This world is a great sculptor's shop. We are the statues and there is rumour going round the shop that some of us are some day going to come to life. =D - C.S. Lewis

Thursday, April 06, 2006

JENNA } HOHI! XD oh its okay. thanks for tagging even though you're sick yea! <33>

tbt } hmmahho

ting fang } hihi! school is fun. but well, its just that. thanks for tagging anw! =Di don't get included in the fun? i don't know.
okay. today was alright lah. it rained again. HEAVILY. thankfully i brought my umbrella with me or i'd be drenched in the rain (: hmm. i just came back at 3.30 from the macbeth rehearsal. whew. it was really tring. anw the people standing as the forest only have ONE and only ONE line towards the end of the play. ALL
HAIL KING MALCOLM -.-

currently browsing through blogskins & listening to music- junyang's guardian angel. whoowhoo. haha. i'm alone in this house again. blah. i have the MLG thingy to do. well everyone in 2faith lah. haha. today's maths. and its past 3.15. will the teachers mark the work as overdue? =X and the hw is about Direct and Inverse Proportion. theres one presentation for us to look through so that we can answer the questions XD

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MS CHUNG CHANGED THE DUE DATE TO TOMORROW 8AM! WHOO. HAHA. i told qh to take a nap first then wake up at midnight to do the hw. hahaha. anw my eyes are really tired now. maybe i will sleep early today (:
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i like IT days! but unfortunately, we had to go back to school today. for dumb lang fest and the macbeth rehearsal lor. anw for today's lang fest we had to paint a mask. i made mine colourful. but it was all dark colours. but no black lah :) and erm. we played basketball today. but i didn't even get to touch the ball once :( bah nvm. we played heart attack before playing basketball. and it was fun. because there were so many people. =DD

junyang is singing jiekou now. SO NICE LARH x) jiu suan mei you jie guo...wo ye neng gou cheng shou. okay i gave up on pratically everything my life revolves around. maybe i should give up on the computer too. been spending too much time online i guess. i should cut down on the hours i spend luh.
i shall not give God up. He didn't give up on me. and i'm grateful. =)
xin hui is singing bu yao shuo bao qian now. XD okay i shall do the MLG thingy now. GODBLESSSMILETAKECARE&BYEBYE! =D feeling purple. bah.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

to those who tagged } thanks for tagging =D

liquan } yah. because i can't say a lot of things. people will come chasing me with a broom if i made those words seen. although its my blog. but its public. what to do. harhar. you were the one & only one who tagged on the 4th of april! lool.

carine } lols. i told you what i wrote wasn't about you le mah. you don't believe me eh :( i almost thought of deleting that 2nd tag of yours but i guess i'll leave it there. wang en fu yi. i got nothing to say lah.

sijie } lols. thanks. [hugs] hahaha.

jiaqi } hees. [boos back] =P

vic } nvm? lol.

huimei } daddy you flooded..! your heart fragile ah.. hmm. then i dont know eh =/ gahhh. why daddy read the small small words :( and how come daddy so smart har? =(( anw he won't read what you say. so its okay i guess. hahar :) of course luh. bu xi guan leh. suddenly nobody tag. okay thanks. for helping me to thank those people one by one :) why must change blogskin..? this one isn't nice?

anonymous } add me on MSN luh =)

okay. i'm greatly irritated and i'm stumped. i can't do anything. my brother just broke the glass celing fan with a kick of his ball. I AM ANGRY OKAY. WHO SAYS I DON'T GET ANGRY. I'M NOT A TOY LA. why must people treat me as if i am a toy. i'm sad and i don't care. sorry for those er. put adjective here [tags] visit my blog must tag okay? okay lah. nvm. so demanding eh. i'm a bad girl. full stop.

