone what happened this morning...

[P.S: before you read the story, please read this first. this is important. I even forgot that we were watching a movie today. How could I talk about "funny"? How dumb can I get, and i JUST realised it...]

"This morning when I woke up I thought it was a FRIDAY moring. listen carefully. a FRIDAY morning. I was really happy in my mind knowing that "TOMORROW" was a "SATURDAY" and I could wake up late and laze in bad. So i woke up delighted, thinking that I could sleep all i want "TOMORROW" and not at 6.10am which I do on schooldays. And so I prepared myself and even read my maths notebook while waiting for my mother to get ready. While I was in the lift my mother gave a sudden exclaim...

"Sandra, where's your school badge and name tag?!"

I looked at my blouse and gave my head a knock. How forgetful can I get. So i ran up and took my school badge AND name tag. Then i suddenly remembered that it was 'FRIDAY" and i ought to bring my tie. So i went to my bedroom hurriedly and took it out from my sling bag [camp]. And then my mother said,

"Today need to wear tie meh?"

And then I looked at her with the "You-forgotten-something??" look. I said..

"TODAY IS FRIDAY!!" and my mother gave me that "YOU-ARE-SO-DUMB" look saying,

"TODAY IS THURSDAY LAR. WHAT FRIDAY."

Then I "HUH?? REALLY AH??

OH NO. BRING WRONG TIMETABLE LE.

then I double-checked the timetable with the books I brought and I was like "EH. CORRECT AH..." then i remembered that I packed the bag the last night with the thought in my head that the next day got d&t. ah. thank God. LOL.

then i didn't bother to look at the time. I just walked to the mrt quickly [floor slippery what] and reached school in time and told Sherri about this. LOL.

[edit]
MY D&T FILE REACHED ME IN TIME. LOL. THANK GOD (:"
[/edit]

YAY!

miss lala is happy once again!

hahas.

thanks angeline. fianlly told someone how i felt. wah. felt so shuang (; lols. hmm okay. today eng right we split classes lor...and then the only girls from 1faith last year was sijie and me only lor. LOLS. sijie looked very sad. aiyah. she dont have amanda they all mah. how i wished i was a fairy..then make her happier. lols. I AM STRAIGHT OKAY? i just want all my friends to be happy lah.

LOLS. and i sat with SHERYL. then sheryl had fever. throat pain. aiyohh. now everybody sick. i also got cough. lols. and then art i draw until so yucky. hahas. then keep borrowing stationery from LIQUAN...liquan..thank you hor! hahas...

And during art..Xi Tong and Petrina siao le lah. both can compete in the "Most-talkative" compeition le. LOLS. Xi tong keep saying banana...Make me almost go mad.

HAHAS. oh yah. then today went bookshop to buy dnt file. then got 1 senior so good lor. she say she have exactly the same file. then say want to give me. then i was like. WAH. SO GOOD. lols. so im meeting her at the canteen at 7.05am tmr morn.

okay guys. TAG! =))

MIXED UP FEELINGS

I AM ANGRY.

I AM SAD.

I don't understand.

why is it that i don't have any true friends in school. what is wrong with me. or what is wrong with everyone. it seems that everyone hates it. THEY HATE ME. i dont know why either. its stupid. Qiuhui told me last year that anyone who were friends with me are the very what people so no one wanted to be my friend. I HAD A VERY BAD REPUTATION.

WAS I A BAD VICE CHAIR..?

Was I?

why didn't anyone tell me.

What was wrong lar...

I dont like it. I hate my seating arrangement in music class. Its like people are being bias. I dont want to sit there lar. WHAT LAR. I RATHER STAND AT THE BACK OF THE CLASS THAN TO SIT THERE. Actually i wanted to sit with qiuhui but then qiuhui say she wanna sit with victoria. I thought she was my good friend. How stupid was I. then left 1 seat beside victoria. then beside that seat is chunkiat. then chunkiat faster change place with liuran. then i was like. why do i have to sit there...you think i want to sit with you or what. siao ah...is i 1st say i wanna seat with qiuhui de right. but qiuhui chose victoria. I am not angry with anyone, its just that..why is it like this. you tell me unfair or not...I'm just angry because people treat me like virus lor.

I don't feel like going to school already lar. I thought this year was a fresh start. But..

Its like everybody...I'm not pinpointing. I mean how would you feel if you were being treated as if you were a idiotic person and no one wants to be your friend or whatever. I dont like it okay. And last year it was like...I was always alone. I dont know why leh. it was like nobody cared already. I was just there. ANd nobody cared, as if i was invisble.

WHY. TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED LAST YEAR. I'D BE GRATEFUL.

everything's working.

the jukebox is.

I am.

God is. (:

YOU CAN REQUEST FOR SONGS ON MY TAGBOARD.

I said that before right. but nobody requested so there are the songs lor. lols..have already updated the links...If cannot play must tell me hor...

