closing my eyes...

another one from MSN Spaces...

what do i see? darkness? people like to say, at the end of the tunnel..its the light..and some make a joke out of it...its the train, duh...

just realised tt what i said was a bit chim...what was i trying to say anyway...

err...thinking too much lah...

want to see my signature? i host it on photobucket...havent been there for so long...hai...why cant we just take sm tym 2 lie back and think for a bit. just a bit will do. haiya...think too much again..but doesnt it make sense?

anyway, here's the website...you can see the other pics i use for my signatures..the credit goes to StealthEagle...she designed all of them for me...=)
http://photobucket.com/albums/y193/moonlite08/

my space on MSN

this is taken from my other blog...
http://spaces.msn.com/members/sandragurl/

"so..im watching charlie and the chocolate factory later...4 some reason, i dont feel any enthusiasm in me. read 'the lost boy' by dave pelzer yest. i finished it in a day..cool, huh? he's so pathetic but STRONG.yea..and then i also read 'sixth grade secrets' by louis sachar.

avid reader? yes.

and i'm reading 'even more like annabel' currently by alan davidson. finished part 1. will con't later. gog 2 eat my LUNCH--maggi mee, now. time is 2.09PM. clocked. one more book untouched: ballet shoes by noel strearfeild. gna read tt soon. anyway, i have not taken my shower yet. gna do tt later too. having chi tuition at 5.30 later. movie starting at 2.45. gog sun plaza 2 watch. watching tv at 7. hong yi shou ji. nice shows. previously, shows tt i watched were: bo ming lao gong zhui lao po...jiu wu zhi zun..tan pan chuan jia...and im also watching JUEduiSUPERSTAR. junyang's out...sad...but i dun feel prejudiced against weilian. everyone shud b given an equal chance. kelly's in..yay...actually i was half expecting xinhui 2 get in cos of her gd performance, nevertheless, she lost but she was very brave...no tears dropped. instead, kelly was the one who was crying...

jus wanna say: KELLY...U CAN DO IT! =)

chatting wif eugene gg...he din reply...guess he is bz...opps...he replied..x) told him 2 chg his DP...haha...

anyway, my other blog is: http://cutebearx.blogspot.com. i will upload dis post there as well...kk..gtg...bb

God bless u! =D"

LOL

hey ppl,

b4 i start on my post, i wish to tell God: Thanks for giving me friends. =D

kk, btw, im at the sch library. i cant use the net at gm's hse liao..i've already been on the net for 6+1 days. =/ only can use 3 days per wk leh..yest i used for 4 one xtra day cos chenxi asked me to look 4 info abt orphans for our PW proj. so i told my mum that i'll pay for the extra day.

it costs $2.50.

using starhub flexisurf2500 or is it 2000? oh whatever..anyway, just now 2 of my frens created their very own blogs too! vic n jos has joined in the bloggers community! yay! anyway, i'll put up their blog links 4 everyone 2 take a look later (one i finish this post). we made some funny pranks on vic's blog jus nw which we hv laughed abt..okay...im gonna update da links part...tc..bb n GBU! ;-)

thanks

to God...thank You God...for EVERYTHING.

not again...

arghh...you just wont believe it..i din get to go again today! SO SO SO SO terribly disappointing...okay...tell u de truth..i cried...cos i tot why God...why? why din u want me to get in? God, why? i was like thinking n asking God at the same time. same things happened. i was so close yet so far. i was that close. SO SAD. tmr still need to go spdlite n cg..im so sad. tmr surely bro pacer or who will ask hu went 4 the FOP...hai...i still dun understand, even though i've stopped. hai...hai...sighing...

oh God...

I've detached from the world. God, i know i've not finished. But i just know that im not attached to it anymore. Not really attached. Ever since i've been your child, i've learnt so many wonderful things about You. And you always give me privileges. Thank You God for loving me. You know I went to the FOP yesterday....Let me share..

