The truth is..

there's disappointment
there's uncertainty
there's numbness in it all - which may be a good thing

Bah

Today was extremely tiring..long day from 7.50 till 6.50..!

Overslept this morning, pressed the stop button instead of the snooze one on my phone when the alarm rang so I woke up at..6.45? Mad rush to get ready and everything..honestly, didn't want to go to school cause 1. Will be very late 2. Felt very tired and the 1st lesson was PE (which turned out to be -.-!!) Ahh but mummy kept pushing me to go so yea..

Was praying that I won't be late..Haha yes even though I knew I would..and guess what after morning assembly, someone was collecting ez-link cards and he totally went past me..not once but TWICE..was really shocked..but I think that means God answered my prayer right..awesomest.. :)

Okay then I met my FT at the parade square who asked if the latecomers ate breakfast already haha which I haven't so she told me to get some milo from the canteen before

一句话

“至少我在你的世界里。。并不是空气”

简单的一句话。。为什么足以让我掉泪？
哈哈。。已经有好长的一段时间没用华语打字了。。！

Was it a trigger; the tipping point? Or did I just tear because of that one sentence? Was watching the show when I realised how everyone is the same essentially - in the sense that we all need to feel loved.

Human hearts - how fascinating. You can build layers and layers upon it but at the end of the day, there's still this void that needs to be filled..a void that only One can consume :)

God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =D

ECP for CDP

Woohooooo I'm back from CDP! =D Feeling really tired but thank God its a good kind of tired..hahah okay never mind. So..I just wanted to write down everything before I forget them =D We had a class outing before CDP so I woke up at 6.40AM (half an hour later than usual =D)..got ready and left home to meet SJ @ YCK but I missed the train so I was slightly late..hahaha didn't manage to talk much on the 1st train cause we were separated by other commuters..haha so anyway..we were early for the meeting with HP & the rest in the end! :D Took the bus and then walked to ECP..haha I think it was the 1st time I walked along the expressway..Hmm so when we reached..we splitted up into 2 groups - the biking group (Rental shop was nearby) and the Macdonalds group..Those who haven't eaten their breakfasts (like me) went to the 2nd group..yup. HAHA this part..WE TOOK AN EXTENSIVE AMOUNT OF TIME AND EFFORT (went there by foot all the way) TO REACH MACDONALDS.. Halfway through.. MY: No energy already..I only drank soya milk just now Me: I only ate that polo sweet you gave me. Hhahahaa..it was such a long journey that MY & I could wait for HP, XP & Angie while resting on a bench..OH I got to play with a cat =D I think it wanted me to rub its tummy cause it flipped over after I stroked it..hahah so sweet..but I was hungry sooo didnt stop for long..hahaha. Was elated when I finally reached Macs :D Bought filet-o-fish breakfast meal..=D hahah it came with a free cup of coffee which was sadly thrown into the bin before anyone took a sip cause no one wanted coffee..lol. Took a cab back cause we were tired from the awfully long walk earlier on..haha! $1 per person :D Then..rented bikes :D Took the double-seater one cause I can't cycle..hmm it was $8 per person for 2 hours..XP was my 1st partner :D Hahhaa I have the honour of being the 1st person she "tongpanged" :D Biked to the jetty and it started raining shortly after we reached hahaha..hmm took a couple of pictures.. =D

  Hello Claudy! =D

Claudy, HZ, SJ & I =D

Abandoned fish

XP & I =D Then we went back and took shelter in the pavilions..took photos, ate and Claudy braided my hair haha don't know how it turned out but Jadeline said it looked neat haha okay :D

MY, XP & I outside the pavilions =D

SJ, XP & I unsuccessful shot 1

 

