Things to help

• God knows what I'll be at the end of Term 2, at the end of this year, at the end of this bond. He is in control of all things..He knows how it'll all end..He knows all that I feel. He has it ALL planned out, unlike me. Haha which is good..He already knows what's gonna happen next week..
• Stop thinking of how I'm gonna do everything I need to to do..just one day at a time is enough..if that's the best I can do, it's enough.

• Being prepared really helps to reduce the anxiety..and enables me to have a positive frame of mind..

• Even the best have to relearn things..things they used to be good at can be the same things they have trouble doing after a while..so so what if I think I was better during contract? Cause I think by the end of Term 1 that time at least things were better than they are not? BUT PROGRESS IS NOT LINEAR and it applies to EVERYONE.
  
• Told mummy about the thought process in the previous post and she asked "Then what's the best that can happen?" Smth which I didn't really focus on..my answer..
• I can manage my class well every day, the kids listen and don't misbehave..
• I believe in myself again
• I teach them well
• I ENJOY IT EVERYDAY
• I get to show them God's love everyday and do it like it's my calling!
• Think about the good that happened in class - though I push it out often because I feel it's not enough..cause I think it doesn't mean that when there's good, the class would behave better the next day..because I still failed..day in and out..but there was good..and sometime during the term I did make it a point to list them down on my phone/ in my journal..but towards the end I guess I just felt like such a failure cause one term down and things didn't seem to be picking up..but let's see...
• Friday started out alright..got the kids who were playing in the toilet to stand in the front and warned them sternly..
• Class photo-taking..the boys and girls wanted me to stand on "their" side..
• K and E helped at the end of the day to clean the class..
• Holidays - saw J when I was out (really just wanted to hide) and some others in school..all called my name really loudly???
• thought of the times I praised J..even though she refused to greet last Wed (???)..she did the actions for the school song nicely..she helped with the plug when I was having trouble with it..and every time I call for ICT leaders she comes running..