Today feels like a Saturday. Rahs. I dont feel like going to school. I WANNA SLEEP. lols.

NEW YEAR CLOTHES -checked
MOOD FOR CNY -checked

hahas. err. I have nothing to say. I dont want any tution. But..aiyah. cannot be so soft-hearted lar. MUST LEARN HOW TO LET GO. (; we'll still keep in contact.

maybe things should remain this way.

MOOD SWINGS

I had so many mood swings today. but thank God He kept me happy. =)

It was...like very saddening lah. that people keep holding on the past...what have I done? nobody really told me in detail or whatever...it was..just sad to know that some people just don't know how to let go. but wells. im a happy person now and you should be too, alrights?

SORRY.

okay, back to today.

And yah..so I bought the 2 exercise books and I was like so dumb lor. [what's wrong with my brain today. LOL] I bought 4 instead of 1!!! HAHAHA.

then i "sold" 1 to carine lor. for maths. and just nice i wrote the Mathematics there. hahas. but anyway, MR LIM WAS SOOO HILARIOUS okay?

the whole class was like roaring with laughter, joke after joke. AIYAH. I THINK I'M GONNA LIKE SCIENCE THIS YEAR LAH. NOT LIKE LAST YR. LOLS. last year boring like shit lar. LOLS. it really lifted my spirits lar. so erm. yar. and then just called alicia tee and now she's online and she's going off soon cause her bro's gonna have tuition soon and the teacher's gonna use her room. so ke lian...must off com.

HAHAS. so anyway, tmr dont need go school..Yay! LOLS. I was so blur dis morning lor. people had to constantly remind me that tmr is a holidat. NOT A SHCOOL DAY. hahas. so anyway.

BYEE PEEPS.
SMILE;
TAKE CARE;
GBU! =D

sigh...

why are there so many people who dont know God and why didnt anyone bring them to Christ...
why are there so many helpless people around the world yet Christians are not doing their part to bring them to church...

why is satan so idiotic and bad.

what on earth is he doing lor.

you know sometimes right...

you dont know what tomorrow holds...

i may even die tomorrow.

who knows?

only God knows...

but i know someday God will bring all of us together.

We'll meet. (:

ANYONE WHO COMES MUST FLOOD

LOLS.

okay, the MUSIC JUKEBOX IS UP AND RUNNING!!

yay! (:

choose any song you want, tell me if you can't hear the songs.

you have to wait for the song to load after you click on the play button.
[you should know the buttons. (:]

it may take long, depending on your internet connection speed alright?

requests for songs to be up is officially OPENED TO PUBLIC.

tag my board to tell me which song you want okay?

enjoy the jukebox!

SMILE! (:

MOODLESS

flood me

flood me

im hungry

i want food

anything will do

my dnt hw is uncompleted.

have to buy 2 new exercise books for maths

need to buy dnt file too

and have to read unit two.

i have a screen cat. i haven't named her.

she's orange in colour

she likes playing.

im listening to 93.3fm

i'm talking like an idiot.

cause im feeling lethargic

is that the correct spelling?

im getting restless.

i get retless easily.

i want time to stop here

im being childish

im being crazy

NO ONE'S TAGGING.

junyang's cute.

of course i know.

im getting angry.

for no reason.

mood swings.

ahhh. gahh.

my head's exploding soon.

it feels heavy.

i'm sleepy.

RUSH

BASH

FASH

MASH

LASH

I am crapping.

=/

2nd day of school

SOOO BORING!!!

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE MISS LALA HAPPY IN SCHOOL??

I was so bumped in school that i began to let my imagination run wild and i quickly wind it back. Its was so stupid lor. One of my new year resolutions was not to be too sensitive. I think I should shut my eyes when people ignore me and open them when someone finally talks to me.

I'm THAT senstive lor. See?

But QiuHui and I played a GUESSING GAME OF SONGS...Hahas...I don't know how it came about. oh yah. now i remember. QiuHui started by knocking her watch on her table making a song's tune. then i guessed it right. So we continued playing lor. And then Alicia Tee came to join us but Mrs Wong came after that so the fun ended there lor. SAD. hahas.

AND MS HAQ MENTIONED IT DAYS!!! WHEEE...SO COOL TO STUDY AT HOME. I WON'T MIND IT. AS LONG AS I DON;T HAVE TO WEAR THE UNIFORM! HAHAS. no lar. i wake up on comp den just nice mah...lol..and she gave everyone her MSN. haha...I added her liao. and she's ONLINE =)) haha.

okay, till here, take care and bye! SMILE! =D

HULLOS~

I've not blogged for a long while. hahas. and i finally got

UNLIMITED BROADBAND!!

