Down

The day started going downwards after school..it was the last lesson that made me super down..I still can't forget that scene when everyone clapped..yea maybe they dont mean it but it still made me feel humiliated..yes its not the country's problem but that wasn't written by me. And v and c didn't helped to talk or anything..and i felt so stupid standing there..I was just reading from the paper la..ya maybe I'm too sensitive. My smile disappeared i had no appetite for lunch and ate only one ham&cheese..now i think 2faith was better..am I being hypocritical? finally a bad day in school class and then i miss the old times. but really, who doesn't? I miss my carine. I miss having her around..i miss happy family where everyone supported each other mentally. I miss the good old days the bond & everything..after that I wanted to go home alone but I didn't want to see anyone from school other than my dearies. I wanted jy/hm/v to be around..at least they can cheer me up..and v can apologise or something but no I went home with ac, mz and xm. i couldn't escape seeing anyone from my class..i really didnt feel like seeing anyone. mc suddenly came & talked to mz. sigh. so i listened to some music (ac turned the volume real loud (okay maybe its loud for me only)..i really wished I hadn't seen anyone. Sorry God. I just have to vent this out..=( i wish someone was here for me to hug or even cry on. i really feel like crying now. just now when i came back the door was locked and aunty wasnt at home and i kept calling for waipo but she didn't answer..i called till my my vioce turned sore..then fainnly she came out and said she was talking to her friend in her room and couldnt hear me..okay i know she has a hearing problem..if its the positive sandra talking to me, she said: maybe its not that everything went against you..just forget about them and think positive. but now i dont even want to think positive. i even didnt want to go to school tomorrow. but i guess i would.

There's a chemistry test tomorrow and i have to study for it. I pray that i'd do well =) Yay I smiled. Lol and I laughed. Maybe seeing the tagboard and going over to nolnet would cheer me up a bit more. Okay bye people..sorry for all the small wordings above..God bless & take care! (: