Do you see?

Balaam’s donkey saw the angel of the Lord standing in the road with a drawn sword in his hand. The donkey bolted off the road into a field, but Balaam beat it and turned it back onto the road. Then the angel of the Lord stood at a place where the road narrowed between two vineyard walls. When the donkey saw the angel of the Lord , it tried to squeeze by and crushed Balaam’s foot against the wall. So Balaam beat the donkey again. Then the angel of the Lord moved farther down the road and stood in a place too narrow for the donkey to get by at all. This time when the donkey saw the angel, it lay down under Balaam. In a fit of rage Balaam beat the animal again with his staff. Then the Lord gave the donkey the ability to speak. “What have I done to you that deserves your beating me three times?” it asked Balaam. “You have made me look like a fool!” Balaam shouted. “If I had a sword with me, I would kill you!” “But I am the same donkey you have ridden all your life,” the donkey answered. “Have I ever done anything like this before?” “No,” Balaam admitted. Then the Lord opened Balaam’s eyes, and he saw the angel of the Lord standing in the roadway with a drawn sword in his hand. Balaam bowed his head and fell face down on the ground before him.
Numbers 22:23‭-‬31 NLT

1. Animals see God more than humans do..makes me wonder what my little hamsters saw too..

2. Stubborn heart = stubborn eyes. We see only what we wanna see..God open my eyes too..

3. God can do anything. If my hamsters could talk..what would they say? Hahah

What has kept me going

Hiiiiiiii! Been so long..almost a month since the last update omgosh I miss this space..been wanting to post the lyrics that really really speak to me/ represent my life this period but I havent had the time/energy to do it..a lil lil bit of spare time now so.....here goes!!!!!

For the whole of crazy Sep..crazy cause I didn't get a break..

God above all the world in motion,
God above all my hopes and fears,
Well I don't care what the world throws at me now,
It's gonna be alright!

Cause I know my God saved the day,
And I know His word never fails,
And I know my God made a way for me,
It's gonna be alright!

--
During recess week:

You Got Me Workin' Day And Night
And I'll Be Workin'
From Sun Up To Midnight

You Got Me Workin' Workin' Day And Night
(Hold On)
You Got Me Workin' Workin' Day And Night
(I'm So Tired Tired Now)
You Got Me Workin' Workin' Day And Night
(Hold On)
You Got Me Workin' Workin' Day And Night

You = NIE

Haha cause of AE/FYP I was thinking about the number of research papers I've written these 2.5 years..

• Perceptions of Peer Feedback on Writing (2015) [2312 words]
• Language Acquisition and Development: Case Study of a 7;8 in Singapore (Group work) (2016) [3650 words]
• ‎Migrant Workers and Identity (Group work) (2016) [1980 words]
• ‎Parents' Attitudes and Perceptions Towards Singlish (Group work) (2016) [1998 words]
• ‎Sleep habits and child outcomes in Singaporean preschool children (2017) [3800 words]
• ‎Exploring Language Use and Receptive Vocabulary of a 2;5 year old Bilingual in Singapore (Pair work) (2017) [2085 words]
• ‎The Use of Contrastive Analysis as an Instructional Tool for the Teaching of Grammar at Upper Primary Levels (2017) [6480 words]

One more to add to the list at the end of the year hahah and I realised actually only 3 of them were solely written by me! Haha feels like more..but I guess that's cause those 3 are really rather long..

--
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

(what I found today..really reflects how I feel..the raindrops just keep falling..)

GDLL

Ahhhhhh

So thanks to the Wayback Machine..I found......

https://web.archive.org/web/20071007220928/http://sann.atspace.com:80/

https://web.archive.org/web/20070719064030/http://sann.atspace.com/games.html

https://web.archive.org/web/20061005012527/http://blessed.pretty-child.net:80/

My superrrrr old blogskins :') and some of the stuff in them actually still work :') including the screenshots here also just in case the archive site ceases to exist one day haha..so I'll still have something to look back on

4am thoughts..

Haha haven't slept cause..I woke up late today?

- my unbridled laughter is so loud it's crazy lol thank God for friends who accept me for who I am man..who else is gonna be okay with this level of siaoness haha

- found December club today!! Thank God for cute group mates during the mini amazing race today haha wanna write little notes for them when I'm leaving..