YAY!! congratulate me!! hahas..

and HAPPY NEW YEAR! though belated i know lar. hahas. 1st day of school was hmm..okay lor. i have to buy the english file tmr. i cant find mine. opps. lol. and tmr must bring thermometer cos of the bird flu thingy. so dumb lorr.

ya lah. so liddat lor. TAKE CARE AND BYEE! =)

SCHOOL'S STARTING

a brand new year's coming! hahas. hw almost done. i've got the idea of the chinese hw already with the help of my tuition teacher. ok. edit more later. i wanna watch tv and I have to find lyrics for someone. okays. BYEE~

Intelligence Quotient

The Super IQ Test
How Smart Are You Really?

Sandra, your Super IQ score is 106

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Linguistic Architect. This means you are brilliant when it comes to language and words. You are also very good at understanding things on an abstract level. You are at your best when you put those two skills together to communicate new ideas and see how they fit into different contexts. You understand math and science on a gut level, even if the equations and science don't come as easily. You can use these skills to be a great communicator or to create a masterpiece.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Linguistic Architect? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Linguistic Architect.

Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

WOW! i didn't know my brain was this SMART! LOL!

Let's look at the SCORECARD right now...


Your Friends -->

Clara Loh
claralohyijin@hotmail.com
Intuitive Interpreter

Qiuhui
blue_julycancer@hotmail.com
Imaginative Mastermind

Amanda
amanda_chua92@hotmail.com
Information Organizer

Sherri
sugarstarfishz@hotmail.com
Information Organizer

WOW. did you realise? their terms all start with the letter 'I'..HAHAS. Amanda and Sherri got the same score [around there] so it means that..AMANDA HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE A GENIUS! LOL. she's already a genius lar, chinese super good. LOL. and QIUHUI's a Imaginative Mastermind..LOLS. A MASTERMIND! haha.

kays, i shall stop here. tag!! =)

DECLARATION

I HEREBY DECLARE THAT I LOVE

HONG
JUNYANG.

HE'S SUPER DUPER ULTRA CUTE lor.

AND I'M SHARING WITH TAY HUI MEI. [not our class de lar, LOL]

SUPERFUNKIES ENDED TODAY.

SOB...

oh yes. my com background..

ISN'T IT CUTE? I LOVE PIGLET! YAY!! LOL..


[bhb]
AND I MADE IT MYSELF YAY!!! HAHAS..
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SLEEP EARLY GUYS!
(what an irony. its 1.19am but im still NOT asleep..okay. maybe i should rephrase it..)

SLEEP NOW GUYS! WAHAHAHA.

MY CHRISTMAS!

How did MISS LALA spent her Christmas?

haha...I went out with my cg. and i met them at PASTA MANIA [causeway point] for lunch. i ate CHICKEN BOLANGNSE! YAY! it was really delicous. yum. i love spaghetti. (:

and then we decided to catch a movie. peiying was so enthu about watching THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA..

and so we watched that! oh my. at first i was relunctant to wtach. i thought it was pretty boring before we bought the tickets but angeline told me it was a Christian movie actually. HAHAS. i grabbed peiying's arm at some parts because the sound was so LOUD..

YES IT WAS. haha. okay, if you dont know, AZLAN represents JESUS CHRIST. what a movie to watch on CHRISTmas. HAHAS...woah i love the part when AZLAN made those people woke up. HE REVIVED THE DEAD. sounds familiar right? GOSH, THE MOVIE WAS WONDERFUL.

((:

oh yes. and peiying stained her clothes. its was funny lor. we didnt even know how the chocolate got onto her shirt. and she used her bag to cover it lorr. LOLS. okay la. ending here.


TAKE CARE, SMILE & BYEE~!

HIHI!

hello people! its 1.51am now. ITS CHRISTMAS! YAY! I GOT A LOT OF PRESENTS! YAY!! HAHA...let's see...

1. new jacket [purple]
2. precious moments bookmark
3. a bear! thanks! and a blue one at that! YAY! so sweet. (:
4. aiyo. i forgot le leh. nvm update when i rmb.

OKAY. here's the SMS part. i SMSED my whole contact list but if you never receive, must tell me okay?

i'll write in here those who wished me MERRY CHRISTMAS. haha. if you are not here, you know what to do right? LOL..okay...(not in any particular order, just randomly)

1. REGINA
2. QIU HUI
3. VICTORIA
4. HAN XIANG
5. BAO YING
6. JONATHAN
7. JIA YI
8. JIA QI
9. MABEL
10. ELISHA
11. MS ONG
12. XUE MEI
13. EUGENE
14. SAMUEL
15. SALLY
16. SIBELLE
17. XIN PEI
18. PS VERONICA
19. UNCLE PAUL
20. HUI MEI
21. ANGELINE
22. WENG KEONG
23. DANIEL
24. SH
25. MUM? LOL.
26. ELEANOR
27. ALICIA TEE [just added]

okay lar, that's about all la. GOODNIGHT AND MERRY CHRISTMAS AGAIN! =))