SJ, XP & I unsuccessful shot 2

SJ, XP & I successful shot! =D=D 

Haha I like :D When the rain subsided, we went back to cycling :) After some time MY took over the front seat..haha she didnt dare to at first but when she was in front she started going in curves, just like in Sentosa..haha it was fun :D We cycled to Macs to look for the guys..haha don't remember what for..so anyway after that Angie became my 3rd partner..we sang quite a lot along the way..haha! Oh for the last 10 mins XP took the front seat again haha..we went upslope rather laboriously so the downslope part was totally rewarding..left my feet off the pedals and started cheering and enjoying the breeze hahaha :D After returning the bikes, we walked to the volleyball courts where CT and XL already were =D Called the rest to come play with us but they didn't..so haha it was 3 against 3. Used Angie's volleyball in the game..No one kept track of the score cause all of us (except Angie) were still learning the sport..haha I managed to serve over the net haha :D:D:D Its an accomplishment considering that I had zero confidence in doing that..haha! Hmm..thank God I improved! :D Hhaha the rest only came when we were about to finish up..Played till we had to leave for the Sandcastle Beach to report for the CDP on time (2pm). After the briefing, we attended a crash course on sandcastle-building..haha to build sustainable and substantial structures, you've got to pack, pack and pack the sand and water..which will compress and hold the sand together. We then got down to serious business and started building a wall (wall of the well) haaha it was really hard work..took rather long to decide how to build it and how thick it should be but we did it in the end :D:D Cute frog was done with the help of the instructors :D All in all, it was great everyone participated =D The building stopped at 6 and all the classes gathered around to listen to the rationales and class visions of the different classes..we were the 1st class to get picked to present our structure..haha :D 

It looks so much like toyland..like all these sandcastles will come alive..the magic school bus and the frog..maybe they'll enter another world..when nobody's looking =D

Woohoo! Guess a chinese idiom :D 

 

Fairytale-like.. :D Haha then the following events took place in order: 

Group photo-taking with the structures

Washroom time! (Haha finally)

Dinner - prawn mee =D

Looked for XP's picnic mat and found it :D

Went back to dinner place

Time to go home..extremely enervated

Woohooo showertime :D:D:D School tomorrow, got to sleep early, goodnight! God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

What about you? :)

Things that put a smile on my face:

- Relaxing music
- Seeing happy people
- Pleasant surprises
- Spontaneous hugs
- So much more..

Mesh don't know what the neighbours downstairs are up to. They blast loud music at night till the wee hours in the morning and its an EVERYDAY AFFAIR. -.- Please be more considerate!

Hello!

YAY I'M BACK! =D Remember The Noose (its a pun on The News by the way haha)? Haha found their videos on Youtube while surfing today..hilarious to the max! Haha play it for a good laugh =D

God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

P.S.: Yea changed the background song =D But it doesnt't play from the start..hmm.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY AND SHIRLEEN!! =D

Updates =)

Haha just checked..the previous entry was posted on Tuesday..its Saturday today! :) Okay hmm.. 

- Can't log in using WL so I'm using Windows Messenger now..haha quite ironic cause I wanted so much to get my emoticons back but when I did..it disallowed me from signing in forever..sigh..just because I'm not the admin of the com (haha long story) 

 - Went to Angie's house last night..haha and reached home when it was nearly 12 cause its quite a distance..loved (and still love) the miniduet I did with SJ =D=D First time! Haha yes it was really short and I did very little but I love it wheehoo! =D 

- Was @ Yishun to support MY this afternoon haha..yay she got in the comm :) Congrats girl :) Played bowling for a few hours..lol I'm really not good at it..but its okay..doesn't really matter right =D Next time..hmm :)

 - Accompanied Mummy to the optical shop just now..haha it felt good..maybe cause I felt like I was more experienced and so, can help =D 

 - Shirleen got a haircut! Haha so cute..looks like a bob..
God..thank You..=) God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

Haha yay =D

Finished all the 4 (90% in one night)..woohoo!! And the Blogger posting page is back to normal..woohoo too!! =D Had almost no sleep the previous nights (seriously..I just closed my eyes..sleep didnt come haha) but thank God He sustained me, yay! =D

Hmm okay reached home at 4plus..and had a tummyache..sigh haha I think I damaged my body clock..then did some organic chem and took a nap..woke up at 10..hmm okay time for alkenes..see you :):)

God bless, take care and byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =D

P.S.: Christian spongebob..yayyyyy haha =D

Bah

"Getai very noisy, how to study??"

Sigh so annoying and MsD wants 4 COMPLETED GP ASSIGNMENTS TOMORROW. TOMORROW. SHE'S KILLING US.

God I really, really need Your strength..!

-.-

FB and this blogger posting page looks weird on my com! HELLO BLOGGER WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? :) LOL.

And just now Schoolbuzz refused to let me log in..weirdddoooooooo.

Slept away the dsuiwehrfhro feelings of yesterday =D

GOD BLESS, TAKE CARE & BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :)

This week

Lost my pink highlighter and G2 pen..alamak.
(haha edit: Dionne gave me hers..thanks girl =D and thank God I have an extra G2..haha but I still like that old shade of ink better..hmm hinthint haha)

To do:
- GP essay, redo AQ, for & against (?) - haha she didn't go through/ collect it in the end..which was good cause I didn't "redo" what I did in the library =D
- Cut & highlight articles
- Edit EoM
- BCM tutorials
- Econs essay
- QT

Wanna go shop for new stuff tomorrow (actually today..its 1245 already =D) after church! :D


It hurts because you didn't even realise it
What should I do?

Again, God has been awesome. I love You God. :)

HELLO THERE =)

Its Friday again..whew what a school week. Thank God again..cause being able to survive one school week after another is no mean feat. TGFE TGFE!! =D

Everyone should stop being this busy. At every given moment, someone is being stressed up about his/her work..and its hard to find life when you are overly tensed up. But the good news is..one day it'll all end..and it'll end well =D

Thank You Daddy :) Thank You for the people I can lean on when I feel tired..thank You that You are always, always with me..thank You that admist the chaos I can find peace..thank You that sanity comes back (haha)..thank You for the good sleep..thank You for providing, for forgiving, for loving me even when I don't deserve it and thank You for being You, <3 :)

Hahha this sounds really cheesy but I don't know when I'll get to say it again so its..now or never! Hahah I love my friends very, very much :D YAY!

Dionne..if you're reading this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I just realised I didn't give you a birthday hug..haha Monday okay! If you don't see this even better..it'll be a surprise! :D

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Hahah weird Blogger

Never mind! Anyway..2.41AM right now..and have been catching up on some korean news hahah :D

I found something! That squirrel is nocturnal! Haha :D WE COULD BE FAMILY

AND OMGOSH MINSUN!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBcC_FVuTKA
Love the first photo of them there..I think something's going on..! So cute =DD
Haha so compatible <3

HEELLO NEED TO GET BACK TO MY PLASMIDS HAHA SEE YOU <3
Thank God for pulling me through this week as well. God's grace is awesommeeeeeeeeeee. <3 =D

NOOOO

Don't like this feeling. AT ALLLLL.

=(((((((((((

AHHHHOIDCHLDFGHBFDUIHGHGTRGHRSHTHGHSU/

I want the main com back! The website is having problems! I WANNA SCREAM. BAHHHHHH!! Internal conflict..internal conflict! CAN DIE AHH. STRESS IS STUPIDDDDDDD.

OMGOSH JUST FOUND THISSSSS. MUST SHAREEEEEE.


Tian wasn't expecting much before I played it..But when I did, it drew me in cause the mood of the first few scenes was much like how I felt..sad..sad to the max. Yea I'm extreme. And then..maybe it just felt better cause subconciously I felt that there's someone with the same emotion as me..hahah okay he was acting..but his acting is so good you can really sense his melancholy.

BUT THEN..Suddenly things got turned 360degrees when she appeared..so from ohsosad it went to ohsosweet..and I was so glad that the video was cheering me up..haha who knew..things took an unexpected twist - she was gone. Can you imagine? The person who changed your life..the person you've been besotted with..IS GONE? GONEEEE. His heart probably took a very painful plunge right to the bottom. OUCH.