EDIT-

I AM FUMING.
RAGING WITH ANGER.
SOMEONE ON BLOGSKINS.
COPIED ME.
HELLO?
ARE YOU A DESPO OR WHAT.
MISS LALA MISS LALA.
YOU CANT COPY ME!!!
BOO YOU.
=((

NO ONE IS CHEERING ME UP FREAKO.
I'M NOT WORTHY TO BE CHEERED UP.
anyway i'm not a despo for encouragement.
i gave up long ago.
i'm not sandra.
in school com lab now.
lalala.
one
two
three
crap.
today was okay lah.
its boring.
i
want
to
go
home
!!!
>=(



BLAHHHH
CRAPPPP
lalala.
nobody tags these days
ahh whatever.






some people are like. lalala. wang en fu yi. eeeyeeer.

crap oh crap.
i like crapping
this is dumb
played the whatever international friendship day thingy just now
CRAPPPPPP.
SUPER CRAPPPP.
LALAASDKLAOIRFWROE
adadadadada





BYE BYE.

Monday, April 03, 2006

i took this from ___ ____'s blog. and it kinda apply to me sometimes.
maybe i'm just not that cheerful anymore.
maybe you're right.
i've changed.
you don't know me now.
and i don't know myself too.

u think im cold,distant. ya..well u are half-right.
im not much of a talker.
sometimes i like to be left alone.
so tt i dun hav to think of things to say.
sometimes i dun say because u may think tt wad i say
has got no sense.its very lame. so boring. wadever.
yet sometimes..i wanna be part of a
group to know tt at least i belong somwhere n to feel tt i can
belong. i dun mix around much. i dunno how already.
there r some ppl hu are social butterfiles.
they draw ppl to them like magnets.

guess this is. well. life. (:

Sunday, April 02, 2006

I JUST SAW A SKIN AND I FEEL LIKE CHANGING MY SKIN NOW. OKAY THIS IS FOR REAL. NEW SKIN COMING UP SOON. IT GONNA BE LONG LONG TYPE OF SKIN. =DD

and. im watching CSS now. okay i shall be fair. not bias yea?

GO TERESA GO!
GO GERALDINE GO!
GO ZHIYANG GO!
GO RENFRED GO!

oh yay oh yay. aww. that blogskin rocks alright. hmm i think. i've changed. now. change what. XP lalalala church was okay lah. ehehe. it started to rained when i went there. and it stopped when u walked into the shelter. lol. i guess God's happy. =DDD

MY TAGBOARD IS DEAD LAAAA :(
i gonna put in some goodies for all of you to use.
like uh. pictures i've made la.
but they may not be nice.
dont blame me oh. =/
and if you credit me or not,
up to your consience la.
ehehe. (:

i'm not perfect.
i'm not a perfect sister.
a perfect daughter.
neither am i a perfect friend.
i can't please everyone.
its tiring.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY

HI GUYS!
hehe. HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!
wheee. hahaa. the first thing i did when i signed in to MSN was to wish everyone "HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!" LOL. and, no, i didn't get tricked / pranked. heheh. =D anyway, today is alright. i guess i shall finish my homework today. ((: maybe i'll upload videos and put them here. (my brother's b'day) hehe. okie. shall get going now. oh yah. i forgot to off my com switch last night before i slept so the switch is going to be BURNING HOT. because i'll be online till at night.

hohoho. sorry switch. =X

Friday, March 31, 2006

2nd post

i've got questions.
i know i'm not supposed to voice them out
because people will come after me
with a broom or something =X

but anyway, this is my blog.
so i'm going to write this down.

number one. is popularity that important to you?
number two. why do you want to be popular?

it drives me crazy sometimes. i know i'm a "loner" okay.
you don't have to tell me. because you wanted to be popular,
we drifted apart.further & further.
and then the gap was there.
this world is so realistic. right?

once i'm gone.
you don't have to worry about me.
because i will be there.
looking down at you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

its my brother's birthday today. hehehe. lemme find a NICE picture of him. x)

wait. his tongue is underneath his chin -.- ahh whatever.

