cruelty+meaness

today...was yet another UNHAPPY day for me again...[i dunnoe] is my msn nick n0w..n yes, i reaaly dont noe..my specs thingy dropped...and now its lost...can find it...and i've tolerated them 4 so long...and God knows..but...i am still very SAD...you know God..is a wondeful God..HE stands by you...in the past...of cos,the present and He will take care of you in the future for you are His child...yes i noe dis...but things arent going fine 4 me actually...

SADDENED.

mild depression.

BUT GOD GAVE ME HOPE.

blessing in DISGUISE.

guess that's so IT.

all right..bye 4 now...God bless n tc...//hey dun brood over this entry//its just my feelings.

my deepest thoughts..

i want to stick close to God-- for my whole life! Trusting in Him...the KING is kind and merciful...God told us everything we need 2 noe in His word-- the Bible. revealing bit by bit to us...becoming more n more like Him! =) God wants to bring out the best in us-- using our gifts and talents He gave us! God thinks abt His creation all the tym..including me! =) I luv God but He loves me even more...Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him-- Colossians 1:16 ! My life is about God...it revolves around Him...He placed me here on Earth for a reason-- to do good things for Him! =) God has the power to control everyone's lives, bcos He can do all things! Continue...to fire 4 God..never give up..bcos God is my strength...He is my sherperd, guide me to where You want to lead me. Take control..my life is Yours. Sacrificing myself is the way to go.I dont mind.You are there wif me. Without You, I'm lost...Keep me..dont ever let me go...I luv revelation...cos its the opp. of speculation...

REVELATION x SPECULATION.

..and the root word of it is REVEAL.

~woah 2nd entry of the day...came back from miracle svc...God was really there...so many healing cases..touched...God really did wonders..pain lifted...so on n so forth..if u wanna noe, cum 2 LIGHTHOUSE EVANGELISM...tampines or woodlands...on Sat...starts @ 7pm..if u want to noe abt the map...go 2 my web...www.freewebs.com/chilicg...u will see the map there...n rmb 2 sign de guestbk too! =)

^swinging ard^

mood swings i mean...ok..so bad arh...terrible mood swings...ummm...oh yes today WAS PROBABLY THE START OF POST EXAMS CELE!! haha..cos we din do anything 2day..no hw...no anything~haha..ok den smth happened in my class..chairman prob again...ok la..vcm din do anything..din wan 2 interfere...sorry la...lolx...ok...chairman accused the gers..ok of cos i was sorta angry...budden i heard tt nth was said abt me..lol..=D..but how could they do this..chairman ar..always ve mood swings in class de..haha...n de whole class jus makes it worse (ok, i mean jus a few...) sijie.regina.jiayi.me.kelly.sat ard at her table..talked for dunno how many hrs..hahaix..God is so good...=)..so amazing..isnt He?

my eyes are very tired.really.the staring of those lyrics make my eyes *starry*..haha...ok..ve been on com 4 quite long. bye. tc. God bless! =)

-because God is good . =D

::ART::

yup, having art exam tmr.. prep work all done…except 4 sum finishing touches…ok, I’ve got a big news to share : I AM PREPARED TO FAIL MY DNT!!! really, though God helped me, but without action, it is nothing…ok, I admit..did not study much but squeeze in everything last night…so its counted as finish le…BUT…big prob..qns that came up were…-_-"" but nvm la…God is here 2 help..mum was so understanding..=) she told me NOT TO WORRY, anyway, its my 1st dnt exam…hahaha…so gd wor..=)

::ART::

yup, having art exam tmr.. prep work all done¦except 4 sum finishing touches¦ok, I've got a big news to share : I AM PREPARED TO FAIL MY DNT!!! really, though God helped me, but without action, it is nothing¦ok, I admit..did not study much but squeeze in everything last night¦so its counted as finish le¦BUT¦big prob..qns that came up were¦-_-"" but nvm la¦God is here 2 help..mum was so understanding..=) she told me NOT TO WORRY, anyway, its my 1st dnt exam¦hahaha¦so gd wor..=)