After school, i walked with sheryl to the mrt. i Knew she was meeting her cgl for lunch b4 the FOP. okay, that was so lame. then, i actually went back to my grandma's house 1st. I was preparing and all, packing a digital camera, my Bible, a book to read in case i feel bored on the train, an umbrella (just in case...), my pencil case with lotsa pens inside and my wallet. That was all. In it went into the orangy bag. The one i brought to cg last wk. And then i left the house around 4.15pm But my grandmother was like asking me where im gog and i din noe how to put it across to her in TEOCHEW. so i simply said that i was going to meet some friends. and by the time i finished toking to her, it was like 4.25pm. I rushed out of the house.

Okay, so happily n excitedly (hurriedly too) , i walked to mrt which was just 5mins away from da hse. I was in a t-shirt and my SCHOOL skirt still. LOL. So i went to the Marina Bay side..knowing i had to interchg at City Hall, i took out the book, 'A man named Dave' and began to read..i was surprised to note that in his book, he said God hated him! Well, but anyway i continued reading it. I believe that God loves everyone. But well, people, just misunderstand things.

Okay. the mrt came. i apparently..erm jumped in. Lol. there was a place for me to stand. Glad that the train was not crowded. =) And then, i read n read n read and after 30mins or so...i was finally @ the interchg. Angeline called me, and than i knew what was gog 2 happened. My phone went DEAD FLAT. shucks. I onned my hp again, and managed to msged angeline. Iknew she was going to ask me where i was at that hr.And she replied wioth an 'Ok:)' This is so usual of her. LOL. and den the train came. it was gna be another 3 stations to KALLANG. so i kept my book in my bag and waited with anticipation. Boy, it was crowded i tell u. Everyone were pressing again each other like we were a pack of sardines! Oh well, typical singaporeans. Things turn for a chg at Bugis station. I was happy that i could finally have some space to breathe with no one behind me or in front of me as most of the crowd had left at Bugis. So 1 down, 2 more to go. Finally! KALLANG! wow! everyone practically ran out and down the stairs. Taking out my wallet, i hurried and tried calling Angeline. Thanks to God, the phone did not die at that CRITICAL moment. I was so blur. Angeline was just at the right side of me and i din even noe. Lol. So after that, we popped in her dad's car with adonica and i began reading again. We were going to the SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM! in the car, angeline was like saying a lot of mushy stuff 2 her dad. I knew what she was getting at. We reached. YAY! but oh no...i felt i had pain in my stomach. shucks. hadnt eaten lunch. i was HUNGEY. i had gastric. oh no. i prayed against it n told God, it musnt be today God. Not today! I went to the toilet (the movable type) i felt better after that. sat down on the edge of the pavement. God healed me. Thanks God. ;)

The queue was so long, it was made U-turn and curvy and whatever and then angeline managed to 'tenh' her fren we gt into the queue. Pathetic. So bad hors? and den, adonica wanted to leave. Angeline persuaded her to stay but in the end she left. Hiax, wasted. After the left the queue started moving and soon, we were at overhead bridge already. Than when the barrier wqas taken away, meaning we could get in, evryone RAN! yo, it was that exciting.Than angeline asked y evryone was running and i simply said, WE ARE RUNNING FOR GOD! and then she said, GOd Chasers. Haha. Alrite, we went in n i was like"wow...so cool...aircon sumore.' we sat down at row 15. amazing! i told angeline that it was the best place to sit. We gt a FOP bkmak and den angeline told me we had to get out. I was like:'why?' den i told angeline to ask the person sitting nx to us to look after our bags. He agreed.

the security guard told angline that once we get out, we'll hv 2 queue again. Den i didnt feel like gog out. But angeline insisted. so out we went to get our fd. Both our hp batt was flat, so we had to borrow. Hai...titus was at the east. we were at the north. so we ran all the way and saw titus. he gave us the fd bought frm mac. we ate. and queue. angeline worried that our bags will be taken away. i assured her tt it wont. the man will look after for us. a series of events happened. de 3 of us queued. When we were so close to getting in oredi, the sky turned black, a few gers in front sang and we sang too. BUT..we waited until 7.40pm and the doors were still not opened. PnW started liao. i was a bit discouraged until...the ppl told us that..