- googled the paradox of selfdeceit article I posted years ago here and came across this blog that included its excerpt too!! Anddddd the writer of the blog is Christian too!! ANDD she has a section on "why I believe"!! - major omgosh cause that's exactly what I thought of writing about before (the phrasing too!)!! So amazing to find such a like-minded person online!! Haha wow..

[Fri edit: omgosh..just read her (I'm assuming it's a her haha) About page and her last para..is totally me too..omtian..how on earth is there someone so similar!! pristinepondering.wordpress.com link is here by the way. Wah just amazed at how God created someone I can relate to online haha hi kindred spirit if you somehow happen to read this! 😁]

- HSM feels :') God pick me up like this too okay? Hahaha

- seems like I post at the end of every Thursday haha

- super thankful for my dear listening ear..ever supportive Pascal..😌

"I like to stay up late at night because it seems like the world just stops for a little bit & everything is at peace"

Counting blessings..

Week thus far has been pretty tiring..just as I was feeling quite sad about not clearing my sleep debt though I only have an afternoon class today, I got a random message from someone I knew from Cru (but wasn't close to) wishing me happy teacher's day haha so sweet that she actually took the time to message me and even offered to pray for me after that..haha made me think, "how do I know God is real? This is one of the ways..people showing God's love at times when you need it.." can't be a coincidence..haha thank You for loving me through people..was touched when she prayed for me over WhatsApp..just..grace in action :')

Another story..

So I've this mod with 2 compulsory textbooks to get but I didn't manage to get them at the start of the semester cause the sellers I approached sold the books to other people already..but thank God the tutor said he wouldn't need to use them the first few weeks (well actually he did get us to refer to them but thank God everyone else at my table brought the books and could share with me + he didn't fault anyone for not bringing) so I didn't have to worry about getting them..

Until recently the tutor mentioned this elearning assignment which I think requires the textbooks to complete so I had to buy them..but remember there wasn't any more on Carousell? Haha so I wasn't really expecting to find any when I searched again but lo and behold there was this girl selling it for $20!! Usual price $36.80 so..yea must be God!!! Haha and so..I managed to get the textbooks I need for almost half the price today..thank You for taking care of my needs..😌

Also thank God for the strength for classes yesterday morning..to take part in class discussions despite not sleeping enough on Tues night at all..only got home past 1030pm? 😪 And had trouble falling asleep though I was dead tired..had to wake up at 7 yesterday so yeah..it's a miracle I survived the super long day yesterday..! And managed to nap a bit at my fav sleeping spot in NIE after classes so I wouldn't be as zombified during CR..haha

So yess..counting all these blessings and remembering how God is taking care of me though I'm too tired to realise it sometimes..

-

"..private, reserved and self-conscious. This makes them difficult to really get to know, and their need for these qualities contributes to the guilt they often feel for not giving more of themselves to those they care about." - legit how I've been feeling lately..esp towards people who always care even though I don't have the energy to care for them as much as I'd like to..😔 God help me..gimme a bigger capacity + better sleep quality so I've the energy to be there for those around me!

When I don't "feel" Christian

Never let me go.
Never let me go.

Times when I feel like..I'm not as close to God..when I don't feel what I sing during praise and worship..like today..is God not there? Definitely not..so I was asking..where are You..where am I..

And God was (still is) carrying me..when I can't see God..maybe that's cause I'm being lifted..

So..never let me go God..despite whatever I feel/ think..

And train of thought #2:

What gives me comfort when I don't feel like I'm behaving like a Christian is how God knows me..completely. He knows every fear, every struggle..He knows my humanness. And He understands.

"I know you." - and that's enough.

Hi

So..this is strange. I don't usually do this haha but..I think I'm realizing how important personal stories are..not for my own sake but for others..(which kind of explains why I recently revived my dead IG haha surprise surprise! But also cause I felt like I needed to record that moment..cause like what I told a friend who knows how it's so uncharacteristic of me to post, "it's not gonna happen again..I'm never gonna have a final moment of my last summer break again 😢" hahahaha #dramaizme)

The link that I put on my IG profile is ymi.today haha in hopes that it'd lead people who randomly encounter my private profile to a place where they'd find their questions to life answered (cause..I've learnt that..the question everyone has but no one really bothers talking about is.."What's my purpose in life?")