::exams wif God::

haha...ok well...tmr is history...everyone is working hard n preparing the the MYE...xuemei told me tt she revised till bored...quote:
xUeMeI says:
ya..i can't realli memorise them loh....stressed....looking at those long sentences n paragraghs n words!
its natural to feel stressed during dis period of time la...esp wen we are coping wif so many things @ once...trying 2 balance them out is not an easy task i must say..good time management is very important...caste system...feudal system...centralised bureaucracies..wah...so many systems of govt..hehe...

anyway, went to church...cg n spdlite as usual 2day...4 cg, angeline actually washed all the cgm feet! just like how pastor wee washed cherlene's feet when she was the president of the 4th batch of student councillors...she wanted to demonstrate the example Jesus did with his disciples-he washed their feet too...because a leader has to be humble too...oh yah...@ spdlite we ended wif "We want to see Jesus lifted high"..1st tym ended wif such a happening song....haha...den we prayed 4 revival...we have an LE Challenge...yes...REVIVAL IS COMING!!! =)

::c0mp0sed a p0em::

POEMS…
here r sum others my frens edited..haha

Rainbows appear just after mighty storms,
when things just look their very worst,
Just when the skies are darkest grey,
look for the rainbow first.
the rainbow is a sign of God’s promise
that He will guide us through any storm,
that He will see through all our troubles,
no matter what their form.
When you feel battered by life’s storm,
when you are filled with doubt and dismay,
just remember that God’s rainbow (Jesus) is coming,
He’s only a prayer away…

Friendship is a happy thing
it makes us laugh
it makes us sing
it makes us sad
it makes us cry
it makes us seek the reason why.
it makes us take
it makes us five
above all else
it makes us live (God also...)

Goods friends are
beside you in trouble
behind all your dreams
in touch with your feelings
and into your schemes
above making judgements
upfront from the start
around when you need them
and near your heart.

Friends are there to heal the wounds,
to pull you out of saddened tunes,
to brighten up your cloudy skies,
to clear out ficticious lies.
friends are there with open arms,
to comfort you and block the harms,
to keep your secrets hidden away,
to entertain you when you want to play,
friends are there, smile or tear,
friends are fund and they are clever
and the ties that bind friends will last forever…

::c0mp0siti0n:: de recipe 4 frenship...

Well, anybody, have you ever thought of this question before? Probably, yes, it may have crossed your mind but do you know the answer?

The first thing that struck my mind is trust. We need to have trust in each other in order to have a good relationship with our friends. Who can disagree? Without trust, you cannot possibly be good friends with anyone, right? So, the first ingredient is, TRUST.

What about the next ingredient? Is it understanding you are saying? Right! Of course, understanding is very important. We indeed have to understand our friends well enough. We have to see their weakness as their strengths and try to accept their differences.Next on the list is FORGIVENESS. I am sure you have heard about the proverb; forgive and forget, right? So, as from what I understand from it, you should forgive your friends if they have done something wrong and forget about it. In this way, you will have more friends! Anyway, it is better to have more friends than foes, isn't it?

Coming up next is SHARING. You have to share, share about anything under the sun with your friend. Perhaps your friend has been waiting for a long time for you to open up your heart and share with him or her, who knows?

What's next? KINDNESS and PATIENCE is next! Well, you have to be kind to your friend if you want your friend to be kind to you and the same logic applies to patience. Always be patient with your friend and you will find that your friendship will grow and blossom.

Last but not least, FUN. You cannot expect everyday to be dull and boring, right? Fun is about being happy. Tell some jokes and break the ice. Seeing friends laugh with you at the same time is a very joyful moment. Do treasure it!

After telling you so much, you should have a better understanding of what makes friendship and it is also time for me to stop. Maybe with all the tips I have given you, you can find yourself a new friend! J Ultimately, you will be a very good friend if you follow what I have told you. Before I end, I would want to encourage you to be happy and smile always. Always be optimistic and look towards the bright side. And, to all primary 6 pupils, work hard for your PSLE this year and give it your best shot. Hope all of you will get good results. God bless and take care! =)

hello God...