The stadium was full! i was disappointed. i asked angeline," our bags r still inside. surely they will let us in?" then angeline said...wt abt titus? i said there was a spare seat beside us. we can giv it to him...and so she went in. Our bags were stilll at our seats! She said, carrying oout bags with her. Where's my bottle? its still inside! there was no way to get it bck nw. she said. haix...so we left. i said why cant we go in nw? den she said. u shud hv comed in with me together jus now. hiax. i was so so disappointed tho i din showed it. the gorgor and jie jie asked me if i was okay. i sAID im alrite. i had just NTS...then we boarded a bus. To orchard. we found out thAT THE BUS alighted at nx sattion..Jln Tiga??? we were lost. i asked them where r we??? they had no idea too. so we went into a taxi. i took out my camera..took the night scenes...gt to suntec...

took ltsa pics and than my psirits lifted up. i drank iced lemon tea. at cross talk. a christain cafe. den i say a poster that said..if i gave u something today n u missed it, i'll made another one 4 u tmr. i was touched. i duno if God was telling me to go again tmr. i din noe. i just duno. i told God. but its a very long journey u know...and den i tot..maybe God will give me smth better tmr? but i knew it'll b the same..just that i'll be gog myself lor. so i dished out da tot. titus said his cg was gog tmr but i siad. no pt. i duno ur cgm. sigh..so we went to a foodcourt next to finish our drinks. titus was hungry..so he bought fd. he was hving a cough n den we chit-chatted a lot..den we walked 1 round at suntec and we left our seperate ways. Titus n i boarded the same train. I took out my book again. ANd read. then at yishun station, i found a place to sit. so i sat n read. next station im alighting i tot. so i said'byebye' to titus den gt off. he was aliting at marsiling. n den i wlked bck. i saw mum n mei there. surprised. n we went bck tgt. told her evt. n den....blah..i wacthed tv..oh wadeva...goodnight.

