Okay lemme just get my thoughts out.
Today someone texted in the chat and he replied. Nice long reply. And honestly I was a bit annoyed cause in our last convo, he blueticked me. Way to be bias huh.
Been having a headache since the afternoon and I didn't respond to the chat but I doubt anyone would notice or bother to ask. Much less him.
Wish I didn't care about his response. Or lack thereof.
But I can't get what I heard out of my mind. Why did God say it, only for things to turn out like this?
I've tried and tried. But forget it. I don't wanna earn his approval. Tiring to. For others it's so easy to. But for me, somehow it never seems enough.
I doubt he'd read this. Like I said, he doesn't care.
Maybe part of me feels like..he considers the person he replied a friend but not me? The one who was there for so long? I don't get it. I really don't.
Honestly, isn't it basic courtesy to reply DMs before group chats? So that no one's feelings would be dismissed/ hurt?
How difficult is it to do that? And yet, some people never seem to learn.
What do you want me to say or think about this God? I'm sick of being someone that people treat less well.