God, today right..i read ur Word...so nice 2 start off a day like dis...and den..ya...sheryl sent me 2 Christian songs...To You and er...another one by the parachute band..yup...it was very nice listening it...ok God, u noe that exams r coming le hoh...so really busy nowadays although i still come online..watch a bit of tv n stuff...God, i pray that whoever that comes into my blog will be touched by You Lord. For you are the Almighty God who never fails...and even if that person is a non-believer, i pray 4 u to let his/her heart to be opened Lord...Thank You for the wonderful day...Pray that u will continue 2 protect me throughout Lord..thank You..In Jesus Name..Amen.

read 3 chapters of bible yest..

yea, online! hehe...can u believe it? *lame*...angeline said we must mske a commitment to God to read His Word..the website is www.biblegateway.com. well, today i felt God talking to me when i was walking 2 the mrt wif mum...yeah, God told me many many things..cant tell u all..cos sum r personal..kayx? ;) yeah, and one of things He siad was He sent Jesus Christ down to die for us so that He can SET US FREE!! YEAH, so we r free now..that's y we shud worship n praise Him..uh-huh..den er...today jw not around..mum took him out 4 dinner..so happy..haha...=)..b4 that, he was rily making a lot of noise...haix..cant nap well 2day..mum n dad kip calling home...o ya, exams r coming..God, pls guide me..thanks..-D

:: we r not part of dis w0rld ::

yess..one dayy we will return back to God...happy *smiles*...i tink that ppl are getting out and out of order...so atrocious ya noe...btw, on 17/4/05..i rcvd the gift of tongues from God...yeah God..g00d God...thanks so much..im excited... ok...waitx..continue later..

:: happY ::

yeah, God..thanks for making me happy...u brighten me up when im sad, when im down u pull me up..u make my day..just by telling me that u are always there 4 me...=)thanks for giving me frens, giving me many things in life which could have been taken granted for..God, you are gr8 and i want to tell the world that way.

God, i cried again...i don't want to cry but it really makes me angry to see jianwei so disobedient Lord..why m i shouting? God, pls help me O Lord..why is aunty not taking care of them? are my expectations too high? God, only u can fully understand me...let me be patient..like how i used 2 be..God, i pray that jianwei will not be so naughty and violent, i pray that shirleen will not follow his bad example..let him stop disturbing shirleen. I cannot control him...why am i so angry? i know i shouldnt but God, why didnt u stop me? ok, thanks God. Pls bless your servant.Amen.

:: so tired ::

i feel like closing my eyes to slp now..i will try to follow my timetable as much as i can can..ok...today got jogathon..i was the 72nd lower sec girl to get there..actually cud actually be the 36th..i was in fact the 36th @ mid-point..1st half i ran..2nd half i walked.hehe..so i was 2 times slower...but nvm..thank God i could run quickly n escape from the heat..it was practically kiling me and my frens loh..al was so sweaty and sticky..but by God's grace,i could finish the run..drank orange juice after the run..shared wif jiayi and regina..haha..i wonder y..the problem i ve in school ish that everytime i talk to xiaomin, she dun talk to me..i dun hate her but why is she treating me this way?? God, pls help me,let xiaomin know that i do not hate her and let her not misunderstand me..thank You..in Jesus name i pray, Amen.
tired...gdnitex.God bless! =)

:: God is good::

today gt chi LC leh..i forgotten abt it totally lohx...den i prayed to God..asked 4 wisdom,guidance and strength..and i did the LC! i was not really concentrating @ 1st..my mind was drifting to sumwhere else...btw,sheryl told me that she wasnt going to GOMAD today...so i went to the library 2 look 4 her..walk up walk down...couldn’t find her..was a lil disppointed..but thx 4 my optimism, i told myself, if i had faith in God, den i shud go to CF..so i went..n i found Sheryl!! so happy..i was thinking if i shud tell me my probs...afterall, she's the only fren in PHS i can rilly trust..n i told her loh..k, to be continued...

ok,yep yep, I’m so happy today! i managed to download winzip (actually i cudnt..com was sorta freaky) and den blogger made my wish came thru! yeah! (of cos GOD told blogger..oni He knew what I wanted mah...haha) now i can recover my posts!!! yippee!!! =)

:: prIncEss of g0d ::

yeah..ok..so God is the King...and we are all children of God..means that we r princes and princesses or God! The Almightly King!! ok..well, just to share this email..nice one..take a look.