And just when you're wondering where on earth she went, how that happened and how the story could end like that..hahha watch it. Totally sweet, heartwarming and touching..I love it =D

Anyway, so many thoughts ran through my head while I was watching it..Was he always like that? Where are his friends? And then at first I didn't know the girl was in a different building..hahaha! Can't remember what else I thought of right now..but hmm God is so good. He won't let me feel unhappy for too long. Haha thank You :) I really feel better now. Hopefully it will only get better..! =D

God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

:):):)

THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU GOD.

I SURVIVED THE WEEK WHEEHOO. ECONS HOMEWORK WASN'T COLLECTED TODAY. GOD IS SO GOOD WOOHOO. AND I LEARNT QUITE A BIT WHILE DOING THE CARPARK DUTY. Hahaha.

Thought I was doing ushering work, as in ushering people, at first but when the guy who briefed us really briefly (pun intended hahaha) told us that we would be "ushering cars". LOL. He said, "Its ushering, its just that the subjects are bigger now" LOL. Anyway it was fun because I sort of ushered people too :D:D And everyone returned my smile! Hahaha it felt really good seeing so many smiles =D=D

So onto the lessons learnt and observations..
1. That car ushers/traffic wardens can move while ushering..I always had the impression that they only stand at one spot and use their hands to direct the vehicles..but one teacher was like telling me I should walk around because I needed to get the people to turn into the bend haha :D

2. I learnt how to direct traffic professionally! Hahaha the hand movements and all. There's an art to it! =D Its cool learning things on the job :D

3. JC1 parents come earlier than JC2 parents! Hahaha..maybe it doesn't imply anything but still..its interesting to note =D So we finished our duty very early! Started at about 4plus and ended minutes before 6. That's an hour earlier than the expected! Cause it was supposed to be from 4-7 so we get 3 hours of CIP..hopefully that still holds true for us! :D

4. She can be really nice. =D Kept telling us to take breaks and go up to the hall to have our dinner..initially it was rather awkward cause we didn't feel good about taking the food that weren't meant for us..but she insisted on it hahaah and yup the food was not bad at all =D=D

My position kept changing during my duty..cause the cars were coming in fast and slots were filled up very quickly..so I actually moved across the school! From the carpark beside the parade square to the one behind the security guardhouse..haha..=D

After dinner, had an impromptu meeting with her..which was, thank God, quite good =D

Okay think that's all for now..quite tired and the screen's rather greenish now and that's making my eyes protest so haha TGIF, TGFE..God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D:D <3

Whoosh

God I SURVIVED. Little sleep, stress, crankiness, PMS etc etc but GOD YOU DID IT. Thank You. Am gonna need more of Your strength to pull through the rest of this week..

AND I DIDN'T TAKE A NAP TODAY WHEEHOOOO. :D:D:D:D I still have things to do but hahaha I'm glad I survived. The posting page is still weird but never mind. I'M HUNGRY! 11.56..11.57..Mummy says I can eat kaya bread. Hahahaa. Kay.

Pray for me if you're free. :D I've a lot on my hands..but God never fails yea :D

God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =)

Heyyyyy

I think I wasn't quite myself yesterday..considering that its already past 12am now..ah well thank God still..for retaining a portain of my sanity..okay anyway!

I WATCHED ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND ON TV JUST NOW! Last episode! Oh mesh my favourite show..goodbyeeee..Tenjoooo Knighttttt..he really looks good with double eyelids..though I think single eyelids makes him more..him..haha..

Ahhhhh

God in my very irrational state of mind now, running away seems to be a rather good option. Stopping time? Oh mesh..canibreakdown? I feel crap horrible about those superhorrendous results already and then there are so many things to do..for all subjects..plus CCA..Yes it feels like someone turned my world upside down. But there are things to be grateful for..thank God for family and friends..but then everyone's too busy..

No robot..Not a superhuman..

It really takes some time for the feeling to go away. It comes back again and again..:(:(:( even after you thought you've dealt and are done with it..and the nightmares the past few nights..gosh I sound so..Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!