LOL. anw, my mum ordered a BIG CAKE for him >=( its UNFAIR. i dont get that kind of treatment at home okay. hmpf. whatever. it will be arriving soon.

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Videos of his birthday...







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SCHOOL was alright today. we did the flaggie thingy for art today. i did on finland. no i dont know anything about it cept that the flag is nice and simple to draw XD ITS BLUE AND WHITE thats why its nice x)) and we have to draw some thingies. i decided to do fruits. i gonna draw a FRUIT BASKET =)

hmm for maths mr lin taught us..line of symetry? and umm. mininum / maximum point of a graph or something. well then. RECESS! OH YAY. haha. i ate hor fun. niceeeee as usual. ahaha. and carine says i eat fast. lol. maybe i was hungry. but victoria says i eat VERY slowly =( ahh nvm. hehe.

oh yah, YIN LAO SHI DIDNT COME TODAY AND I WAS VERYVERY HAPPY cause i didnt do the jian bao. she'll pester me for it. I AM LAZY. especially when youre sitting right in front youve got no choice luh =(

ENGLISH. ms haq didnt come again today. THANK GOD. cause i didnt do all my english homework. whoops. haha. okay i have to do it by this weekend or else i'll be dead. oh yah. mr tan came to relief us today. there's a composition which all of us have to do -.- lalalacrap. oh yaaa. i love talking. hehehe. told sijie a lot of things. hahaha. ^^'"

anw, science was like. uhhh. we labelled the hamburger. and we had to draw umm. ____able lips. thats what mr lim said. x) and i wrote a lot of stuff on that page. and WHAT IS DIGESTION is a very common question. laaahs. and umm. we drew the alimentary canal. yuppos.

and then asm. yay! lol. i thought i was going to fall asleep again. but this one was showing miyasaki and stuff. im not sure if im going this year. maybe not. x) and uhhh. i laughed during the school song. OPPPS. because some ji siao guy sang the burning bush as buring BUSSSHHHHHH. LOL. i was laughing laaa. =X

hmm. then i had lunch. ate...that yong tau fu stall. blahblahblah. and then. ART ROOM! for art club. yup, i just joined art club. hehe. today we did paper machie. whatever the spelling is. hahaha. WE DID 7 LAYERS. hahaha. we were going to do a GLOBE. XD and so we did the people around the world after that. mine was like so colourful. ahaha. & i got to know some sec ones. hehe. AND I USE THE COMPUTER IN THE ART ROOM. shhh..hahahaha.

and then..when we were going back, i tripped but i laughed ^.^'" hehehe. I LOL. as in really. and carine was like -.-"' LOL. and the sec ones starred at me. hehehehohoh. i ate a banana when i came back. AND I FOUND OUT SOMETHING. A INTERESTING FACT. my monthly expenditure is...$90. =/ i've been eating A LOT these few weeks. i spend $3 on food a day. =/ recess & lunch mah. and...that means like. $70 on food per month. and...$20 on transport a mth. crap. I HAVE BEEN SPENDING TOO MUCH. but its not the time to cut down yet. heheh.

okay. this is a really long post. whew. lol, take care, God bless & byebye! XD cake is coming oh~ =D

[edit]
tried a rainbow text generator just now. hehe.
see what i did.
-sandra posted and laughed =D
hehehe.
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Thursday, March 30, 2006

the feeling of being used

UPDATES
1. i downloaded graphmatica and its rather nice actually =)
2. i did my homework in school
3. i know my grades are de-proving (that spells BIG trouble for me)
4. my design folio is incomplete.
5. i haven't bought a d&t apron
6. i have to do the props for lit (i lugged 3 umbrellas back home today)
7. i read www.funbrain.com the diary is VERY interesting. a must go. i shall link it soon (: i'm at day 223. heheheh. oh yarh. i think i started reading last year. hehehehe. x)

i guess that's enough. okay, the feeling of being used.

firstly, picture this scene in your mind.

you thought some people were going to walk towards you, but they walked and talked to the person BESIDE you instead. and then they treat you like you're invisble and squeeze their way in and take over your standing or sitting place. now think.

next, someone comes up to you smiling. you thought that person wanted to talk to you. but that person just asked you for a favour. like uhh. doing something for them. and then you foolishly say okay. well i say okay all the time lah. and i feel very very used. get what i mean? you cant say no can you? i dont know. then you think, if you say no, that person will dislike or even hate you.

you understand? its not like i am like a toy okay. that you can pass around and throw into the bin or at a corner when you feel like it. i got scolded my many people today. do you know the feeling of being isolated? no? okay i shall fill you in.

one day, when you decided to chat up some people, they diao you and they just nod their head and walk away. then when you try talking to them again, they say go away and so you have to do everything alone. its veryvery difficult being isolated okay. its not fun at all.

how would you feel? tell me. im having a bad feeling about typing this post. because some people might just hate me and complain about me after this. rahhhhs.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

hi guys. haha. i never post today nobody tag huh? lol. anw. if you come, tag lah. haha. okay. today was alright. hmm. okay. i've got a announcement.

I...LOST MY VOICE. =(

its so hoarse now. i can't talk. my throat will hurt. hmm. we played volleyball for PE today. but i really can't play. as in. i can hit the ball, but i can't pitch it. =( gahh. and didn't do my homework.

LALALA. i have to hand in the portfolio biodata tomorrow. yadayada. didnt have geog. MR NG DIDNT COME! OH YAY OH YAY XD and..I did the IFD card with qh today. hahah. thank us okay x) who cares if it looks childish. its cute lah XD hahahah. i drew it like my best friends blogskin. heheh. then qh did the words. i drew. wahhaha. anyway. im coughing like mad =(

oh yes. ms haq didnt come today. and we discussed about some controversial issue today. [me, sheryl, sisca & erm yah x)] anw. sijie slept as usual. then the guys?

playing soccer lah what else. lol. i'm waiting for xing shan shan to start. OH YAH. ANYONE WITH chen wei lian's CHU MO. send it to me okay? I LOVE IT LIKE CRAP. HHAHAHA. LOVE IT TOOO!! hehe. oh and..MR LIN IS VERY NICE.

haha. his full name is lin wen wei. like that tall tall guy. hahah. he's so patient can? then i understood the maths qns and blah. i failed my maths test lah. but he didnt scold me. hehe. he's good. yah he's good. but too bad. hahahha (;

and..after school some mr ____ came to scold us. and i told lq to say "'cause it didnt affect us" then he scolded us. >=( crappo. why must report. -_- what blah. then he talk so much & wasted so much time. LOL. anw. carine is uhh. MENTEITH NOW!!! yay!!! oh yayyayaya XD anw. some blah. yes. blah. hohohoho.

guess i shall end here. GBUTCBB! (:

Monday, March 27, 2006

4TH POST.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
HEY. what happened?

MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
he touch my neoprints
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
dipped them in rice.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
ate my rice.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
now i dont have any dinner.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
OMGOSH?
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
eeeeeeeeee

MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
took all my sister's stickers which she needed for school & pasted them on HIS OWN CUPBOARD

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
feel free to bang ur head against the wall

MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
CRAP.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
i wont mind
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
gee

MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A BROTHER.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
tts horrible..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
why he do that?
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
YEA!
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
CANT TAKE IT.
MY STUPID AND & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
HES BRAINLESS.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
anw
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
how old is he?

MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
8.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
oh
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
thats..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
old enough to know whats right and wrong

MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
yea!
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
i told you
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
he's TOTALLY BRAINLESS.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
hmm
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
letmesee
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
ur neos..
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
nt that bad
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
is rice
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
yea
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
crap.

people change till you dont know them anymore says:
u can cook maggie mee?
people change till you dont know them anymore says:
-suggection
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
one day he will dip them in curry or smth
MY STUPID & BRAINLESS BROTHER says:
[FUMES]

3rd post for today

took another quiz.
**PREP** you're definitely a Prep!!But don't worry!I am too sometimes!!But not all preps are bad!!~*preps rock!*~ You know howda stand up to people,and aren't afraid to speak your mind,WHEN YOU HAVE TO!!!

here's another.
you are calm and have popular friends because they think your so cool. who knows whats goin on in your head.

and another..
You chose potato chips. If potato chips are your preferred snack food, then you are probably an ambitious and successful person, and a high achiever. You enjoy the rewards of success both at work and at home. Not a selfish sort, you enjoy the successes of your spouse and children, too, and you seek nothing less than the best from them. You also tend to be impatient with less than the best, and you are easily frustrated by life's little blips - traffic jams make you crazy, and you consider waiting in line a huge imposition. Note: if you want to do business with a potato chip lover, or you are in a competitive situation with this personality type, be prepared. Potato chip lovers are always worthy and prepared adversaries, and you may lose if you don't bring your best to the situation.

You are the element of wind. You are a breezy sort of person, very passive. You have a few friends who understand you, but they are the only ones. Like a Rainbow you colourful person, you!! =D

PLEASE TAKE NOT THAT NOT ALL QUIZ RESULTS ARE TRUE.

sometimes i wonder

when i visit blogs,
i tend to read a lot of depressing stories.
but i'm in the same boat too!
why dont i just fall and cry and say i wanna die?
then everyone will comfort me right?
but, NO i can't!
i wonder why i'm so strong.
SO STRONG NO ONE CAN SEE SADNESS IN ME.
i mean, if you see it, well, no one asks anw.
maybe i want people to ask.
maybe not.
maybe i'm so strong.
because God moulded me to this stage.
why can't i fall & cry?
people will say i'm weak.
and because I've got Daddy.
i've so many problems
but i smile & laugh so much
the smiles cover up all the tears.
that flow down, right and deep inside the heart which once almost tore.
and the wall banged on me.
i took shelter.
finding refuge in Him, and Him alone.
i didn't tell anyone.
that i was torn and broken up.
sorry Daddy.
but whenever i think of You, and Your goodness.
i can't help but cry.
tears well up in my eyes.
and roll down my cheeks.
and your everything.
SORRY.
once i fall.
at the bottom of the pit.
You pick me up.
You always do.
i wonder why.
its not funny.
i know there's something missing in me.
I KNOW.
SORRY PAPA.
I know you're fine there.
i want to go there too.
BUT I CAN'T.

listen and hear me with your heart.

personality tests

lol. i'm feeling tralala~ XD reason? no one treated me like a machine today. and i'm not invisble =) haha. no one told me to do this or do that. everyone is good. x) everyone deserves respect. so i shall respect everyone. =D oh yes. i LOVE cleaning the class whiteboard. AND SWEEPING THE CLASSROOM. hahhaha. i'm weird. XP

anw, took another personality test. ahaha. i just came back. lahs. oh yah. and i feel VERY BLESSED. PRAISE GOD =D ahaha. cos i forgot to wear my nametag & school badge to school today. lol. then you know what? as soon as i reached the hall, victoria lent me one of her nametags and crystal lend me her school badge. awww. thanks guys! [hugs!] lol. and when i came back, i think God wanted to tell me something. you know that "knock and you'll find, seek &..." that verse? yea.

God was trying to tell me that. today i searched for a .vbs file which could cure my computer's little problem which i didn't use to care about cos it didnt affect me in whatsoever way. hahah. anw. the minute i searched for it and clicked on the link my computer problem disappeared. yay! haha. THANK GOD. XD and went to staff room after school, but mr lin wants there -.- lols. anw. the a*star thingy was okay.

and we had to do macbeth -.-

Peaceful Discreet Non Aggressive

You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

Your Existing Situation

Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in the things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse

Your Stress Sources

Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.