You are special to me. . .
Just wanted you to know
I think of you most every day,
No matter where I go.

Even though we don't keep in touch
The way I wish we could,
The feelings of warmth I have
For you are always understood.

Distance and circumstances
May keep us apart,
But never doubt the place
You have, forever, in my heart.

Thinking of you today
and wanted you to know.

"I thank my God upon every
remembrance of you."
Philippians 1:3

GOMAD

ok, just in case u r wondering what GOMAD stands 4, it means 'GO Make A Difference' you c those highlited words? 2gether, dey form GOD! =) haha, GOMAD is my school's Christian fellowship..yep..today i learnt that glorifying God is an act of worship. i can even do routine stuff to glorify Him! so happy..means i do not have to do big things to glorify God..little things can do too! =) like doing homework, going to school, doing chores..stuff like that..i hope i can glorify God each and every day...we must also have the right attitude. Pray first before doing something.To God be the Glory!

sang (as a backup singer) at chapeL t0day' *

( im currently in sch nw, booked a com @ the lib..going 4 my CCA later.)

i sang @ the chapel wif sheryl t0day, the air-con was blowing at us n my hands went numb..haha..we sang ' You alone' and 'How excellent Your name is'..

starting from the morning practice (ppl hu were involved in the chapel service e.g playing the piano or guitar blahblah will get to have the privilege of not going to the morning assembly yeah!) i reached the chapel at 07.25am <> den i waited n waited 4 sheryl n the other 2 boys to come...the boys came a while later and then Sheryl came at 8.05 rushing in the chapel carrying her bag because of swimming thingy..will not elaborate on that, long story...Haha...oh well, we saw how everything was set up and then we close with a prayer. =)

now talking about the 2nd practice (during recess) i rushed from the dnt room to the chapel ( i was having dnt lesson) tot i was late! haha, budden i din c the boys or sheryl in the chapel. Yeah, i was the early one again =) den when evryone came, we test the mikes, sang and den everyone came in like a flood into the sanctuary. looking at the large number of ppl, i was feeling rather nervous. guess sheryl was feeling the same way as me so we prayed to ask God for calmness.

the real thing began...after kim read the bible passage from Psalms, we started. i took a deep breath and started. i jus kept concentrating on the song so that i will not feel afraid or anything...we finish the 2 songs very quickly and smoothly. thank God. =)

nEw bL0g' *

haha...i saw sheryl's fren blog and saw that she gt a Christian blogskin, so i got one to0! =) i tot it was rather nice 2 let ppl noe that im proud to be God's precious child! I like a particular bible vrs which i kip in my wallet 4 ez refrence..it is Eph 4:31-32.

"Get rid of all bitterness, passion and anger. No more shouting or insults. No more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead be kind and tender-hearted to one anoother, and forgive one another, just as God has forgiven you in Christ."

I hope that i will be able to THINK before i get angry at someone and shout at him or her...so that i will not hurt his or her feelings unintentionally...btw, t.h.i.n.k stands for...

is what u say going to be...

True?
Helpful?
Important?
Necessary?
and
Kind?

so, THINK before u say anything to someone else...

ok, that's all for today. God bless, take care and bye! =)

:: exams r coming soon ::

yep, the 1st paper is higher chinese (04/05)...i dunno why...but i feel that i cant study a lot...2day is the 11/04 already...another few wks...hope i can get thru wif God's help...i dun want to shout at anyone already..im tired as it is....Lord, give me the strength..help me Father to overcome dis..thank You God…=)