But today..I'm gonna change it. To this blog. Cause a website like ymi is helpful but it's not gonna connect with y'all the same way my own stories would (not cause I'm better than the writers on that site but simply cause it's just different when you know the writer of what you're reading vs when you don't). I came across a blog today and was just reminded of..how I used to write like that on this blog..how I used to share my life through this space..and I guess over time..I withdrew because I got scared. I don't like sharing too much with too many people and that's the reason I hardly ever post personal stuff on my social media accounts. When this blogging thing started, you had to click on people's links to read what they had to say. So people had a choice. But now every post (on IG/FB) just pops out at you (i.e. inyoface lol) when you scroll through your feed and..haha I just feel uncomfortable making people go through what I share in that way..(cause what if they don't want to? What if they don't like it? Haha insecurities101)

But here's me. Haha and my dusty blog. Not sure who's gonna read this (other than the close few I might share this with) but thank God IG has this bio link option so..I feel better you're here by choice and not because you've to read this on your feed heh

So much to say (things I've been thinking about/ learning) but..right now at this moment..my thought is: why does time pass so quickly?? Wanted to work on my FYP but..haha the day is ending soon?? Too fast God..too fast. But thank You. For the fact that I'm even able to type this despite whatever I'm supposed to do. For helping me see the bigger perpsective.

So..to the world. Let's go. Link's gonna be up and welcome to my world.

P.S. dayre.me/sandrainbow for where I had been writing online the past few years (I guess writers never really quit writing haha we just find different platforms too do it heh) okay just went to read what I wrote hahahaha I'm so sorry it's gonna be so real..some of the posts are pure angst some superficial some talking about insignificant stuff and some reflective hahaha but okay doubt anyone will stalk everything soooo here it is!

JC study resources

Haha wah haven't updated this space in almost a year!! Haha so I was looking through my bookmark folders and checking if the links are still working..probably should have shared them long ago but..looks like those around me didn't need them hahaha anyway here are some of the websites I found useful during JC that are still functional!! :)

Math
https://collegemath.files.wordpress.com/2009/07/mf-15.pdf - online MF15 for easy ref hahaha

Chemistry
http://www.chemguide.co.uk - super useful! It was my go-to whenever I couldn't understand what was taught in school hahaha

http://www.chembuddy.com/?left=pH-calculation-questions&right=pH-of-mixture-q1

http://www.sparknotes.com/chemistry/acidsbases/phcalc/section1.html

Biology
http://highered.mcgraw-hill.com/sites/dl/free/0072437316/120060/ravenanimation.html - "View full color, dynamic animations to help you visualize key biological processes.

You have the ability to control the animation by turning on or off the narration, playing the animation with or without text, and can start, stop, or rewind the animation to any point you choose."

http://www.jci.org/articles/view/20800#SEC2

General Paper (GP)
http://unpan1.un.org/intradoc/groups/public/documents/APCITY/UNPAN002726.pdf

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/02/18/technology/18link.html?_r=1&ex=1361163600&en=7e1482fcbf01bc65&ei=5088&partner=rssnyt&emc=rss

Technology was a common essay question topic so yup haha hope all these are useful to you if you happen to find this page!! :)

Did God plan everything?

God planned everything. Maybe our mistakes were planned so that we would see that we need Him cause if we are perfect, we wouldn't need God. And because we'll always make mistakes, we'll always need Him and it is through this need that we would know Him and be able to tell others that He's the one they need too. (our life purpose! =D)

• “Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
  ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭139:16‬ ‭NIV‬‬

• “We may throw the dice, but the LORD determines how they fall.”
  ‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭16:33‬ ‭NLT‬‬

• “A man's mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure."
  Proverbs‬ ‭16:9‬ ‭AMP‬

• “A person’s steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand their own way?”
  Proverbs‬ ‭20:24‬ ‭NIV‬‬

• “Lord, I know that people’s lives are not their own; it is not for them to direct their steps.”
  ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭10:23‬ ‭NIV‬‬

"God has told us that He is in charge of the world - and everyone and everything in it.  God is running everything in this universe according to His will – not ours." We gotta remember it's all about Him, not about us.