FOP

After school, i walked with sheryl to the mrt. i Knew she was meeting her cgl for lunch b4 the FOP. okay, that was so lame. then, i actually went back to my grandma's house 1st. I was preparing and all, packing a digital camera, my Bible, a book to read in case i feel bored on the train, an umbrella (just in case...), my pencil case with lotsa pens inside and my wallet. That was all. In it went into the orangy bag. The one i brought to cg last wk. And then i left the house around 4.15pm But my grandmother was like asking me where im gog and i din noe how to put it across to her in TEOCHEW. so i simply said that i was going to meet some friends. and by the time i finished toking to her, it was like 4.25pm. I rushed out of the house.Okay, so happily n excitedly (hurriedly too) , i walked to mrt which was just 5mins away from da hse. I was in a t-shirt and my SCHOOL skirt still. LOL. So i went to the Marina Bay side..knowing i had to interchg at City Hall, i took out the book, 'A man named Dave' and began to read..i was surprised to note that in his book, he said God hated him! Well, but anyway i continued reading it. I believe that God loves everyone. But well, people, just misunderstand things.Okay. the mrt came. i apparently..erm jumped in. Lol. there was a place for me to stand. Glad that the train was not crowded. =) And then, i read n read n read and after 30mins or so...i was finally @ the interchg. Angeline called me, and than i knew what was gog 2 happened. My phone went DEAD FLAT. shucks. I onned my hp again, and managed to msged angeline. Iknew she was going to ask me where i was at that hr.And she replied wioth an 'Ok:)' This is so usual of her. LOL. and den the train came. it was gna be another 3 stations to KALLANG. so i kept my book in my bag and waited with anticipation. Boy, it was crowded i tell u. Everyone were pressing again each other like we were a pack of sardines! Oh well, typical singaporeans. Things turn for a chg at Bugis station. I was happy that i could finally have some space to breathe with no one behind me or in front of me as most of the crowd had left at Bugis. So 1 down, 2 more to go. Finally! KALLANG! wow! everyone practically ran out and down the stairs. Taking out my wallet, i hurried and tried calling Angeline. Thanks to God, the phone did not die at that CRITICAL moment. I was so blur. Angeline was just at the right side of me and i din even noe. Lol. So after that, we popped in her dad's car with adonica and i began reading again. We were going to the SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM! in the car, angeline was like saying a lot of mushy stuff 2 her dad. I knew what she was getting at. We reached. YAY! but oh no...i felt i had pain in my stomach. shucks. hadnt eaten lunch. i was HUNGEY. i had gastric. oh no. i prayed against it n told God, it musnt be today God. Not today! I went to the toilet (the movable type) i felt better after that. sat down on the edge of the pavement. God healed me. Thanks God. ;)The queue was so long, it was made U-turn and curvy and whatever and then angeline managed to 'tenh' her fren we gt into the queue. Pathetic. So bad hors? and den, adonica wanted to leave. Angeline persuaded her to stay but in the end she left. Hiax, wasted. After the left the queue started moving and soon, we were at overhead bridge already. Than when the barrier wqas taken away, meaning we could get in, evryone RAN! yo, it was that exciting.Than angeline asked y evryone was running and i simply said, WE ARE RUNNING FOR GOD! and then she said, GOd Chasers. Haha. Alrite, we went in n i was like"wow...so cool...aircon sumore.' we sat down at row 15. amazing! i told angeline that it was the best place to sit. We gt a FOP bkmak and den angeline told me we had to get out. I was like:'why?' den i told angeline to ask the person sitting nx to us to look after our bags. He agreed.the security guard told angline that once we get out, we'll hv 2 queue again. Den i didnt feel like gog out. But angeline insisted. so out we went to get our fd. Both our hp batt was flat, so we had to borrow. Hai...titus was at the east. we were at the north. so we ran all the way and saw titus. he gave us the fd bought frm mac. we ate. and queue. angeline worried that our bags will be taken away. i assured her tt it wont. the man will look after for us. a series of events happened. de 3 of us queued. When we were so close to getting in oredi, the sky turned black, a few gers in front sang and we sang too. BUT..we waited until 7.40pm and the doors were still not opened. PnW started liao. i was a bit discouraged until...the ppl told us that..The stadium was full! i was disappointed. i asked angeline," our bags r still inside. surely they will let us in?" then angeline said...wt abt titus? i said there was a spare seat beside us. we can giv it to him...and so she went in. Our bags were stilll at our seats! She said, carrying oout bags with her. Where's my bottle? its still inside! there was no way to get it bck nw. she said. haix...so we left. i said why cant we go in nw? den she said. u shud hv comed in with me together jus now. hiax. i was so so disappointed tho i din showed it. the gorgor and jie jie asked me if i was okay. i sAID im alrite. i had just NTS...then we boarded a bus. To orchard. we found out thAT THE BUS alighted at nx sattion..Jln Tiga??? we were lost. i asked them where r we??? they had no idea too. so we went into a taxi. i took out my camera..took the night scenes...gt to suntec...took ltsa pics and than my psirits lifted up. i drank iced lemon tea. at cross talk. a christain cafe. den i say a poster that said..if i gave u something today n u missed it, i'll made another one 4 u tmr. i was touched. i duno if God was telling me to go again tmr. i din noe. i just duno. i told God. but its a very long journey u know...and den i tot..maybe God will give me smth better tmr? but i knew it'll b the same..just that i'll be gog myself lor. so i dished out da tot. titus said his cg was gog tmr but i siad. no pt. i duno ur cgm. sigh..so we went to a foodcourt next to finish our drinks. titus was hungry..so he bought fd. he was hving a cough n den we chit-chatted a lot..den we walked 1 round at suntec and we left our seperate ways. Titus n i boarded the same train. I took out my book again. ANd read. then at yishun station, i found a place to sit. so i sat n read. next station im alighting i tot. so i said'byebye' to titus den gt off. he was aliting at marsiling. n den i wlked bck. i saw mum n mei there. surprised. n we went bck tgt. told her evt. n den....blah..i wacthed tv..oh wadeva...goodnight.

btw, some photos i took at suntec...


Angeline (took when queuing up) just look at how excited she was...LOL

And this is taken in the taxi...see, she doesnt look as radiant already...

Me in the taxi...LOL

us..acting cute? LOL...

We asked a stranger to take this pic 4 us...angeline, me n titus..haha

=) Me again!

Har! Look at angeline's eyes..she's gone bonkers..LOL...

This is Titus with his "Dont do that!" look..LOL

Isnt this gross? Angeline bended her index finger!