Your Restrained Characteristics

Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.

Your Desired Objective

Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field.

Your Actual Problem

Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

YESYESYES! lol.

the website

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Know more about me

What's on my mind?
Here is the analysis:
You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

Your Working Style
You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.
You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

some quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

(This part has been removed due to the gayness of SOME people)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

reflecting upon life

You know something? even if you're always alone (like me) and you dont have a partner for morning assembly almost everyday, but you know God is with you. And even if everyone else has forgotten about you, you know that He doesn't and will never forsake you. that makes you feel way better isn't it? [big grin] and then if there's no partner beside you, He will sit beside you. Don't you feel honoured having the King right beside you? haha. There's more than enough space for Him to take His place. and when others have friends as partners, you have the King as your partner! So wonderful right? (;

lols. that's what i think when i'm just by myself. hehe. anw. i feel like redoing my d&t design folio. hi^5 to qiuhui! haha. and there's a lot of work to do today. anw. mummy washed my shoes! OH YAY =DDD what's the first thing you do when you turn on your computer? haha. of course you'll wait for it to load lah -.- hees. for me, i'll check if anyone has tagged. hahah. it makes you feel good that people do come to your bloig and tag. then when you reply, makes me feel great. haha. then i'll check in friendster.

new testimonials or friend requests or whatever. then i'll check blogskins. to see if anyone commented on my skin overnight or gave me a green flag =D then i'll sign in to MSN. haha. then i'll feed my neopets. i reallyreally have to do a lot of things today. so, bye for now!

TAKE CARE, SMILE & GOD BLESS! :D

why does everyone come to me only when they need help? or when they want to know about homework? why can't you talk to me because you want to talk to me? i got other things to do one okay? in case you don't know, its not fun being a machine. its very tiring. no one appreciates. i've been kind enough to tell you everything already okay. don't go overboard. i'm irritated and digusted at you. are you even a friend? are you fake or what? you dont treat me as a friend already do you? you treat me as a machine right? GREAT. you're so disgusting. i hope God will punish you. what kind of Christian are you. you treat me like rubbish. ahh crap.

Friday, March 24, 2006

yay!

i changed my skin! ahaha. i'm still trying to figure out why my jukebox isn't working like it is supposed to. in the meantime, be patient lor. haha. anw, i'm thinking of letting readers download music or images. how about that? ahaha. now its time to change my tagb colours. ((:

P.S: if you steal my codings, i will make you look like a ultimate freak. =D

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Fragile; handle with care

2nd post today. bwahaha. i havent done anything. just as i said. i just changed ck's blogskin. blahs. what else? eat dinner? okay. guess i shall do so. SHOULD I CHANGE MY SKIN?

219th post

took train home with huimei today. i shall be myself. came back to waipo's house and switched on my computer and turned on the tv. watching hi5. charli is pretending to be a star shooting now. sometimes watching innocent children really makes you smile. really simple things make me happy. i don't wish for everyone's attention. i just wish for ONE true friend. ONE.

maybe she is right. maybe i have a really simple mind. i thought everyone was good. in my world, there isn't the word cunning in my dictionary. now kellie is talking to chats. i dont want to do my homework. dont feel like doing anything at all. just typing and tving. there's a maths test tomorrow. kids central grew up with me. (: God too. of course =)

i don't want to pretend. i don't want people to pretend too. especially my friends. i don't even know if those i consider as my good friends consider me as one. maybe i'm just invisble to everyone. People do change. I'm not the same anymore. Didn't you all realise I'm not as happy or carefree like before? Even if i'm happy in class or whatever, people still won't be happy.

what's the point in following what people do? BE YOURSELF! i want peace love & joy on earth. not violence vulgarities and pretentious people. someday you'll realise i'm not an ordinary girl.

KIDS CENTRAL BIG IN THE CITY. hi5 started. byebye.