“The Lord works out everything to its proper end — even the wicked for a day of disaster.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭16:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭1:11-12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“For we are God's [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live].”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

“[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is all the while effectually at work in you [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭2:13‬ ‭AMP‬‬

“When he heard this, Jesus said, “This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God’s glory so that God’s Son may be glorified through it.””
‭‭John‬ ‭11:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬  

For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. 

Colossians 1:16 NIV

"How can God tell us to “be anxious for nothing” (Phil 4:6) unless He not only knows, but is in control of, everything that is going to happen to us?" :)

Read more: http://www.gotquestions.org/God-is-in-control.html

God is a super detailed God!
He gave very specific instructions and measurements to Noah on how to build the ark (Gen 6:14-16) and to Moses on how to build His sanctuary (Exodus 25-30)! And these are just a few of the specific things God has said.

correction: not knowing where he was going (Heb 11:8)














Read more:
http://www.goodnewsaboutgod.com/studies/spiritual/home_study/plan_of_salavation.htm

Agree with most of the content except the free will part haha just cause it makes sense to us (because of our finite minds) that we have no free will because God planned everything doesn't mean we have no free will. It's just that we cannot comprehend how God's plan and our free will tie in together. :) But then again, only God knows the right answer! Haha but whatever the case it shouldn't affect my view of God cause I know my need for God > my need for logic/my need to be correct

Faith and works?
Things are actually very simple. God just wants us to trust Him. When you trust a friend, you'd do what your friend tells you to do. So, we don't have to worry about our works. Just concentrate on trusting God and we will naturally do what He says ☺

My Hamster Log

It's so crazy to think that just 11 weeks back they were so tiny..hahaha i still remember how I checked on them so often that I thought the mum would probably be really annoyed with me so I prayed very hard that she wouldn't eat any of them hahaha and thank God for answering prayers!! The first prayer I prayed when I got them was that all of them would stay alive hahaha the first 2 weeks was fine - except that I'd spend so much time looking at them that I wouldn't do anything at all lol and things got pretty stressful after the 3 week mark cause that's when they started squabbling and I saw the mother fighting with her kids!! So I found my old cage, took out the babies that I saw being attacked by their mum but omgoodness tried so many different combinations of hamsters but ended up having to separate all the children from their mother hahaha i think their mum was sick of them asking for milk all the time and probably cause the cage was too small so it could have been a territorial problem since the hamsters were growing bigger and needed their own space!

DID YOU KNOW?
- HAMSTERS NEED AT LEAST 360 SQ INCHES OF FLOOR SPACE IN THEIR CAGE?
- STORAGE BOXES MAKE GREAT CAGES FOR HAMSTERS BECAUSE THEY ARE SPACIOUS ENOUGH
- THE CAGES AND THE WHEELS YOU SEE IN PET SHOPS ARE WAY TOO SMALL FOR HAMSTERS

And I've never ever read up so much on hamsters in my life until that period of time lol and now I know what I did wrong with my previous ones!! Poor things had cages which were way too small for them!! Lol at one point I thought, I'm reading more about hamsters than my own schoolwork!! Lol really crazy. I was also so paranoid that I didn't get their genders right and they would breed again. And when one of my females looked really big compared to the rest I was so worried that she was pregnant lol but after waiting out the gestation period, there were no babies so I concluded that she's just really chubby hahaha

Hamster woes:
I have 5 hamsters at home now and the only reason I have them is cause my dad's friend decided not to take care of them after the mother hamster gave birth so my dad brought all of them to me in a container. Sigh looking for new homes cause the babies are getting bigger and can't stay in a small cage anymore. Plus I feel the need to play with them after 12am cause that's the time they are awake. Plus hamster bedding and food is expensive and cleaning so many cages every 2 weeks is tiring so I really really need someone to take them :(

Another reason I don't wanna keep any of them is cause based on past experiences I'd feel super horrible when my hamster dies. I took 2 weeks to get over the death of my last one :( and I get super worried whenever I notice anything wrong with it. Cannot imagine this feeling multiplied by 5. Just kill me already if it happens. Haha
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Update: managed to give another 2 away so I was left with just 3 after that..but sadly one of them (my favourite one) went missing recently..sigh I pray it's in a better place now!!