Isnt thsi beautiful? i took this while the rain was coming toward me..cool huh?

gog FOP

FOP, FOP! Yay! i'm going! R u? come n glorify God and enjoy yourself there! meeting angeline at 5pm later @ kallang mrt...=)

FOP!!

its coming! come, let's get excited abt it! let's get geared up to worship God with our bros n sis! I'm going! And i hope u r too! Come, now is the time to worship! God, we are coming! See You there! =)

NOTICE!!

people, i think there is something you all ought to know seriously...u all have been living in darkness when there is Light..but most of you dun really noe who or wat is the light.

I tell you. Jesus Christ is the Light. He is the Truth, the Way and the Light. He DIED FOR US. okay, u might think tt im crazy but im not! even if u were the last person on Earth, He will still die for u! Just to take away your sins!

My friends, or should i say, my brothers and sisters..u can't c yourself. Our body is just our house for our soul. Our house helps us the get things done. Our hands help to do work. Our legs helps us to walk. If not, how will we be able to do things?

Our real self is our soul, which lives inside us. For those who are believers, Jesus is inside our soul too. He is there, whether you believe it or not.

I tell you, God made you for a purpose. You wonder if there are angels, devil and things liddat. And yes. There are. You know why u wonder? Bcos those spirits are really around us. There is a invisible realm. We cant c it. And bcos sum ppl duno wat its like, they imagine there are monsters and heroes. But i tell you, there is God's spirit and the evil Satan there. Remember, God is everywhere. You know why Christians keep inviting you to Church? To be saved! So that Satan will not have a chance to catch hold of you.

If you are saved, all the angels is heaven will rejoice and God will be happy too. You want to let the devil win? You will want not want that im sure, unless you have a hard heart. but you have a chance to be saved. You can be saved. Turn your eyes upon Jesus.

stressed day no.??

im so irked again today. im still here. at my house and then dad told me to keep the clothes and i did. reluctantly. dad is complaing again. the duck rice story again. not in any mood to do hw. again. afraid tt dad will peep at de com. so i m minimizing the window over and over again.

angry..so angry.

Now I just decided to blog again cos I’m very angry right now…just came back from church as per normal..’cept tat I came back home. here. woodlands. yah..din went back to WP’s hse or whatever. you can sense tat I’m terribly stressed by everything tat’s going on ard here..my dad brought my things back. everything. not even leaving anything out and I dunno hu’s the one hu wanted 2 take my things back. was it dad or mum? dad said mum gace him de permission to do so. but dose r my things. dey make their own decisions w/o informing me.. im confused and very irritated. den dad is sitting on the armchair feeling he’s so big shot or wat. its disgusting. I dun like it. den mum is sleeping now at WP’s hse. shirleen wants to come back..blah blah. its dumb. den now there are stupid pop-ups everywhere. dis com gta virus. its stupid. I’ve got de pop-up blocker okay. I’m angry. dead stressed. its not tat kind of stress. its this kind of stress. and im gna stop here. btw, im charging my hp. just letting my steam off.

yay...bck again!

u noe...i still dont know hu "passerby" is leh..nvm la, ok during this time wen i din blog..God really took good care of me..jus ate lotsa things...heheh..now at my mum's friend's hse..blogging..yea..so tired..later den con't..=)

::so long::

i noe i noe, havent posted for some time [how long, im not sure]..ok, anyway, a lot of things going on...i just feel so sick, and so tired of it loh..kekes..well, went to the BBQ yest...quite fun..had ice-cream too! but not choc flavour..*sobs*...=( but its alright lah, dun really mind much...I just feel that as you grow up, u dun really care much about stuff..Just did the book review thingy..and there's the HOLS.yipee.but with HW!! argh..so dreaded..need to do CHINESE journal..yea, have to rt 3 interesting or unforgettable events that happened over the hols. TIME, PLACE, PPL INVOVLED have to be clearly written down oso, ZLS said. not be be more than 250 words. haix. pictures are greatly appreciated. more haix. need to type the journal entries out! to print! argh...[haix.haix.haix!] what a lot has to be done, yah? Also, need to rt a story based on a song u like. I chose by ZSH [Angela] the lyrics are with me. haven started riting tho.heex/hey dun choose the same song as me kayx? yah yah. alright. time now is 1336hrs. huess i'll stop 4 now. God bless, tc n bye..=)

-God is fabulous.

m0vies~

today...we watched another movie...'I Do I Do' [u noe, de Jack Neo's movie?] in school...it was quite hilarious and touching loh...lolz...

tot had CCA today..but ShiHong told me dun hv..so i went home loh...ard 3+pm...cos i was in de com lab, printing de reading log summary...it took longer then i thought..the printer was sumhow gone mad or smth..haha...