“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.”
- Kurt Vonnegut

Perhaps..Valentine's, Christmas..days where people are generally happier and you can really feel a lighter atmosphere in the air..these days are better because everyone is being nice to one another. Season of love, season of giving..how nice it'd be if everyone is like that everyday..how nice if I feel so loved everyday that I would always feel like passing it on..

I feel really bad for treating people badly. I'm sorry. It's because I'm not feeling that good myself..people who are hurt tend to hurt others unintentionally because they are hurt themselves..and the only way is for someone else to take away the hurt..but I'm thankful..and I'm gonna say this although somehow whenever I say something is good/ I'm okay, things go the other way round..as if I'm not allowed to say good things..

Anyway..thankful for that pat on my shoulder today..thankful for that prayer..thankful for a listening ear..thankful that I don't have to share what I don't wanna share..oh and..thankful for that message..which was really unexpected..which I'd have completely missed because I haven't been checking social media much these days..and unexpected encouragement from the most unexpected person does seem to be able to make you feel unexpectedly better..so thank God for it.

Thank you. Because things really do seem pretty bleak when you're tired and feel like you're losing/ have lost faith in humanity.

Circumstances can really change your perspective of life. I pray for a positive perspective of life even when the going gets tough..I pray for my spirit to be light even when things threaten to weigh me down..I pray to be able to love people even when I don't feel the same from them..I pray to always have hope no matter how many times I get disappointed..so that I can always love those around me..

Things will get better..things will always get better..cause if it's not okay..it's not the end. :)

LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEE

/Pretty sure I'm not going through this cause I need to relate to someone but because of my own choices..haha but it's cool if God uses this experience just so someone else would feel better and won't feel as alone as I did..I wish I can tell everyone that if they ever need a listening ear for anything..I'll be there cause I know how horrible it is not to have one. But the irony is..maybe I don't really wanna hear everyone out..because maybe part of what someone says has got to do with me..but okay la that's just one person and I guess he just has to find someone else to pour out his heart to la haha..but I really feel that..it is when people pour their hearts out..when people are vulnerable that I feel like we're all human and we all just really need someone..

Ah God..it's really not easy to be nice to someone who has hurt you like crazy..emotions can overwhelm you..and make you forget the bigger picture..that's when you need friends to remind you of the bigger picture..when I think of how short life is..then it's like "aiya..whatever la..don't wanna be angry or anything also.." but honestly..it's just not that easy..it's never that easy..but God..I pray You'll just give me joy and strength every day to face life..so I can continue to be an encouragement to people..haha

And if I might just be a bit more demanding, can I pray also for more unexpected encouragement from people? Haha I didn't realise how much it'd impact me until I experienced it..and I also pray for more ears that listen maybe? And more importantly, I pray that I won't take these people for granted and will be able to do the same for them when they need one.

Help me to focus on the positive things of people..help me to remember the good they've done..thank You God..thank You God..

TIME TO SHOWER! =D

/Oh oh before I forget, I just wanna say that I love reading other people's blogs when I can relate to them especially when I'm not feeling good cause I feel like I'm not alone in it hahaha

HAHAHA OMGOSH JOKE..IRONY OF THE DAY
Please look at what I wrote in 2011..
"oh yea and I had this thought earlier on - so many girls put all their hopes in their relationship. And end up feeling insecure and confused..even though they keep trying to tell themselves that it'll all work out, and even though they do have happy moments with their boyfriends, I seriously think that such times are just temporal..I've seen so many of such examples..and I never ever wanna be like them! I wanna put all of hope in God and God alone! =D Cause God's the only one who will never ever fail you. That's why it's so important to have a close relationship with God! =D"

Hahahahaa ironic that I ended up being the kind of girl I didn't wanna be..HAHA JOKEEEE..I'm sorry for judging you all 3 years ago!! I now know how hard it is NOT to fall into that trap even with a stable relationship with God..hahaha what a lesson learnt the hard way! See what I mean when I say "somehow whenever I say something is good/ I'm okay, things go the other way round..as if I'm not allowed to say good things"..hahahaha joke if I'm using my phone now I think this warrants a lot of the laugh cry emoji!!

And it's weird how I saw that cause my tagboard is so dead that when I scroll through old messages I still can see those sent in 2011 hahaha

Hahahaha I'm still here. Forgot to say something I usually say at the end of every blog post!! God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =D okay REALLY GONNA BATHE NOW! Hahaha

Bangkok Trip!

Haha I thought I better write down everything I want to before I forget!! So here goes!!

There was so much to thank God for!! 

Including the good weather which was better than I expected!! Haha though there were slight drizzles, it didn't really dampen our mood! =D and also, none of us fell sick or got a stomachache from eating too much food!! Hahaha oh yea and thank God for providing the strength and energy we needed even though we were so tired from the lack of sleep!! It's really amazing how I managed to wake up so early (6/7am) when I would be waking up at 11plus before the trip hahaha so yea really thank God I survived!! 🎉🎉🎉 and last but not least, thank God we didn't get robbed or anything!! =D

Oh yea along the way because I felt like everything is so surreal and like I'm still in Singapore, I started writing the differences I observed! Haha so apart from the different language, there were:

- Tuk tuk!!

Honestly one of the best parts of the Bangkok trip hahaha wished it could have gone faster though!! Love feeling the wind in my hair hahaha 🍃

- Pink cabs

Haha you'd see them everywhere! Such a bright and cheery colour! :)

- Food court card

In every food court you HAVE to use the card!! Lol I was so stumped the first time when I handed cash to the stallholder and she gestured at somewhere else and said "card!" Haha

- Tissue box on every (eating) table! =D

Love it! So convenient! Haha and good for lazy people like me hahaha and it wasn't just in the food courts! You'd find them even on the streets as long as the stall is selling food and there are tables around! 😄👍

- Floating market!

Haha so nice buying and eating food on the boat as you go along the market!! Really cool experience!! =D

- No proper bus terminals

Haha we just stood at some random spots to wait for the bus! No bus shelter, no seats, no signs, no indication that it was a bus stop at all at some places!! Haha I'm still amazed that the locals know exactly where the bus stops are even though the system is so disorganized! Haha

- Bus conductors instead of ezlink card system!

So cool and old-school! Haha they would give you paper tickets just like how SG used to do it in the 80s!!

- BTS system! The card and token!

Haha yea like I mentioned the transport system is disorganized and not uniform!! So unlike Singapore, you don't use a single card for all your transport needs to get around the country! They use the card at some stations and a little round red token at some others! And instead of tapping your token to get out of the station, you'd have to slot it into the machine when you get off! Haha pretty interesting! :)

- No "dividers" for seats on the train from airport!

Haha I thought it's a pretty clever way to maximize space! But I was told it wouldn't work in Singapore cause people would complain of others sitting too close to them and it would increase opportunities for chee ko peks to prey on young girls 😪 haha oh well!!

Haha yea that's about it!! Haha quite tired now cause we all woke up early everyday so we could explore more places haha and I woke up early again today for the June camp! But thank God I managed to take a nap in the afternoon so it isn't too bad!

Haha yup so God bless, take care and byeeeeeeeeeeeee!! =D

Memories to treasure always

Was packing my stuff and I realised I'm so, so blessed. More than I can ever imagine.

My mum did this handmade card/booklet for me for my 6th birthday and took special effort to put captions for every single picture she printed. If I didn't remember wrongly she said her colleagues helped to do some of the drawings. Sweet daooooo..

Looks like I started being a grammar nazi at a really young age..look at that comma! Hahaha must have been thinking that there should be a comma somewhere but I wasn't sure where so I just placed it in the middle hahahaa

Hahahaha super funny I was trying to name all the characters I saw in the booklet but it looks like I got them all wrong!

My mummy is so awesome..!!

I also found this card my maid made for me when I was 12..super touching really..God has really used people around me to speak to me..such words of wisdom..thank you so much Aunty!! Yes indeed..9 years on, God is still the one guiding and helping me to make my dreams come true :')

THANK YOU GOD FOR PLACING PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO LOVE ME!!

So yesterday I taught the P5 and 6 about flexibility..using Barak and Deborah's story..in which case, Barak was the inflexible one because he wasn't flexible and didn't really want to obey God..but honestly, if I could teach it again, I would tell the kids that sometimes we are ALL like Barak..and they don't have to beat themselves up for being like him..cause it feels kind of hypocritical that I'm telling them it's wrong to have such an attitude when I'm sometimes like that also..