O yah..the literature activity...formed a grp wif aliciaT, jiayi, regina & rebecca..den we had some 'arguments' as to who should be the narrator...b4 tt, it was de leader..haix..dey r always quarrelling abt this wen there is grp work..haha...den in the end, regina was chosen..dey wanted 2 sabo me again actually..budden i told 'em i did not want to...cos i've been de leader for many times in tt grp...lolx..anyway..evt went fine..but..we didnt present..is tt a happy or sad thing? well, i guess God says it shu b a happy one? haha..we practiced for quite a few tyms but...nvm..

And and...if u notice, i've changed my blogskin...using christabel's design again..haha...guess she has a forte in creating christian blogskins yah? cool..=)

alrt, till here, tc & God bless! x)

*took 2 mins 2 rt this entry..xP

another one...by de photoshop expert...

yea...another one..by my senior..hahas..a photoshop expert...nice? but maybe he can change the font...hheex

the updated one...

the lastest n newest one..cool rt? haha..i requested 4 it..xP...its de one im using nw 4 my forum..=)


inspiration frm God (:

i can lean back and fall on God, for He will use His mighty hand to help me up again..

He WILL PUT ME to where i belong..and i will rejoice!

His love is everlasting, He never changes.

He does evt with a purpose, though u might not notice it at times.

Even when u r reading this...God is talking to you.

He is speaking to your heart...and knocking at ur door...

Hoping that you will open it...to let Him in...

He is waiting...so dont keep Him out

Bring Him into ur heart..and offer ur life to Him...

Have u opened the door for Him?

my sig [done by God+myself! =)]

yeah, managed to create my own sig..tho no pics..but well, guess its pretty good 4 a beginner like me...hahas

cruelty+meaness

today...was yet another UNHAPPY day for me again...[i dunnoe] is my msn nick n0w..n yes, i reaaly dont noe..my specs thingy dropped...and now its lost...can find it...and i've tolerated them 4 so long...and God knows..but...i am still very SAD...you know God..is a wondeful God..HE stands by you...in the past...of cos,the present and He will take care of you in the future for you are His child...yes i noe dis...but things arent going fine 4 me actually...

SADDENED.

mild depression.

BUT GOD GAVE ME HOPE.

blessing in DISGUISE.

guess that's so IT.

all right..bye 4 now...God bless n tc...//hey dun brood over this entry//its just my feelings.

my deepest thoughts..

i want to stick close to God-- for my whole life! Trusting in Him...the KING is kind and merciful...God told us everything we need 2 noe in His word-- the Bible. revealing bit by bit to us...becoming more n more like Him! =) God wants to bring out the best in us-- using our gifts and talents He gave us! God thinks abt His creation all the tym..including me! =) I luv God but He loves me even more...Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him-- Colossians 1:16 ! My life is about God...it revolves around Him...He placed me here on Earth for a reason-- to do good things for Him! =) God has the power to control everyone's lives, bcos He can do all things! Continue...to fire 4 God..never give up..bcos God is my strength...He is my sherperd, guide me to where You want to lead me. Take control..my life is Yours. Sacrificing myself is the way to go.I dont mind.You are there wif me. Without You, I'm lost...Keep me..dont ever let me go...I luv revelation...cos its the opp. of speculation...

REVELATION x SPECULATION.

..and the root word of it is REVEAL.

~woah 2nd entry of the day...came back from miracle svc...God was really there...so many healing cases..touched...God really did wonders..pain lifted...so on n so forth..if u wanna noe, cum 2 LIGHTHOUSE EVANGELISM...tampines or woodlands...on Sat...starts @ 7pm..if u want to noe abt the map...go 2 my web...www.freewebs.com/chilicg...u will see the map there...n rmb 2 sign de guestbk too! =)