The thing is, if we are so perfect, we wouldn't need God.

Just a few moments ago, I caught myself thinking of a "what if"..and realised how similar it is to yesterday's story..actually Barak didn't want to obey God because he was afraid..actually come to think of it..that sounds a lot like Jonah..who ran away haha well the Bible is full of characters who are real..and who are just like us. Deep inside, we humans haven't changed much since the start of time..have we haha we still have our fears and insecurities..and we all want to be loved.

But anyway, my "what if" wasn't to doubt something God commanded me to do..there are just some things I'm not sure about cause I'm not sure what God thinks of it! Oh well!

Update!

Wowowow. It's been really long since I last updated! Well..it's crazy but true: 2013 is coming to an end..lots of thoughts on my mind but I thought it'd be good to see what my schedule looks like this holidays! (YESSSS MY FIRST SEM IN NIE HAS ENDED WOOHOOOO)

27 (Wed): Dental appointment - FINALLY THIS. It's been more than 2 months since I last went!! Omgoodness..couldn't find an appropriate date cause my dentist went on a holiday..okay long story but yea finally gonna fix my teeth!! I REALLY PRAY THE GAPS CLOSE REALLY SOON..HOPEFULLY BEFORE MY 21ST!! Hahahaa would be a really nice present!! Cause they've been there for so long!!

28: NIE Crusade Gathering!

29: Unify Leaders Meeting!

30: P6 Outing!

2 Dec: Dry Run for Minion Camp

4: Prepare materials for camp!

5-6: Minion Rush Camp!!

12-14: Camp Unify! =D

25: CHRISTMAS!! YAYYY hahaha

Okay la currently it's like that! =D I'm recovering from a really bad sore throat and cough now (haha I lost my voice after my exam!!) so thank God!!! Honestly I've got a lot to thank God for..for being with me throughout the entire semester..I actually had a really bad stomachache during my Math paper and couldn't think straight but somehow all I felt was God's peace after the paper..like everything will be okay and God's gonna take care of my results so I've nothing to fear! =D Hahaha it's crazy but there were really a number of questions I couldn't do because of all the pain and tiredness I was feeling but yea God's in control!! And I wanna thank God also for the people who were with me throughout..for bearing with how crazy I could sometimes be..all my angst and what not on days I don't get enough sleep..these people are really God-sent! =D

Recently there has been a lot of articles circulating around on FB regarding relationships like "20 things to look out for in a husband" or something and honestly I've read some of them..on first glance it seems really harmless..I mean if you're single and would like to get married someday some of it is really good advice but as I came across more and more of such articles, I think it isn't really healthy for me to read them because 1, I end up having expectations and that adds stress to the other party in a relationship and 2, (which is what I thought of today) I realise I've been placing the focus on the wrong relationship..I should be working on my relationship with God! I really have to get this drilled into my heart and head: when I focus on my relationship with God, the other relationships in my life would fall into place. So yea 3, because they distract me from what is truly important.

You know something? Wrong priorities lead to cracks in relationships. When you keep your eye on the wrong destination, things go wrong. Things may seem really good on the surface but in reality, it's not a bed of roses, not at all. It's like you're supposed to climb a tree but if you keep looking at the ground and STAYING on the ground, you're not gonna achieve the goal.

Haha okay that paragraph sounds really vague but I guess it was more for myself..okay gonna end abruptly haha God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! =D

Lessons learnt

• NEVER, EVER go to a printing shop to print something. Today I had to print a coupon from Groupon and I paid $1.40 for just one page. $1 for using the internet and 40 cents for the printing.
• YES something is wrong with my printer. My computer hasn't been detecting my printer for some time and this problem has caused me a lot of trouble. Had to print a lot of stuff at school when previously I could just print them at home!! Seriously, if you have no problem printing stuff at home, be glad!
• On a happier note, 399 said he'll be coming to pass me a new printer USB cable so I'm really hoping that it'll solve the problem!!

Sunnyside

Found a new song that I love a lot!! Here are the lyrics! =D

Begin where it ends, end to begin
Knock on that door so you can get in
And don’t mind the time, forget all that’s been

Get lost in a park, find a tree that will last
Find a secret path that leads to a house
Climb the stairs to the roof, lay flat on your back

No use feeling down, get rid of that frown
Take a walk on the sunnyside
Take a walk on the sunnyside of

Wash up in a stream, let it take you away
Through forests and seas, wherever it may
Fill up the space with your own melodies
And every once in a while when you miss the breeze
Just look at the scars marking your knees
And know that again now is where it’s at

No use feeling down, get rid of that frown
Take a walk on the sunnyside
Take a walk on the sunnyside of town

But when the clouds come closing in
You feel the raindrops on your skin
Let it pour, let it be okay
Until you know another sunny day

No use feeling down, get rid of that frown
Take a walk on the sunnyside
Take a walk on the sunnyside of town
Take a walk on the sunnyside of town

Me taking a walk on the sunnyside! Was initially feeling rather down until I heard this song!

God bless, take care & byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! =D

Things to thank God for in this week.. =D

No Monday blues! - longest day but I felt happy at the end of the day! =D 

and thank God I wore shorts!! Cause the weather was so hot so it felt a lot better wearing shorts! Usually I wear track pants! Haha

LJ to Healthzone - had to split my class into two because there were 3 classes going but only 2 buses and when I split my class, a lot of my students actually wanted to follow me and a few of the girls even cried because they couldn't..at that point of time even though they were feeling sad and everything I suddenly felt very appreciated because I know I've built rapport with them..

And it was really relaxed that day!!

My cute little ones that I look forward to seeing everyday!! I actually have one girl who will look out for me every single day and the first thing she says to me would be "I've finally found you!" As if I've been long for a very long time hahaha

Friday - READERS THEATRE IS OVER!! So happy!! =D really relaxed also!! Only had less than 1 hour with my class! Cause of the performances!! Felt quite bad because i promised my students that there would be math quiz! And some of them even asked to go back to class and they were asking about the math quiz!! Haha =D

So it was very relaxing!

Kit Kat!! =D

I really love my class!! =D and every week I'm counting down..feels like such a short time already!! I'll miss them!

Saturday - really fulfilling because I took a boy who is supposedly hard to handle and he is actually very motivated to do the tests!! =D

And I spent a good time with my family celebrating my papa's 50th birthday! Thank God for my crazy family! We played an arcade game together even papa!!

Sunday - really thank God cause I didn't really get a good sleep last night and I was quite tired but during service I suddenly felt a lot better praising God!! =D =D and after writing all the things that I wanna thank God for in this week! =D

I realized I have been working myself too hard!

I realized I have been working myself too hard! No wonder so tired! So from next week onwards change strategy! =D

I followed the scheme of work quite closely! Which means after I teach a topic, I just go on to the next one. Even though I do go through corrections with them in class, they don't do their corrections and some even do them wrongly!! So now a lot of them have a lot of corrections undone/ wrong corrections (aiyo) so now I 拼命 make them do corrections/re-corrections whenever I can: during assembly, when I see them before school, during MT (which is the only time when I'm free!!)..haha yea..tiring lor!! Practically no break at all for the whole day..

Lesson: NEVER ever move on to the next topic until ALL corrections for the current topic is done. Must check thoroughly cause sometimes they do but do wrongly!! Lol face palm! My students very blur!

SOOOO my strategy is gonna change!! Thought of something!! Practice makes perfect right?? So I'm gonna print a lot a lot of drill worksheets for them!! Then make them do and do!! No need to do corrections for this one. It's just to make them practice and let me see where their standard is. Then will give prizes for correct answers! =D ANDDDD during this time, I'll take a student out to do corrections!! =D cause the rest of the class will be concentrating on their quiz right? So yea! Conducive environment for one-to-one! =D

A lot of students with a lot of corrections = Stressed and cranky teacher!!

And I'm not gonna be like that already!! Yup thank God for this idea!! =D God I pray that You'll help and enable me to manage my class well!! And I pray that with this, they will really improve!! =D AND GOD I PRAY THEY WILL BE ALERT IN CLASS AND PAY 100% ATTENTION WHENEVER IM GOING THROUGH CORRECTIONS!! No more corrections/re-corrections after this round of clearing their corrections please!! THANK YOU GOD!!!! In Jesus' name I pray, amen! =D